Friday, June 10, 2005

   insomnia-abnormal inability to sleep(welcome to my fucking world)
::Current Mood::
Fucking high, or something

::Current Song::
Nothing, but I can hear my heart beating in my chest

::Song Lyrics of the Day::

"Hanging By A Moment"

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where I Started
Chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all I’m lacking
completely and complete
I’ll take your invitation
you take all of me

now.. I’m falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I’m diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing left to lose
nothing left to fly
there is nothing in the world that can change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else..

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where I Started
Chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I’m diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

just hanging by a moment
hanging by a moment..
Hanging by a moment...
hanging by a moment here with you...

::Pics of the Day::



::Horoscope for Today::
Today's Pisces Horoscope

February 19 - March 20

'Survivor' is a lot of fun to watch on TV, but it's no way to live your life. So if you're thinking about indulging in any of those staples of reality TV (alliances, backbiting, gossip, needless hysterics) -- don't. There's really a much calmer and more healthy solution to the issue that's currently on the table. In other words, save the drama for your mama -- or your TiVo. You have much more important things to use your energy on right now.

~~Romance~~

You're focusing on your physical and emotional health today, and that's absolutely the best thing you can do for the health of your relationship. So, how's your diet? Exercise? Heart? Soul?



I watched Samurai Champloo and Paranoia Agent. Mugen is hot, but Jin has that more anitsocial thing about him.He hides his emotions behind those glasses. The eyes are just windows looking into the soul, so his glasses put up that shield. That's why I like him...and my own glasses.
I feel high..or what I could only guess it would feel like.My wrists itch too.It's weird.I feel like I'm the only person alive right now.Sitting on an abandoned island or in the middle of an overgrown forest, looking in upon what a busy,meaningful life might look like.I feel so...isolated.
It rained for about 10 minutes today.I was pissed about that, but at least it rained.
I feel like I've been on some kinda drug for the past few days that's made my whole body numb and happy.Now it's like the empty bottle is lying on my floor and the pills effect has worn off.Maybe I really am high...or just tired.And yet, I'm wide awake...
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to the movies.*deep sigh*I feel like I won't be able to ever rise again once I lay down.My eyes burn too.Maybe it's because I'm not wearing my glasses, or I've been writing too much in the dark again...or something else.
I am rambling, I should go now.
One more thing...I am dying my hair black and putting colored strips in it.Your choice:
Blue,Pink,Red or Green?
tell me what ya think.

laters

*~Me~*

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Thursday, June 9, 2005

sleep-a natural, regularly recurring state of rest for the body and mind, during which there is little or no conscious thought(so that's what sleep is)


::Current Song::
Living Dead Girl--Rob Zombie

::Song Lyrics for the Day::

~~Desperately~~

There's something 'bout the way
You looked at me
Made me think for a moment that
Maybe we were meant to be
Living our lives separately
And It's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately

Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately

You looked my way, you said "you frustrate me"
Like you're thinking of lines and times when you and I were you and me
You took our chance out on the street
Well you missed my chance and chances are
It won't be coming back to me

Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately
So desperately... ho

Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately
I want you so desperately, oo oo oo

I keep giving in,
But I should know better
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
So desperately
I want you so desperately

::Pics of the Day::



(Chester Bennington,Linkin Park band member,2nd hottest man alive,right there enxt to Vin Diesel in second place ^_______^)

It's fucking 12:30 in the morning and I'm still hyped as I was 5 hours ago. Fucking shoot me, please!!!
(Last Resort just came on the radio ^.^..Papa Roach likes coming on whilst I'm adding a post o.O)
I made a button for my ABG, who really isn't anonymous anymore,lol. Oh well ^_____^
Last night,my friend Robert dragged me to the movies..and while we were watching the movie,there was this couple of middle aged people behind us and Robert looks at me..he starts moaning,like I'm feeling him up or something! OMFG it was soooo embarrassing!! When the movie was over, those people were looking at us with such disgusted looks. I swear I have never blushed so bad.HE enjoyed it though -__-
No body ever gets on @ night, so Im stuck here by myself. I drew something,but Mom is sleeping in the living room where the scanner is. Damn my father and his loud snoring, damn it to Hell. And now I have the hiccups. Omfg... .-___-. Well, um, the rest of the RP will come later today, I'm almost finished with it.*stares distantly at Linkin Park poster on wall*
here is my retarded horoscope,just for the fun of it:

Today's Pisces Horoscope
February 19 - March 20

Go ahead and break your arm patting yourself on the back. Isn't it time you gave yourself all the credit you know you deserve? You've come a long way, covering distances and overcoming obstacles that you didn't even know existed. You've done things that you didn't think you were capable of doing. So go ahead, rest of your laurels for the moment. Heck, wave those laurels around and enjoy the cool, refreshing breeze.

~Romance~

You are going to be surprised today by the extra helping of romance you receive at dinner. And you thought their rosemary potatoes were the best thing you'd ever tasted!

Alright,well,I don't have much more to say..I hope it rains later today..
Hope you all are enjoying your fucking night of sleep -____-
byes
*~Serena~*

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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

   All in All..........................................................................LIFE FUCKING SUCKS SOMETIMES


::Current Song::
B.Y.O.B--System of a Down

::Pics of the Day::

(^______________^ I just had to put him on my site Mizu^^)


::Lyrics of the Day::
~~Bullet Proof~~
Do you listen to yourself
Never live for someone else
Do you like the way you feel
Nothing hurts when no one's real
He wants to shake this scene
Yeah he wants to shake with me
He's not looking for the holes in all the lies

I wanna bullet proof your soul
Would you like to lose control
I won't let you fall until you tell me so

What are we
Everything
All I need
I've know before

Would you come my way
Or did you burn out to the end
Would you come my way
Should have listened when you called my name

Yeah he wants to tear you down
And he leaves without a sound
It's like falling backwards
Into no one's arms

You're a bullet through my soul
And I'll never let you know
I won't let you fall until you let it go

What are we
Everything
All I need
I've known before

Would you come my way
Or did you burn out to the end
Would you come my way
Should have listened when you called my name


Hey everyone, I know I said I would have that second part of that Rp today, but I haven't finished editing it, and I am too lazy to do it ^_____^;;;
But, if you would all do me a favor and go welcome DamienDante back, he's been gone awhile,that would be great. Thanks in advance.
In other news, it was supposed to rain today, and it didn't, so that fucking sucks. I'm working on this song, because my friend Mike, who is teaching me to play guitar, told me to come up with something. I dunno if I'll have the guts to actually show it to him, but I'm gonna write it reguardless.
Mizu wasn't on last night, so I watched Mystic River. Good movie, but I figured it out about a quarter into the movie.
(Scars just came on the radio, good song ~.^)
And, I COULD NOT get to sleep last night.I finally dozed off at 5:30, had this dream that I,under no circumstances,want to discuss with anyone, and then was woken up by an angry father @ 6:00 looking for his hat because he was late for work. I didn't go back to sleep after that.*sighs*I was actually starting to get to sleep at night. I dunno what the Hell happened.
[Sorry for any typos made during this post,I am not wearing my glasses ^^;;]
well, I'm gonna go now. I've said all that I'm gonna say for now.
~~ttyl~~
*~Serena~*


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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

   wow, I haven't updated in awhile o___o
Hey everyone,sorry for like disappearing for awhile ^^;; I just never really got around to updating. So, to make up for it, my sis Mizu-chan suggested I put up a small portion of our RP to the public...so I shall..it is titled...Spin-da-Bottle
Enjoy(it is in 2 parts,part 2 comes tomorrow ^_^):

ShadowKitten1234:
Callie:*says quietly*we should all play a game...
Shadow:*sits up and looks at her*Like what?
Callie:I dunno..I mean, there are so many possibilities
Shadow: Spin the bottle ^___^
White Wolf Mizu:
Aya: *Blinks* Shadow is feeling mischievous tonight ^^;;
Touya: *smirks*
Ruke: Geh, you people really are crazy o.0;
ShadowKitten1234:
Callie:*looks at them all, then back outside, her arms crossed over her chest*
Shadow:Oh c'mon you guys, it would be fun. Two girls, three guys, what could go wrong ^________________^
Callie:I'm game
Shadow:See,Callie's willing to play ^_^
White Wolf Mizu:
Touya: oh fine I'll play
Aya: me too! ^_^
Ruke: I don't think so
Aya: Oh C'mon, it's just some innocent fun is all
Ruke: *let's his dragon arm take human appearance and he smirks.* Alright.
ShadowKitten1234:
Callie:*disappears into the kitchen and looks around for a bottle...she comes across 5 bottles of soda and giggles, pulling them out and brining to the living room as everyone sat around in a circular shape...she hands a bottle to everyone and sits down beside Ruke and Touya*First one to finish their soda gets to spin first ^_^
Shadow :A chugging contest, eh? Oh I am so gonna win this
White Wolf Mizu:
Aya: Ready, set...go! *Begins chugging.*
Ruke: *Almost already done.*
Touya: *Looks at Shadow, almost done himself.*
ShadowKitten1234:
Shadow: HA!*falls back as he empties his bottle*FINISHED!
Callie:*coughs and soda comes out of her nose as she watches him fall back*OW!!*reaches across the circle and hits him*YOU DORK,YOU MADE SODA COME OUT MY NOSE!
Shadow:*chuckles and sits up, holding a hand to his stomach*
Callie: Ugh -__-*he stands, goes into the bathroom and wipes the soda from her nose and sits back down*Alright genius*places her bottle in the middle*Spin
Shadow: No ,we're using my bottle*slides hers back at her and places his in the middle*
Callie:*takes her bottle and throws it at him*
Shadow:*dodges and sticks out his tongue at her*
White Wolf Mizu:
Ruke: o.o
Touya: *Rolls his eyes with a smile.*
Aya: *Punches Shadow in the shoulder.* Be nice *innocent smile*
ShadowKitten1234:
Callie: Just spin the damn bottle Shadow -____-
Shadow: Fine*he smirks and spins it...his heart sinks in his chest and he watches nervously as the bottle spins faster, then slowly begins to stop*
Callie:*she watches who it lands on with wide eyes*Oh my gosh...o___o
Shadow:*bats his eyelashes at Touya and holds a hand to his heart*I've been waiting for this moment ever since I met you Touya
White Wolf Mizu:
Touya: *Brow twitches* No...way...in...hell
Ruke: *Smirks and glances between the two of them.*
Aya: ^^;;;
ShadowKitten1234:
Callie:*she glances at Shadow, then Touya*This is...awkward
Shadow:*smirks before he lunges across the circle, transforming in mid-air and knocks Touya to the floor and begins licking him*
White Wolf Mizu:
Ruke: *Watches them, his smirk growing.*
Aya: *Points and laughs, falling back on the floor as she does so.*
Touya: ok ok get off mushy time is over. *Shoves him off and wipes his face with his sleeve.*
ShadowKitten1234:
Shadow:*goes and sits back down, transforming*
Callie: Shadow, that was cheap…no more transforming, if we're going to play, we're going to deal with whatever we get
Shadow: Would you have preferred I kissed him?
Callie: No, that's why I made up the rule after you kissed him ^___^*turns to Touya and hands him the bottle*Your turn
White Wolf Mizu:
Touya: Okay then. *He spins the bottle and it goes in a blur for a while, before it slows down and lands on Aya. They do a friendly kiss on each cheek and he sits back down.* never said how you had to kiss them.
Aya: *Smiles.* You need to be more specific on the rules BEFORE the game starts Callie ^.~
Ruke: *Rolls his eyes*
ShadowKitten1234:
Callie: It's fine, I would rather not have you and Touya making out right here in front of everyone ^_^*giggles gently*
Shadow: Alright Aya, that means it's your turn

dum dum dummmm..what will happen tomorrow you ask? he he, well, you'll just haveta visit tomorrow and see ^______^
Oh, don't forget to go check out Shmizu's site too!! With her help,I added her button..ain't it purdy? ^_____^
so yeah..come back tomorrow...visit Shmizu..the whole shebang..bum,bum,BUUUMMM...
cold Chinese food and root beer..what more could ya ask for? ^___________________^
*~Serena-chan~*

To know the pain of too much tenderness...
A part of the body or mind that has been injured or broken is usually tender to the touch...
Why do you think my heart is so frail?
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Sunday, May 29, 2005

   *eyebrow twitch*
I hate my family....









I hate the beach...









I hate going to the beach with my family...









-.-









enough said, I just want to scream >_< I bet Mizu-chan and Dark can cheer me up though...I can't wait 'til they come on...-*angry sigh*I should get to everyones sites tonight, promise.
*~Serena-chan~*
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

   eh...x_________X
Seems the road less traveled,Show's happiness unraveled,And you got to take a little dirt,To keep what you love,That's what you gotta do,Sayin' you love but you don't,You give your love but you won't,You're stretching out your arms to something that's just not there,Sayin' you love where you stand,Give your heart when you can...

Sleep one night and can't the next, insomnia is crazy.Here's something for you to read. It's the bio for my latest RP charrie.Enjoy ~_^

Name: Yoru (meaning ‘night’ in Japanese)
Age: 18
Race: Full blooded wolf
Eyes: Left eye-golden wolf eye; Right-glazed over and mostly blind, it takes an icy blue pigment
Hair: Jet black, with blue streaks in it, he always keep it back in a ponytail that goes about 8 inches from his shoulders down his back and bangs that constantly shadow over his eyes
Family: Father/Name: Kiri [meaning ‘fog’ in Japanese]-Used to be the leader of the Lunar Race clan until Ame [meaning ‘rain’ in Japanese] (Callie’s mother) took the pack by jurisdiction of the rest of the wolves. Eventually, his own greed and hate caught up with him and he lost his life to the battle over leadership against Lady Ame;
Mother/Name: Aki [meaning ‘autumn’ in Japanese]-Died soon after giving birth to Yoru and his siblings, so none of the other wolves (nor her own children) knew her very well;
Siblings/Brother (name: Tsumetai [meaning ‘cold’ in Japanese]) He has a great grudge against his older brother and ever since their parents died, has been trying to out-do and/or kill his own kin due to jealousy.
Appearance: He wears a plain white T-shirt that he tucks into his pants with a short-sleeved black jacket that only reaches his stomach with a collar that he always wears folded up, that comes to the middle of his neck and a bloody heart on each sleeve that he never zips up. He always wears thick black gloves and, on his left arm, three belt-like wristbands, set exactly 3 inches apart on his lower arm. In total, he wears 4 belts: A black one with silver holes in the actual belt loops, two brown ones and one black one around his thighs, each with a different symbol having to do with the moon on the buckles. His pants are black with zippers all the way down the sides that he always leaves zipped and four silver buckles on each thigh. Along with all this, he wears big black combat boots with the same bloody heart symbol that is on each of his sleeves on the side of them. He wears one stud in his left ear and around his neck he wears a chain with a black flame pendant that sits on his chest. His right eye has a jagged scar across it from a battle he once had with his younger brother, Tsumetai, and because of that, he can barely see anything out of it
Wolf Form-his fur is deep black that shines blue when it catches the light just right. He stands about 3 and ½ feet tall from the top of his head to the ground and about 4 and ½ feet from the tip of his tail to his nose. His eyes are the same as in his human form.
Personality: Being that his mother died early on, and that his father was such a power-thirsty, thick headed bastard, he’s never known any from of love, other than the bond between an individual wolf and its pack. His old man taught him that emotions were petty and everything was meant to be kept inside....so for the past 16 years, that’s what he’s been doing. The poor guy has never smiled once in his life, except for the occasional evil smirk you might see before slaughtering someone or committing an evil crime. He mostly stays silent and solitary, though he is currently the loyal and strong leader of the Lunar Race clan. Unless something in his mind is dying to be said, it is hard to get more than 3 words out of him. His golden eye always glitters with mystery and danger and is easy to get caught in. He can smell fear in anyone, as well as see it in their eyes. Only the purest of hearts can see deep down into his soul and expose to their minds what little emotions he still has. He is very determined and once he sets his mind to something, the only thing that might keep him from succeeding would be his own death, and he won’t go down easy without a fight. He is a controller of darkness and all shadows that linger on this earth.

Hope you guys like him as much as I do ^_________^
I ordered the Wolf's Rain complete DVD set,I can't wait till it comes ^_____^ I LOVE Wolf's Rain, it was one of my favorite animes right next to Inuyasha^^
I leave you with some piccies ^_^


[a little close there Sparky?^^]

[and of course,probably one of the hottest men alive,Kiba! ^^*drools on keyboard*]

*~Serena~*
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

   *blink,blink*
Hands on the mirror,Can't get much clearer,Can't make this all go away,Now that you're bleeding,You stare at the ceiling,And watch as all it all fades away,From what you do,because of you,You know I can't be there,Each time that you call,I swore not to come,But I'm here after all,I know by the look that I see in your eye,I won't stand around and watch you die...::Nickelback-'Because Of You'-::

*yawns and stretches*G'morning everyone.Can you believe I actually went to sleep? Awkward, right? ^____^ Oh well. Anyways,about the pics, we had to send away the camera to get them developed, so i dunno how long it will take ^^;; I'll get them up eventually ^-^
I think I got to everyone's site yesterday^^;;(everyone who commented anyways ^_^)
well,there is currently no one around,so I'm going to go into the living room,put my Korn CD in the big stereo,turn it up as high as it will go,and wander around aimlessly,thinking about everything and anything that pops into my head..
I might even play the Inuyasha RPG for awhile.I beat it the first time with the girl and OMG I wanted to take a fucking gun to her head >< But now I'm trying with the guy,and he's not much better,but he's okay,plus I got the 30 lvl power up thingy from the mysterious kitty cat..so yeah,kickass^_^
ttyl
*hugs everyone*
*~Serena~*

[So sexy ^___________^]
Like ice,the cold heart melts at the warmth of love...so easy to break,but if you're gentle enough,you can melt it and drink from the glass of happiness...

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Monday, May 23, 2005

   Who the Hell are you to say,to sit here and tell me,preach and lie today,That I will be okay?
Whys what's best for you,always the worst thing for me?No I don't find faith in your forced feelings,Not fooled by your misleading,Won't buy this lie your selling,Tired of this lie you're telling,I won't do this anymore

My friend's gonna be a model. I should be happy for her right?*shrugs*
Nothing is going on with me.
In my Rp with my sister wolf Mizu-chan,Touya and Kuji have ventured to a strip bar,uninterested in their current girlfriends and now Callie and Asume must go and get them back.
Callie:I Don't think they're really at a strip bar ^^;;
Asume:Of course they are! They have to be!I would know that sly laugh anywhere!
Callie:*places hand on her sister's shoulder and sighs*You need to get out more
Asume:o_____o
Anyways,yeah.I'll have some pics from the last day of skewl soon.
Pm me or something,just for the hell of it
ttyl
*~Serena~*

Like ice,the cold heart melts at the warmth of love...so easy to break,but if you're gentle enough,you can melt it and drink from the glass of happiness...
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

So lately, been wondering,Who will be there to take my place,When I'm gone,you'll need love to light the shadows on your face,If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all,Then between the sand and stone,could you make it on your own,If I could, then I would,I'll go wherever you will go,Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go,And maybe, I'll find out,A way to make it back someday,To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days,If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all,Well then I hope there's someone out there,who can bring me back to you...
It rained so hard last night,it was beautiful...
And for anyone who watches House(though I doubt many teenagers do...)wa last night not a tear jerker? I mean omg..it made the hair on the back of my neck stand on end...I never thought I would ever hear Gregory House say 'I love you' to anyone and of all people that bitch who broke his heart for 5 years! Everyone thinks he's so loveless...but I think he needs someone like Cameron..she could go in and fix everything,I know she could..like he said 'You take imperfect things and make them better.YOu married a dying man because of that.I am what you need. I am broken.' I was like omg o___o but yeah...House is awesome
well I only have 3 more days of skewl left,which is kewl. So yeah,I gotta go.
I'll TRY to get around to everyone's site,I'm sorry I haven't been...

ttyl
*~Lis~*

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

   I flirt with suicide,sometimes that's okay,I flirt with suicide,sometimes kill the pain...

Every time I try to make you smile,You're always feeling sorry for yourself,Every time I try to make you laugh,You can't your too tough,You think you're loveless,Is that too much that I’m askin for,Thought you'd come around when I ignored you,Sorta thought you'd have the decency to change,But babe I guess you didn't take that warning,’Cause I'm not about to look at your face again,Can't you see that you lie to yourself,You can't see the world through a mirror,It won't be too late when the smoke clears,’Cause I am still here……
Well the dance was alright,my friend Jacob asked me out,I said no,my friend Eric from the high skewl that does reffing w/ me 'supposedly' likes me,but I don't think so.The guys around here are fucked up..anyways,marching band sign ups tonight,that should be fun.I leanred something about my best friend that makes me want to black her fucking eyes..but I remain silent...and I can't tell because that would be talking behind her back and that's wrong.
Not much more to say.
My friend Robert says I need to stop cheating on my boyfriend with suicide,I flirt way too much with it.He's weird.

ttyl
*~Lis~*

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