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Monday, January 9, 2006


   At school again!
The only way to post is school computers!I am glad you all visit me! Last night I had to clean an entire fridge by myself! I smell like bleach today, and my voice hurts. I had a fight with my mom about my little brother...and other things....I'd rather not talk about it but I feel like I am talking to myself. After I had the fridge cleaned, I found a towel and went into my bathroom. The tub filled with about 4 inches of water and then got really cold, so I only had around 4 inches with wich to rinse my skin of the bleachy acid. After submerging my arm (the only part that would be covered with water)I realized how many cuts I had filled with bleach....Ouch. Once I had rinsed my hair, I got out and had to get fire wood... in my PJs. Well, really just a hoody (my night gown), and Got jumped on by my dog, Sarge. miserably enough I made a fire ( smile and screams FIRE!!!) I played with it then went to bed dirty, and covered with ash and bark. (Itchy!!)......Then I woke up and got dressed. I came to school and faced my boyfriend nervously. (What goes on in the van, stays in the van...). My other friend just got dumped and was quite cheerful. In my head last night as I scrubbed the mold from the door, I ranted to myself.

I am a neglected little depressing nerd. My mom doesn't care what happens to me, and my friends all ignore me. If I brought up how I feel about anything they shrug and consider it another stupid little thing. Lexi says something hardly sad and gets many hugs, as people listen to her every word. I do believe she will be reading this so I'll say it... I think I am nothing. I can't stand life, much less the people in it. I am nothinhg to anyone, and I don't care how many people say I am a heartless bitch, because if I didn't have a heart it wouldn't hurt so much.

Well sorry for being so down... I promise two happy entries to make up for it! Gotta go bye!

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