Sunday, May 15, 2005

My eyes burn...

My eyes burn from these tears,You'd think I'd learn over these years,Good things won't last forever,So what the Hell am I supposed to do,You wanted only the things I could'nt give you,And you had it all anyway,Tell me I'm wrong when I say,I can't expect you to stay forever with me,I live for that single moment,I take back everything I've said,You wore those words on your lips,As if they meant anything anyway,Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth,it seems I do more harm than good,And I don't know if it's worth me losing sleep over this...
yours sincerely,
*~Serena~*
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Friday, May 13, 2005

   ^_^
don't have long but guess what...8TH GRADE DANCE IN ABOUT 2 HOURS ^_______________^
OH And I got my glasses! Everyone one said I look really REALLY good in them ^_______^ and it's done wonders for my eyes..
I'm so nervous/excited about the dance!!!! And I still dunno what to do with my hair...eh..o_______o
Everyone is totally psyched about me going ^_^ I think it's gonna be fun..I tried to convince my friend Sabby to go but he wouldn't T_T Robert(in high skewl)said he was gonna sneak in and dance with me first..lol..I don't think I'll be seeing him,but still,it was nice of him to say that ^_^
well g2g! Wish me luck!!!
*~Serena~*
ps:My dress is so kewl >:P
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

   sooo..
The eyes are doing better,I can see again...well I mean I can't see perfectly cuz I dun have my glasses but I can see a Hell of a lot better than yesterday^_^today we're supposed to dress up like guys.I don't think I'm going to..probably just a black T shirt,som jeans and a hoody.
So,tomorrow is the 8th grade dance...Mom told me if anyone asks me to dance not say 'I wouldn't fucking dance with you if you were the last goddammed perosn on Earth!' but to be nice and dance -.- My friend Taylor is going,which is kewl,cuz I wouldn't mind dancing with him.But will he dance with me? o__O
Oh well.anyways,I've been playing the Inuyasha RPG for PS2 like crazy and I'm at the part where my charrie(I can't believe I picked the girl,I want to shoot her x___x)is like realizing she's in love with Miroku.And it's realy quite pathetic.I had a friend who broke up with her bf for an anime charrie one time...I mean I love Sesshy,but COME ON!
well,w/e
ttyl
*~Serena~*
[I like this piccy ^.^]

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

   ...
went today.had an eye exam.dialated my eyes.still hurt like Hell.can't see worth a damn.that's why this is so simple.need glasses.should have them by Sat./Sun
8th grade dance this friday.yes,going.yes,wearing dress.no,not sharing pics.yes,going alone.do I want to go?I have nothing better to do.
tomorrow,dressing up like a guy for spirit week.bunch of friends and I.
dad,being an asshole as usual.mom,annoying as Hell.boyfriend,haven't talked to him.me,eh I'm alright.working on a couple pics,will share when done.eyes hert,cant see svreen.ttyk
serena out
~~:::~~
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Sunday, May 8, 2005

...
Wish your mom a Happy Mother's Day,even if you didn't get her a present,even if she doesn't care,if she doesn't smile,even if she hates your guts.You never know what kinda shit she could get you out of some day
*~Serena~*
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Saturday, May 7, 2005

   B.Y.O.B PARTY AT DAVE'S HOUSE!!!
Dont ask where the subject line came from.I just got home from reffing..and I got sunburned >_< Oh well.*sighs*Anyways,thank you so much for everyone who went to my boyfriend's site for me.I'm still worried about him,cuz I haven't heard from him,but I'm sure he's just resting off the pain.I gotta keep my chin up though...just keep on smiling..
I gots a question for everyone.If you could have one power,what would it be? Me? I would ask for the ability to read minds. Oh how I long for something like that,ya know.It would be awesome,I love to know what people are thinking.
Well,I gotta go shower.But I'll tell ya what. PM if you want a suprise,okay?
I love my ABG!!!
*~Serena~*
[ps:my name in Japenese is Emi! Isn't that pretty? It means 'blessed with beauty' ~^.^~]
Here's a song for everyone!
"Slipping Away"

I'm slipping away
In every way
I can't stay awake
(and I don't know why)
I'm slipping away
(and I don't know why)

I'm trying to make it through each day
I'm falling apart now in every way
I'm finding it harder to get by
There's a hole in my heart
And I don't know why
Now I've come to realize

I'm slipping away
::Sum 41::
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Friday, May 6, 2005

   Knock me out so I can go back to sleep...
omfg today SUCKS!!! x_____X
alright everyone,I want you all to do me big favor..my already-injured boyfriend was in a car crash and in a ton of pain..I'm so fucking worried about him! I want everyone who reads this to go to his site (User: DamienDante) and tell him to get better soon,please! thanks a bunch!!
second,my friends know nothing about me x__X one of my friends has a thing with coming up and punching people on the shoulders as a 'hello' she did that to me and I flinched majorly..I could have sworn to God she was gonna hit me..she was like 'OMG Elissa,did I hurt you?!' she seriosuly thought she had hurt me..I am flinching at everything now,I can't help it..my other friend runs up and gives people hugs and I ended up pushing her away as I flinched..they don't know what my father does to me,it's horrible..I feel like a goddamned dog that no one can make sudden movements around,I am so pathetic!
third,Im sick of people who constantly talk about themselves and nothing else! it seems thats all my friends talk about..oh and I HATE BEING ASKED WHATS WRONG!!! everyone asks me whats wrong ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!! if something was wrong and I WANTED to talk about it,I would have told you! HOLY FUCK,alright? GOD! all my friends sit there and talk about themselves alllll the time..I'm gonna hail up and slap them someday,I swear...grr..so much built up anger
I need to have a real conversation with someone!
*sighs*ttyl
I love my ABG
*~Serena~*
(ps:please check out my new Inu/Kikyo fan art,thx)
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Thursday, May 5, 2005

   Never start frowning,because you never know who's falling in love with your smile...
okay..this is my first song EVER...you are all the first of my friends to see it...I still don't know what to think of it...everyone so far I've shown it to told me it was good...so here ya go(no,it has nothing to do with me and my life):

::Love is a Petty Obsession::

I spent three hours with you
Last night, on the phone
But it meant nothing at all
All alone
I lie here wondering
Could I have changed
What’s been done and said
Please tear these terrible thoughts
From my head

Chorus:
What’s done is done
What’s said is said
Maybe it’s you who should be hurting instead
I tried to fix it
Darling, I tried
But your love might not be worth
All these tears I’ve cried
Darling, I’m dying inside

I spent an hour with you
Last night, walking down the street
Not one word did we speak
Never once did our gazes meet
Staring at my feet
I stand here wondering
Should I tell you
What’s whirling through my mind
Or maybe I should hide it
And leave it for you to find

(Chorus)

I’ve spent a lifetime
Trying to figure out how love ticks
My mind is twitching
As the clock clicks
My life is passing me by
Another hour gone and wasted
Here with me, myself and I
I hand the world my apology
And one last goodbye

(Chorus)

These white walls stare at me
With eyes that burn my skin
I can’t remember why I’m here
Or where from this hurt within
Came....

Your love was never worth
All the hurt I’ve felt
The tears I’ve cried
Darling....
I’m dead inside

eh...so what do you guys think?...please give me your honest opinions...
anyways,if I haven't visited your site,please don't come knocking down my door with an angry mob o__o Today I should have some time to visit sites when I get back from reffing..that's around 8:30 I believe...
For anyone who STILL remains worried about me(I have gotten some comments about it)I AM OKAY alright? Don't worry about me,I'm just fine :P
Oh yesh,and for EVERYONE to know...I love my ABG[103 :P](he still remains anonymously in shadow..he he he he)
*~Lissa~*




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Tuesday, May 3, 2005

   o___o
the concert actually went okay..we made out director cry when we suprised her with flowers,a card signed by the whole band,and a silver baton,with her name engraved in it...I also SOMEHOW got involved of the ruining of someone's life...which I plan to stop ASAP..no one deserves to have that happen to them,no matter what...I'm just suprised my friend,who is not a friend,would do something like that..but I mean,her boyrfriend's like that too...
Anyways...Dad gets home today..I am dead..no matter what I do..I can already feel his palm on my cheek,the burning,stinging sensation..my mom idiotically told me father about a couple months ago when the world found out about my cutting because of my stupid friends who aren't friends...so..he says I'd better keep myself in check..and...I cant wear wristbands..and I have to 'dress like a girl' so says my mother..basically I have to wear stuid nice looking clothes..ahh. FUCK THEM >___<
*~Serena~*
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Monday, May 2, 2005

   green bubbles o____o
My sister Mizu-chan wrote an awshome poem and I want eeevvveeerrryyyoonnneee to read it...so yesh..here it is...READ!! << >>

I woke in that nightmare
I was lost and alone
I found you standing there
And saw nothing shown,
I guess this means you hate me
Or don't care anymore
I guess this means my life
Has ended at this door,
I don't see why you had to shatter
This glass heart devine
But to you it doesn't matter
If my tears are mine.


I can only remember
The gaze you gave to me
The darkness that consumed
And sent me to my knees,
Please forgive me
For being so weak
For trampling upon memories
That I should not seek,
The memories that float
Float through my head
Oh how I wish they were lost forever
Rotten and dead.
Memorium.
~Mizu~

Yay Mizu^-^ She never put it on her site,so I figured I would share it on mine!!!I am working on a poem/song thingy called 'Love is a Petty Obsession'..I hope it turns out well^^;;
Mizu and I started a new Rp and it is sooo fun! I can't wait to continue XD I even missed Desperate Housewives to Rp wth Mizu-chan!!!XDXDXD
So..um..yeah...I have a stupid band concert tonight x___x it's gonna suck...because our band sucks..and the songs suck..so naturally..it will suck o___o
Tomorrow my dad comes home O____O I am...not happy...for all those who don't know about my father and I...lets say we dont get along well^^;;he's been over fighting for our country...so I mean yes,God Bless the soldiers...but my father..well...yeah..
so! I have to go like catch the bus and stuff x___x
ttyl!
(hopefully the concert will go alright x____X)
*~Serena~*
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