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Female Location • HELL Member Since • 2005-07-03 Occupation • slave to life Real Name • Wouldn't You Like To Know?
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Achievements • nothing Anime Fan Since • awhile Favorite Anime • It's so hard to choose.But Trigun,Slayer and Vampire Hunter D would probably be my fave since they're the first ones I ever watched.But I like Cowboy Bebop,Witch Hunter Robin,Hellsing,Fullmetal Alchemist,Ghost in the Shell,FLCL,InuYasha,SCRYEd,Paranoia Goals • to achieve something Hobbies • writing Talents • people say i'm a good writer, so i'm just going to go with that.
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Sunday, February 5, 2006
I Still Hate It Here, But, Now Onto Something Different
First off, I'm still pissed. Second, I really think I'm sick. I had a fever last night and today. My teeth hurt too [braces].
It's 1:11 am right now, and my parents still aren't back. My dad left for work at 8am Saturday morning, and was supposed to get home around 7pm. Mom said [around 5:something pm] that she would just go pick him up. They still aren't back yet, and they haven't called or anything. That pisses me off.
FullMetal Alchemist was soooo awesome! Oh...*drools* I want Ed...and Roy...and Havoc...and Scar...and Envy...*shivers in delight*
I have most of the prologue written for my story. I'll put up a link so you can all go read it later. And every month I plan on making a special update saying that there is another chapter up. Because it is my goal to write at least one chapter every month. It seems like an attainable goal to me. Since I never finish any of my stories, except the short stories I have to write for my CW class, I am determined to finish this one. And it's going to be a book rather than a short story. You're going to read it? Excellent!
I read a SCRYED fanfic earlier. It was an X-Rated one between Mimori K. and Ryuho T. It was really well written, first off, and it was sooo hott. It was a His and Her Fantasy thing, and in his fantasy, he was rough and controlling...it was so hott...*drools thinking about it* Ryoho is so hott. So is Kazuma...*cringes in delight* You know, I used to write X-Rated fics for my friends...I was pretty damn good at it too, despite my virginity...Wonder if I still have any talent...
I had a dream tuesday night that my older sister Brittany said she was coming home. Then, that night or the next afternoon or something, I get a message from her in my MySpace inbox. She tells me that she is coming home. I was freaked out.
I don't really want her to come home either. I love her and all [most of the time anyway] but she can be annoying. She's often more like a mother trying to be a best friend than a sister trying to be a sister. I mean, she practically raised me and Whitney [my younger sister] and even Braxton although he was spoiled by mom and dad [he's my younger brother], and sometimes she slips back into that motherly...thing. I dont need another fucking mom, I need a sister who isn't a friend one minute and seems to forget about me the next. I don't need it. So I want her home, but then I don't. I'm alittle confused.
I'm alone.
No one cares.
No one gives a fucking damn about me, so why should I them, huh? Everyone comes to me with their problems, their secrets. Who can I trust to do that with? No one. Everyone expects me to care about them, but they don't care about me. That's fucked up. I wish I could leave and never have to see any of these people again. Just start over with a new life, with nothing to tie me to this place and my past what-so-ever. Maybe in my next post I'll tell everyone why I'm so fucked up. But then again, you don't really care do you? Well fuck you. I need you. I don't need anyone. I just want everyone to shut the fuck up.
