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Female Location • Philippines, Cebu City Member Since • 2003-09-03 Occupation • College Junior Real Name • Jacky
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Goals • A Successful Pharmacist with a powerful company
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Friday, April 8, 2005
The tension grows thicker
Last night dad arrived here from Makati.
And as always I feel uncomfortable having him around.I can't tell you why though.A big and serious family issue happened a year ago and I lost my trust in him.I lost my faith in him.
I wish he would go away....leave and never come back but sadly my wishes never come true.
And whats even worse is that I'll be going to Makati with him after my sister's graduation.
So right now I'm dreaded at the thought that I'm leaving Cebu on Monday at noon.
I don't like going to Makati,I feel alienated there.I don't belong in that family who is waiting for me.
Its like I'm that 5 year old child again who is filled with fear and confusion.And looking from my side,there's noone there....not even my parents.
I don't know whose fault is this though.......
Is it ME for feeling this way and cannot let go of the past
Or is it THEM for showing me those horrible moments everday...
Hurting
I wish I could just stay here and let them go to Makati
The tension grows thicker
