Wednesday, November 30, 2005

   Blarg!
Ok peeps... Today I come to you very disgruntled and upset. For the last 2 weeks, I have been playing a game called Alon D'ar, and let me tell you it is a good game. The problem though, is I beat it today, which is first bad thing to happen. Second, the ending was good for the most part, but was crap at the last, boggled and angry that I can not learn the aftermath. Arg!
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Monday, November 28, 2005

Im Sorry
To everyone who read my post on Saturday. I am sorry. Had really bad day... relatives. Anyways, to show good faith in myself, here is just a little something for you all.

My eyes burn. Burning with desire. The desire for her. She the secret. The secret in my heart. The heart that beats.
I am in love. A love forbidden. Forbidden by my rules. The rules that I follow. Follow without reason.
Yet I can not sedate my lust. The Lust I hold for her beauty. The beauty that she holds. She holds with the light of the sun. The sun that shines for her life.
I am a betrayer. A betrayer of my own heart. The heart that can not touch. Touch the boundry of this lie. The lie that I have created.
So I leave. I leave so she may have a better life. A life without torment. The torment that I can create. To create which she does not deserve.
Dawn approaches. Approaches to bring life. The life of the world. And the last of dusk is gone. Gone as I am with the dusk.
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Sunday, November 27, 2005

You know what... fuck Writing. I am tired of trying. Its just not working anymore. I hate it. FUCK IT ALL. I don't want to hear about it either. Just leave it alone with me. I don't care anymore. It just doesn't want to come out. Everything sucks that I write. I was never good at it in the first place. So Fuck it... and thanks everyone who tried to cheer me on and all... it was a nice lie, but I don't want to hear it anymore.
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Thursday, November 24, 2005

Happy Thanks Giving!
To everyone this year, I have to give thanks to many things in my life, and one them being to all the special people I have met here who have done wonders in my life without even your knowledge that you are. ^_^

To all those who mean something, I Love You All! ^_^

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Sunday, November 20, 2005

Yikes!
Ok... sorry for the forever not posting blah blah... you guys get the picture. I am on today cause I am having a problem with my writing. I just don't have any creativity right now. I have nothing. So, I am wanting you all to help me out. I want you all to give me ideas, characters, genras... whatever you want. Then I will take it all and put it together into a story. This will help me out by letting my get into the creative spirit. K? ^_^

Thanks
Bye

P.S. I do this in the hope that alot of people read it...
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Monday, November 14, 2005

Yay!
Hello Hello my friends. Guess what? I am going to College. Woot Woot, oh yeah... ^_^ Ok... That is all...
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Friday, November 4, 2005

My Last Week
Ok people. I know I haven't been on lately, but that is because I have had other things on in my life. Mostly been with my friends, saw 2 movies which both I liked alot, even though one of them got a bad rating by a bunch of people and the other, no bad reviews. Doom and Saw 2 ^_^.

Also, I have been having problems with a few friends lately. The reason is because one is an asshole and needs to keep his mouth shut, and the other one is a jealous bastard. I was accused of Hitting on my friends GF, saying untrue things and making me a bad guy and turning all this to hell. It is pissing me off alot cause I thought he knew me better than that, but I guess not. Anyways, to tell you the truth, she has been making passes at me, which I took them as I would anything else in this situation, as a friend just joking around. But after that, I felt uncomfortable and very cautious.... so you know how it is, I told her to back off (( Not in the words Back off... I was very polite and nice about it )) and told her the truth of what was going on. So, yeah...

Anyways, Love you all and see you later.
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Friday, October 21, 2005

Another one
What Makes Me
By: Jonathon R. Bloodmire

Tear me apart and look inside
Shatter my dreams and push them aside
Rip my heart out and slit it open
Find out what makes me

Dig through the darkness and go in deep
Hatred not far and my fear to keep
Sanity gone and genius to be seen
Find out what it means to me

Welcome to my world
Welcome to my pain
Welcome to my life
Where nothing is the same

Welcome to my world
Welcome to my pain
Welcome to my life
Where nothing is the same

Cutting my veins and watching me bleed
Grim satisfaction and desire to feed
Pulling out my sorrow and terror starts to leave
Anger now Growing

Looking in my head and trying to find
Where I am hidden within my mind
Smiling in joy and not knowing why
Believing in your lies

Welcome to my world
Welcome to my pain
Welcome to my life
Where nothing is the same

Welcome to my world
Welcome to my pain
Welcome to my life
Where nothing is the same

You have come this far
Into my soul
You have lost your hope
Nothing to show

You did not find
What you had Seeked
Now you are mine
Forever inside of me

Welcome to your world
Welcome to your hell
Welcome to your life
This is where you dwell

Welcome to your world
Welcome to your hell
Welcome to your life
And you know that you have Failed

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Another Old Song
Into the Darkness
By: Jonathon R. Bloodmire

To bring the blade across my skin
To find out what is within
Dripping blood down the drain
Looking like dark red rain

Listen to the sound of tink
As it falls into the sink
Creating that metallic ring
Causing me to scream

Into the Darkness They want me
Into the Darkness I can see
Into the Darkness It scares me
Into the Darkness I don't want to be

Eyes locked into place
Terror crossing over my face
Staring at where its kept
Slowly going into its depths

Sorrow flowing through my head
Drowning me in the dread
I want to sleep and let it go
Cause it hurts just to know

Into the Darkness They want me
Into the Darkness I can see
Into the Darkness It scares me
Into the Darkness I don't want to be

Now I am laying here
Covered in blood and this fear
Quickly life I am losing
My eyes slowing closing

I awake from my dreams
Nightmare is what it seems
Ignoring the words that are said
Thanking god that I'm not dead

Into the Darkness They want me
Into the Darkness I can see
Into the Darkness It scares me
Into the Darkness I don't want to be
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Hey guys
Hey, I am going to be bringing out songs from a time ago... before the story and everything else... For those who haven't seen them before, here they are... for the old friends, I have changed them some... I hope you like them in their new forms

Darkness from the Light
By: Jonathon R. Bloodmire

Walking into the light
Hearing all the sounds
With all of my might
Looking for what may be found

I am searching everywhere
For something so great
I hope it will be there
and I am not to late

(( Chorus ))
Chasing a hopeless shadow
Not knowing why
Losing my own battles
My life keeps going by
(( Chorus Continue ))
I do not understand
In the honesty of the bull
Not finding what I want
Making me such a fool

It must be beautiful
A touch as light as silk
The movement so physical
With the skin the color of milk

With eyes of the wise
So soft and so kind
Who hides behind no disquise
Purity of the mind

(( Chorus ))
Chasing a hopeless shadow
Not knowing why
Losing my own battles
My life keeps going by
(( Chorus Continue ))
I do not understand
In the honesty of the bull
Not finding what I want
Making me such a fool

A smile of an innocent
All inside the flow
The lovely gentle scent
That I will never know

Your grace is only my imagination
I know your not out there
But I can dream the sensation
I will never let you go I swear

(( Chorus ))
Chasing a hopeless shadow
Not knowing why
Losing my own battles
My life keeps going by
(( Chorus Continue ))
I do not understand
In the honesty of the bull
Not finding what I want
Making me such a fool

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