Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Unknown
I do not know what to make of this song... I don't know what it really means... Its just wierd... Let me know how it makes you feel.

Unknown
By: Jonathon R. Bloodmire

I am making the choices
That are so difficult
To strangle out the pain
Or just to let it go

I am lost and hopeless
But that does not keep me here
I am broken by the lust of the world
Simply the moment has gone

Going into the unknown
Darkness is waiting
Feeling so jaded
Nothing is ever right

Going into the mindless
Forgetting who I am
Let me seem so fallen
I am timeless alone

All of these worms
Feasting off the filth of the world
Stronger they are coming
Till they eat each other

And making me seem to be there
Pieces of heaven are not
Shatter by the senseless
Maybe I am the rot

Going into the Unknown
Light is not the same
Silence is the feeling
Killing off the main

Going into the Madness
A center of the stage
I have seen what is nothing
Rowing down the boat

We find these rivers
No one knows
Understand is the official
I like here as the fool

Maybe this is fate
Draining away the mate
Moments I have overheard
Lonely lonely lonely...

Going into the Unknown
This is true
I speak so insanely
I want to get to you

Going into the cell
I must crazy
I have thought of it
Making me seem so...
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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

Slaughter the Beast
This is my own fanatical ideas about my thoughts on humanity. I know that not everyone is like this in my song, but the fact is, humanity is a whole, not one or thousands of people... its a whole race. So, please do not take offense.

Slaughter the Beast

All of the hatred inside the beast
Never finding any peace
Casted to the flames to burn alive
Stabbing out the heart with rusted knives

Opening wounds that never heal
Giving more pain for it to feel
Tearing away the gifts not given
Recieving the blows of violent living
Chorus 1
Killing everything that is the home
Leaving no where else to roam
Lost in its own insanity
The creature called Humanity

Ripping apart the dying beast
Eating well off the perfect feast
Bleeding deep from the vein
Drinking all until its lame

Using its flesh for pride to show
Everything following within the flow
Mindless to any feelings of shame
All playing their own little game
Chorus 1
Killing everything that is the home
Leaving no where else to roam
Lost in its own insanity
The creature called Humanity

There is no guilt on their mind
Forgotten what their trying to find
Broken sense of reality
Corrupting the meaning or morality

Washing the blood from their hands
Decrees to rule over the land
One day this place you stay
Will be hell a price you pay
Chorus 2
Destroying a world that is your home
A baron place that you will roam
Faking everything that is your insanity
You become a monster known as Humanity
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

A slap in the face and a thump in the head
You know something... I have never really realized exactly who I am in a long long time... Its hard and very confusing when you are losing so many friends with in such little time, ya know? But, I have this one friend who is a really cool guy who I met near the end of my school year last semester. He told me something I never thought about... Even though I am losing these friends, I don't look at the fact that I have so many more. Yeah, some of them were people I have known for years, but were they ever really friends in the first place? and how many of them have ever been your friend when they dislike and ignore most everyone else? He told me that I have this knack to get to the closest of anybody... some of them are nice on the outside and you find the inner truth... some are dark and dreary, yet I see them in a light others do not... Its an interesting outlook to tell you the truth and very very interesting thought. I don't know, but I think he has helped me in the best way than anyone else... Heh... Good friend I tell ya.

Anyways, I have started writing songs again. I have a new song I am going to post soon, but not till it is finished. I am going a different route with a little of my music, going into some political and fanatical ideas also... this is going to be some interesting music to say the least.

Anyways, I see ya all lates!
In the darkness that I know, Let the Blood flow....
Bloodmire
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Thursday, August 4, 2005

Found and Broken Again
Hey everyone... how are you today? Me... well, let me begin with the fact I have not graduated Highschool... I am actually in a program from the High School known as the High School GED program... I know most of you will think that only morons go to this and you are right to a point... The only difference is, I am only in it cause I can not complete normal school for personal reasons. Actually, after only three days, I am already ready to take the test on tuesday. This is not easy stuff either. Anyways, I have passed the pre-test with a 628/700. This was an advance test for Senior levels in highschool... And you know something, I think it is a great program cause I do not get a GED, I get a Highschool diploma...

Now, for the pain... I had to do something I can never take back and wish I didn't have to do. I had to break up with a person I care much about. I do not know if they have the same, at least not anymore, and it still hurts. It seems I have had to do this with alot of people... Not the same circumstance, but many of my friends do not seem to be friends anymore... I do not know if I am going crazy or is everyone just changing to such hatred towards me... I don't know...
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Sunday, July 31, 2005

Nuetral

How evil are you?

You know something... this is the closest thing that has ever been me... The person that is Nuetral... I try to be the one who is the " Peace Maker " Not trying to hurt others and trying my best to not take sides... I have been lingering of late of this personality, becoming more and more into darkness... but here I can see that I myself is nothing more than the Dark hearted and the Heavenly Minded fighting for something more in my life... I guess it is called freedom of life... That is something I really wish I had.
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Friday, July 29, 2005

Mentality of Mortality
You know, I have come to realize just how much we are mortal. One day, we will be old and one day we will no longer be of use to this world, left to wither and falter until we fall into darkness. It scares me you know, that maybe one day I will die and be forgotten in the years to pass me. My own feelings left with nothing but need and want and pushing myself to move further. Heh... I don't know... Just talking really. Anyone, PM me if you wish, I like to hear your words and I need to talk. Don't just leave a message, send me a how are you doing? or anything... Please... don't leave me alone.
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Hell
I guess my life has returned to nothingness. A place away from the hearts of friends. I am surrounded by madness and I become enraged with hate and misery. I do not know what to do when you are so far from those I wish to be with. This is Hell my friends, a place I lived before. My father the Bastard, my step-mom the Bitch, and my grandfathers home, plagued with rats of the worst kind. People who themselves feast on the weak and act as though their lives are horrible and they lay around and allow themselves to become pigs waiting for the slaughter. And it seems that even the people on Otaku wish not to speak to me anymore. I have I fallen so far from grace that I do not deserve life as I did once more?

I do not know, but in the darkness, the blood flows...

Bloodmire
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Thursday, June 30, 2005

Misery
I guess my mind and heart is not as good as they use to be... able to care and have fun with my friends and be part of them. Any more, I just don't feel like I belong and I no longer understand myself like I did... alot of things have happened and I understand alot more... Its my doomed misery is seems. So much I feel I have lost... so much more I wish I had... but nothing can be given.

In Darkness, let the blood flow...
Bloodmire
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Friday, June 24, 2005

Hello again
Sorry everyone that I havent been able to post. Been really really really busy and I had no time to do anything... With work, playing DND, and my own horrible notions, I am tired and exhausted. Plus, I must now rebuild my band... But that is ok, I just don't know what to do sometimes. Plus, my best friends is now in emotional shock and depression... which in favor worries the hell out of me so much and does nothing to better himself and tells himself he is useless (( Even though its not out loud, I can see it )) and I don't know what to do cause I am lost... but on other news... I have a GF now, though its online... I wish it was closer but... and I have to apologize that I am never on to speak to her. I promise I will as soon as I can though love. You may know her... Its Akare ^_^... anyways, I will talk to you all laterz!
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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Hi guys
Hey, how is everyone?
Well its been another interesting week. Anyways, I aint on for long, just posting to post and tell ya I am doing fine!

^_^
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