Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Hmm...
Finaly, something interesting to talk about! LOL And again, it's all thanks to Amanda. Damn her.

She calls me up yesterday sometime between 4 and 5, and she's all like "Hey! Wanna hang out?" So I'm like "Uhm... I dunno. I'm in a lot of pain.. I dunno what's up. It may be a growth spurt (which is odd since I'm 19) or my arthritis is acting up pretty bad." But I said sure.. Might help work out the pain or something. So, we went to her friend Bobby's who we've both known since Middle School. I've just never really hung out with him. We went ta his place n played pool till these peoples Ashley and Matt showed up. We then continued playing pool after I got to meet Ashley, which was much anticipated. Ohhh god you can't believe how excited I was to meet her, after what I found out about someone. Anywho, those 2 are uber cool. And let me make this clear, since I didn't last night, untill I was too damn tired to even care how anyone reacted. Matt has a nice ass. Deffinately nice. *nods* HAHA. To top off the ass, litteraly, he's got a NY accent, which is weird. Cool, kinda hot, but weird. And no no no. don't go gettin the wrong idea. I'm absolutely not attracted to him. Hell, I deemed him my new best friend. ^_^. Shame he's already left for NY again, and wont be back till sometime in august.

So yeah, any way... eventually we were spoused to meet Adam (my ex, Jenn's skank) and go to the carnival in a town a ways away from mine. We get out there, and Adam swears him and Jenn looked all over the place and couldn't find it. Then he says he knew it wasn't in Jersey Shore, but in Old Lycoming TownShip. So.. we go all the way back and wind up clear out somewhere fecking else. By this time, I was so god damned pissed, I litteraly wanted to kill something. Something, or someone. I had my chance and missed... Coz... Well, i can't talk about that here, just incase he reads this and is like "o.o" coz.. He doesn't know I know what he's done. and He doesn't realize that one of these days, the little pacafist he knows is going to kill him. violently and slowly. Though.. gotta admit, I was more pissed at Adam than I was him..... But uhhhhh yeah. Onto another part of stuff.

So liek yeah. I sorta got asked out last night too. In a weird sort of manner any way. Bobby suggested a walk, and I was thinkin it would be me, him, Amanda and Matt. He walked out the door, and I'm standing there in the door way lookin like a bitch, waiting for Amanda and Matt, who are just standing there in the kitchen. I sorta was like "Uhm... oh.." *wave of uncomfortableness, which actually only lasted for a second or so* Where we went, couldn't classify too much of a walk, but the area was perfect. Was his back yard. But noooo you don't understand! He's got this babbling brooke that runs through, and he's "in the middle of nowhere" so the stars are so bright and beautiful and crystal clear! Discussion wasn't too great though. Any way, again, can't get into that incase a certain someone reads this. Any way, Bobby asked what I thought about him and I was like "Uhmm.... You're cool, I can say that" even though I knew he was looking for more of an answer. Felt bad, sortof, but I didn't know what else to say! Everyone knows I'm not well with verbaly projecting my thoughts! So uh yeah... Talked a little more, then he was like "You doing anything friday?" I'm like "I dunno" and he's like "Wanna go out?" I'm like "I dunno what I'm doing friday" and he's like "That's as in a date" I'm just like "Duh?" I don't remember if I said that, but I know I screamed it inside. So yeah, he was like "Well, you now have plans for friday" and I'm like "Okay then, I can live with that. Let me mark it on the calander when I get home, if I can actually find one."

I'm nervous though. Not because of him, but because I haven't actually been out with a guy in a long time. Well... Let me rephrase that. I haven't been on a "date" with anyone in a long time. Soooo.... Uhm.. yeah. Anyone got any tips on how to get rid of the nervousness? coz it's only tuesday morning!

hahaha. So any way... to make a long story finaly come to a conclusion, i didn't get home till 3:30AM AGAIN even though I made it rather clear I wanted to be home by 1:30, 2 at the latest... *grumbles* Jadeness can't live on 2 hours of sleep! I feel dead to the world. Still got like 3 hours of school left.. and as soon as I get home, I'm gonna bum a fag off of mom, call Bobby n see if he's okay (got kinda sick last night) and then crash. I need to just crash out... serriously... so.. tired...

Anywho, much love everyone. be good, take care. All o' dat!
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