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Birthday
• 1990-06-24
Gender
• Female
Location
• Lost In My Own Little World Of War
Member Since
• 2007-04-24
Occupation
• School?
Real Name
• Ask For It

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Achievements
• broke my nose 6 times
Anime Fan Since
• hell if i know
Favorite Anime
• must you ask?
Goals
• To Finish High School and To Go to Texas And G.A.
Hobbies
• To many
Talents
• Suck at stuff

myOtaku.com: Blood-Goth-Lover

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Been 2 weeks and 2 days..
It's been 2 weeks and 2 days since me and Jarret have starting to date...I already feel like shit...I hate that I need to tell him that I need a break from him already... I can't handle the pain I'm going through. And I dont want to bring him down either...Don't want to bring him down through my pain... I WANT TO BE ALONE NOW! But At the same time I dont.

Cutting again? should I? or should I just take the pain and keep it inside since no one cares about what i say... he will run when he finds out wont he? he will be scared of what will happen...anyone would... he is much to old for me...as some say...his to much into drugs.. drinking, not caring about his life...but he will if its postive...Jarret will leave me... what the hell am i going to do?....Adam will run... wont he? he is to scared... he wont know what to do... he will think its a lie.. he will freak..they will hate me... they will call me a slut... they will call me a whore.. its not my fault...yes it is. but i can't help what my heart told me to do... I followed my heart...I'm sorry jarret that i cheated on you right away...but at the same time i'm not... i've always cared about Adam...but i didn't want this to happen... pelase forgive me... I dont know wht to do... i'm going to try and tell you i need time to think about stuff... but i wnt to see you... i can't stand it... i'm going to cry when i talk to you... i'm sorry!..cuttin again... my arm is full of blood. i'm watching it slowly come out...w hat the fuck am i going to do!... what the fuck if its postive!.. they will call me a whore... everyone will... im sorry...

I'm gonna drop out of school if I don't pass this year. Everyone will hate me... I need to get away.. I need to find myself again... Wish I could go where Amber and Logan are. they seem to care about me...Logan even says i'm special and very nice...

I'm going to go to my old school and get hugs from kendra if i can... then go back to art.. maybe.... well cya later... bye

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