Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Yuri


Adding another Yuri picture since I already added another Yaoi picture...Oh and someone asked what anime is one of the Yuri pictures from, but its not from an anime its just original anime...Yup yup
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Finally
My mum got a divorce today finally I am so totally happy about the whole thing hopfully he'll be out of our lives forever. I really hated...wait HATE him he's the worse person I've ever known I hope to never know someone like that again. Hmm well that's all I really have to say about that. The Wayne thing he hasn't emailed me, but he told Ashley(my sister) for me to add him to yahoo messenger so maybe we will actually get to talk. Don't know why it is so hard to just email someone. Oh well I just don't know about the whole Wayne thing I know I will probably just get hurt like I always do, but don't want to live in regret cause regret is one of the worst things I think. Well I have nothing else really to talk about. Lol I have such a boring life. Till next post ^__^.
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Another writing from the past...
Well y'all wanted another one so here you go. This one I wrote one night when I heard My mum and Alfredo were fighting. I told y'all about him...

Listening from the other room-
I sit in the computer room listening to y'all fight once again. hearing my mother cry as I start to wonder will one day I be like her, be begging for him to come back to me, to not leave me. I listen closely as I wait to hear more, but there is nothing I put my ear upagainst the wall trying to hear still there is nothing. I wait for a few more minutes hoping I hear sommething, but I don't. As I hear someone pick up keys and walk out the door I wonder what happened. I walk out the room looking around, but it is to dark for me to see anything. As I start to walk to the kitchen light I trip over something. I then run to the light and turn it on to see what I tripped over. It was my mom laying on her stomach with her face in her own blood. I walk over to her to check her pulse, but there was nothing, no breath, no heart beat. I pick up the phone and start to dial 911, but the phone wasn't working. When I opened the front door I saw his truck was still here. I ran to the kitchen to get a knife. I then run to my bed room and go in my closet hiding from him. I hear someone walking threw the hall. As I start to shake I hear my bed room door open. As I knew what was coming I thought to myself I rather kill myself then be killed by the hands of him. I take the knife and just as he is opening my closet door I ram the knife threw my heart with a smile on my face.
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Yaoi


Well y'all wanted less innocent Yaoi so like this or even less innocent then this?
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More posting
lol I'm bored and have nothing better to do so I'm writing yet another post for the day, but I have no idea what to write about...This guy I know Brady (Don't know if I've told y'all about him) drove by my house twice today which is very odd.I don't even think he had a reason. Creepy huh? Well that was very intresting lol. Of course it was intresting everything about my life is intresting lol not really though my life is just depressing. Do you agree? My mother, Ashley, Lollie & me all used to cut ourselfs isn't that bad? The chicks in this family have serious depression issues. The guys are just weird. My uncles go threw women a lot A LOT I don't think anyone knows how many times they have all been married & engaged. My dad he's only been married twice and engaged once and ad a couple of younger gfs before his 2nd wife. Theres much more fucked up ness with one of my uncles, but I'll save that for another post. Hmm *trying to think of something else to write*. My mum doesn't know what age I am isn't that sad? She always thinks I'm either 15 or 16 and everyone in my family always thinks I'm younger then 17 and if they aren't in my family they always think I'm older then my 19(soon to be 20) yr old sister. Thats just probably because she acts like a kid and shes shorter then me. I don't mind people thinking I'm older then her though makes me feel a little better. I wish it was Januray already not only would I be turning 18, but I'd be moving out. Its just too far away. Somebody make it Januray NOW! lol well thats all for now more posting later or tomorrow byes...
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Stuff I have written in the past
Ok when I do these post it isn't stuff I have written recently this was a long time ago and I stopped because I'm horrible at writing, but comment on this one and tell me what you think and tell me if you want me to keep posting these

Not Yet
Part one-
I sit down sipping my drink as I pick up the razor blade. I put it to my wrist and go all the way down my arm I then do the same to the other. As I try to write my last words I see all my blood dripping down to the floor. I then start to feel weak and have to stop writing. I let my arms fall and let the blood drip to the floor. I let myself fall to the floor curling up in a ball thinking, thinking about you and how I promised you I wouldn't do this as well as many other. I couldn't help it though and I'm sorry you will forget me everyone will. As I think more and more I convince myself it was the right thing to do no one will miss me or anything, but as I start to fade I realize I don't want to go yet. i try to get enough strength to reach the phone to call you the one I love. When I get the phone I fall down because I'm too weak, as I finish dialing your number everything goes blank...
Part Two-
I hear the phone ring I look at the caller id and see that it is you. I rush to the phone knowing something must be wrong, but when I anwser the phone there is no anwser. I start to shout your name hoping your ok. I hang up and call back, but your line is busy. I get my coat and put it on as I run out to my car. As I drive as fast as I can I think about you our friendship how much it means to me and hoping you didn't do anything stupid. When I get to your house I bang on the door, but there is no anwser I start to get even more worried now. I bust down the door and search for you, but I can't find you until I see that your bed room door is closed. I run to the door and open it and see you laying in a puddle of blood. I rush to you and pick you up as I start to cry. I start to hit the wall when I see something that says Sucide note on your computer. As I read it I start to cry even more because it was addressed to me, but as I get to the end I see it isn't finished. the last words say I loved you with my whole heart and. Then that was it I pick up your phone and sit beside you putting your head in my lap not caring how much blood I get on me. I then realize I will never be the same and that I loved you too and I didn't want to lose you for anything.

Well I hope y'all liked it please comment...
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YAOI & YURI!!!!
How could you get through the day without the Yaoi & Yuri on my site? I don't think you could lol...


A little Yaoi here


And a little Yuri there
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Random
Hello all no one has wrote a comment for my last post lol thats ok it is weird. Anyway I found out my mum is engaged to her bf (Robert A.K.A The Hippie) I told y'all about him this is totally awesome I'm so glad she finally picked the right guy and she gets a divorce tomorrow YEA!!! Hmmm something else random to talk about...I'm glad I started this site its kind of just like a little diary thing and I can get peoples advice on stuff which I totally love because I love when people give me advice I lie giving advice, but I don't think I'm very good at it lol. Oh ya I wrote Wayne asking him if he liked Lollie or me more so I'm just waiting for his email back doubt he'll actually email me back, but if he says it in front of Ashley & Warren or anyone else I'll be totally pissed off. I should really just give up on him, but I just want to know who he likes more first. I know it will most likely be Lollie though since every guy that I've ever known to like me and Lollie has ALWAYS liked her more. Yes I am jealous of her which I totally hate because we were really close, but now I just don't know. I just don't know what to do about anything in my life. Sometimes I wish I could take another "vacation", but I don't have anywhere to stay like I did 2 years ago. So you know when I say "vacation" that means run away or just get away from my whole family. They annoy me so much. I had a shrink before to talk about stuff of course, but I couldn't say anything that actually mattered because if I had I probably would be living some where else now. I do hate my family, but I didn't want to be put in foster care or anything. Hmm after I move out I'll get a shrink and I'll beable to tell them everything and maybe I'll get a little less depressed and pissed off al the time. My mum wants to put me in an anger management program which I do probably need cause when I get pissed off I just want to hit something. One time my radio was fucking up so I got really pissed off and started hitting it. Yup yup lol well I think thats all for my totally random post...^__^
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Monday, June 20, 2005

Good News & Bad News...more bad then good...
Well I know how that guy feels that I've been talking about...I'll tell you all that went on last night well I told y'all I called him the other day & asked for his email address and emailed him WELL when he got to my sister's house (Oh ya he's my brother-n-law's brother don't know if I've told y'all) he talked about the email I sent him!!! Which is horrible because I don't want my sister(Ashley) & his brother to know I'm talking to him since they will freak out. I know they will because last summer I got really drunk and laid on the guy I like (Wayne) and his brother(Warren) kept saying she's 16 she's your sister-n-law it was very annoying. Anyway back to what the post is about. So ya we ended up playing strip poker and we were all kind of tipsey well besides for Lollie(my sister) she was passed out drunk. After the game we all just got dressed and hung out I sat by Wayne and he had his arm around me and we were kind of just rubbing each other THEN Lollie sits on the other side of him and he puts his arm around her too. He starts lightly stroking her and shit. Then after everyone was asleep inculding Lollie(shes was laying on him passed out) I rubbed on Wayne more and we kissed some, but when I asked him if he liked Lollie he said yes then I asked him if he liked me and he said yes! I told him though that Lollie doesn't like him(I hope not) and she still liked his friend Drew so he was like I don't have a chance with her...Then he said something along the lines I like you because you show your feelings or some shit like that...Ok actually I don't think ANY of this was good news...Grrr I'm going to email him tomorrow and talk to him about it...
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

It is time for the Yaoi and Yuri ^__^
The Yuri first since I didn't put any up last time and if y'all don't like the yaoi or yuri I'm putting up meaning if its to much Hentai not that you don't like gay people then tell me so I can get more soft core ones...Hope you Enjoy^__^


The Yaoi

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