myOtaku.com: blackwolfpup

myO Still <3's You

Vitals

Birthday
• 1989-12-15
Gender
• Female
Location
• some were in the world
Member Since
• 2004-08-15
Occupation
• Dog Handler,
Real Name
• Stacey

Personal

Achievements
• Retraning race horses, Going to the Westminster dogs how
Anime Fan Since
• since was 11
Favorite Anime
• Dont have one
Goals
• To be able to stand on my own two feet without needing the help of others
Hobbies
• Writing, Riding, Showing dogs
Talents
• Being able to live with Diabetes

myOtaku.com: blackwolfpup

Friday, June 11, 2010

edge of death
SO i have sat on the edge of death a few times now. The times that i have almost sliped in to her blue waters i cant really say i remember. The first time was 7 years ago, when i was dinosed with type 1 diabetes. I was so sick that i really didnt even remeber but bits and pices of the day. i remember the smell of lavender. I rember not feeling anything, not cairing what was happing but when the pain hit it hurts and i reember not caring but just wanitng it to stop. after that those 2 days in childrens hospital in Boston Ma, i have only sliped into the icey waters of death one other time.

Feb,2010 I went in to DKA, it was to the point i couldnt keep anything down and couldnt walk. my vains where so far gone it took several differnt people trying to get ivs in, it was to the point that they had a count down into how long they had till i was past the saving point. again the world slows dowed down and only clips of this or that is all i can really remember. when the blood sugers where down and everthing was back on track all i wanted to do was go to my dog show, i kissed her, i touched her but i never seem to remember her.

On tueseday june,8,2010 I wasnt feeling good and later found at that my pump meter was not working crectly it was reading numbers like 300,290,359.... which was not the true number that my bs was at, so i covered and covered. i felt light headed and kinda acey. I went to bed and dont remeber my gram trying to get me up for lunch, or anything else. My blood suger had droped to 20 and i was unresponsive to anything, my grandparents called 911 and about half hour or so i woke up to the inside of an amblance... I dont remeber talking to my gram at lunch and telling her that i wasnt hungery or anything that really happened.

I have kissed the lips of death and have almost swam in her waters but not on purpes. its never been scary its like a dream you cant get out of, i never understood it but im not scared of it and i cant seem to think that i will ever be. but im just in a little moment when you think about all the times you can really so you almost died and the times that all you can do is think about how quiet it could have been, even tho theres a raw of noice just outside of you.
Comments (2)

« Home

Anime | How to Draw Anime | Anime Wallpapers

Top of Page