Thursday, April 26, 2007

Another Day, Another Time To Make People Hate Me.
Hello There. How Are You Today? Me? I Am Fine. Just Sitting Here On My Spare. Nothing To Do But Think Of Things That I Don't Want To Think About. Things I Wish I Never Had To Go Through But I Did. Lost In Space, Lost In Darkness. Wishing I Could Be With The One I Love. But I Can't. But I Will See Him Tomorrow. For I Don't Have School Tomorrow. Bored During The Day, Having Fun During The Night.

Anyways, nothing much has happened today. Just waiting for my class to start. I have to go get my eyes checked out today because my mother wants me to. Then on tuseday I need to go to the doctors to get blood work done, to know for sure if I did lose the baby or not. I have my whole life planned out now that I am with Jarret, he has given me a reason to go to school and finish. And if I'm pregnant still, I know I can still finish school. But I don't want to wreck Jarret's life. He has his whole life planned out, and yeah. See my plan for when I knew I was pregnant. Was to finish this year and go to school next year as a grade 12 take a month or so off to have the baby (which would have been around christmas time). Go back to school, finish the school year (not even 6 months for me cause of the program i'm in) Then just go to work as being a mother, and not care what I do in life. At Least I would have finished school. And that's all I cared about. Also I was going to stay with my ex during this, Till he turned into an asshole son of a bitch mother fucker (sorry I hate him alot(I hate swearing sorry)) and never phoned me or nothing, so I said whatever it's over. and I walked out on him. Now I have my Jarret. Whom I love with all my heart. We get along so well, sometimes it scares me, for I'm not used to that. Anyways here is a poem for my Jarret I hope you like it.(thats anyone liking it)

Fateful Night

Been broken to many times
Been hurt to many times
Loved everyone who gave
Me Pain. Didn’t know if
There was anyone for me
Till I found you, that
Lonely night of April
Felt a Connection the
Moment we said Hi
Felt Like I’ve known
You my whole life
Never knew love could
Feel this way. Always
Thought it was full of
Pain, till you.
You’re showing me love
Showing me caring
Showing me what love is
Never Thought I would love
Again, Thought I would be
Alone
Till I meet you.
That Fateful Night


By Raechel (Blood-Goth-Lover)

I wrote that the night after I was with Jarret. I miss him so much.. I can't wait to see him... OMG! I just forgot I gave my ex my special necklace! I NEED THAT BACK! HOW COULD I FORGET ABOUT IT! OMFG!!! I need to get it back and give it my Jarret. Sure I don't care if he eears it or not. As long as he gets it... Have A good day.

Sincely,

Blood-Goth-Lover
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