Thursday, May 18, 2006

   What am I even doing here?
I am at school, sitting around a couple of jerks, and I am learning nothing. I like it online, where no one can see my face, the pain written there is far to clear. I wonder if I died who would attend my fueneral, and who would care about it. Sorry to sound a little sad today, I might be moving away. I just made friends with a lot of people, and I found a way to be happy, and now I might have to leave. If I could do something, I would rage war on the insensitive man who did this to me.
My mothers boyfriend is an abusive a hole, and becuase he can't get a life, I have to move a couple of states away from the town that has become my home, it's streets my playground, its stores my shelters. I have to leave and never come back.
unless I can convince my mother otherwise.
More some other day. Love to you all. I appreciate you all reading up on me, and being my friends.
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Monday, May 15, 2006

   Mixed Feelins
How messed up am I? I thought I liked that dream guy, but really I love only no one, for no one really loves me. I wish all of the heartbreaks in my life would go away. Well more later 2day!
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Thursday, May 11, 2006

   Sigh!
Sigh* I am single still...lonely really! The guy I thought might like me, lied to me, then decided not to even pretend to like me! Well...you need no teen drama on my page!

Who likes muffins?
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Friday, May 5, 2006

   So I Am Stupid
So I am stupid...I tottally fell forward on my nose for this prince. He came up and said he loved me...In the real world!!!Well....he told me he couldn't date me because his mom doesn't want him too.

The next day he started dating my friend Felicia.

I was crushed.

Well...Other than that I have been lonely. No body talks to me unless they need or want something from me. I sigh. My one true love is a dick, name:Timmy Cates. I go now to answer the call of the teacher. Fare-well, and more later!
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

   How silly of me!
I frogot I should tell you something like a memory!

~~~~In a dream last night---I was partying at some house right? Well I go on and dance and there is some trouble and I fix it, and there are magical creatures everywhere, but...In the end, when all is done. My dream guy(I can't remember what he looks like so I can't tell you if I wanted to!)appears! He tells me he loves me like no other, and leans in to kiss me, I feel my heart beat faster, and my head starts spinning, and I start to sweat, and he pulls me close, and he runs his fingers through my hair, and his hand is on the small of my back...then he is so close to my lips I can taste them already...He says "Never wake up...and leave me..." I nod, and his lips brush mine...then my moms alarm goes off, and my eyes spring open.~~~~~

I wish I knew how to get him back..I love my dream guy, I just don't know who he is.
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   This Sucks
I am in love!!! I hat eto admit it so openly, but my computer was broken, and I need to tell someone! I drink blood okay? Well...there is someone who drank mine!!! I can hardly believe it!!! The thing about vampires is they don't drink from eachother unless they are in love.

I don't know if he meant anything by it...that is why this sucks. Not only that but this other guy I am in love with came out and asked me to go back out with him. I am so confused! I think I might like this other guy who will remain nameless, (mostly because he doesn't know), but I have no clue if he likes me. He never acts like he does around other girls, but when we are alone, he will look me in the eys and he talks to me like a person. I feel so confused. His eyes confuse me.

Everytime we touch its like lightening, and I blush, my heart beats faster, and I start to sweat, I know he might not like me though, so I don't flirt with him any more than with any other guy... My heart races just thinking of him.

Wow...I sound like a teen girl again. I don't hate everyone...I just can't open up to them. I can't love anyone I know they will leave me, or hurt me. Like my page here! No one reads this, that is why it is safe. I guess I better go before I get caught. Good-Bye no one who cares.
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Friday, March 24, 2006

Guess what?
Guess what? I hate everyone. I know millions of peoplesay that everyday, but I don't hate LIFE, I hate all the people. If they were robots I might not mind. Sereously though, I am so sick of every living thing acting like, hey I need attention so look at me, look at me.
Last night I was walking past the graveyard thinking about lieing down in there for a while(no not even to be creepy, just because I was tired. I live next to a grave yard and I was just out for a midnight stroll. I am told I do creepy things without realizeing they are creepy but I know a lot of people don't take midnight naps in the graveyard...) Anyways, but there was a creepy little crazy skunk, it was injured and was chasing its tail eternily chasing its injured tail, spun into a void where the fact that its feet don't matter, but it has to chase its tail.
I learned from the skunk. Life. Is. Pointless.
Like the skunk all anyone ever thinks about is the end and how well they will someday end-up. When all humans are here for is to kill the rest of the planet. *sigh*
Then you get the end of the skunk. Meaning my dog Princess stands over its eternal circle in the leaves and swoops in for the kill. there is a slight scuffleing of black dog on black skunk in the darkness of the night. There is a squeal of pain from the skunk, and a victorious bark from my dog. She obediantly and poetly brings the corpse of the dead skunk over to her master.
Though over-come with the stentch of dead skunk, I accept slowly-takeing the dead animal from her old wary fangs. She stares at me then trots back to the house. I stand there next to the cemetary gate, the warm frenzied blood dripping down my hand. I look over to the black metal gate and heave a heavy sigh. I go in.
With an unbidden feeling I lick the blood from my hand. I realize I may have gotten a disease, but I couldn't help it. I...just....
Well anyways. Life is pointless. I hate everyone I know. Yes that means you. I love that you read me though. When you read this, did you know you get a peak at the quiet sorrowful looking me that everyone thinks is just daydreaming? Well, you only see the real me when I write in journals or to you in a letter. I hate me for being quiet. I hate being me who never speaks what needs to be said. I hate me.
I hate everyone I know.
There is one person I don't hate....but they shall never know...because I am just the quiet spacey little redhead that everyone thinks is creepy.
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HOLY FUCK!!! ITS A DUCK!!!!

adopt your own virtual pet!

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SOOOOOOOOO CUTEEE!!!!!!!

adopt your own virtual pet!

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

   wow....
wow...so I ddidn't get on last night. Sorry. Well. Now I feel really...ugh.well. I can't tell you now. I don't FEEL like it. so blah!*stick sout tounge.
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