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Birthday • 1989-12-15 Gender •
Female Location • some were in the world Member Since • 2004-08-15 Occupation • Dog Handler, Real Name • Stacey
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Achievements • Retraning race horses, Going to the Westminster dogs how Anime Fan Since • since was 11 Favorite Anime • Dont have one Goals • To be able to stand on my own two feet without needing the help of others Hobbies • Writing, Riding, Showing dogs Talents • Being able to live with Diabetes
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
Mind Snap
Everyone thinks they know why I did not leave and go where I could have kept my Star.... it was not because of mu mum because I think of leaving her every day, I think of her being called and told to come ID a body or waking up because I did not get up for school when my alarm clock went off and she fined me in a puddle of blood. I did not stay from my dad because I know he dose not really care or know that I am here, I did not stay for my friends because no matter where I go I have no friends, and I did not stay from my brother because he'd be just as with out me... I stayed because I could not have a dog where I was going, and now that I'm so close to my dog, its slipping through my fingers and I am asking my self why, why am I here, why are they just though's and ideas, why have I not made them happen, why did I lose star... for something that would be short lived?? for something like hoping daddy would walk in to my life and be there, for something like mum and everyone understanding I'm not Bad, I try but why try when you get no where and no one sees you any ways, Why did I let my horse ... my best friend... my life.. my soul... my reason for say being diabetic was just a bump in my road... what am I hanging on to ?? something that no long is there and really was never there... this is where I say I give, I don't care, I have No dog No horse No friends and No will to keep going, so this leaves me to make everyone hate me and then let me slip away, because I still think somewhere might be need for a laugh or something else and even in reality I know this is not true and is still keeps me here... because I cant be the one to cry and brake to say NO MORE, I CANT TAKE NO MORE... because that hurts more... maybe I will wake up and it will just be a rainy day and I will have star and my pup next to me and its all a bad dream...
The song sort of Goes with the mood... remember to smile,
