Thursday, February 12, 2004

   I'm leaving

Thinking.....I'm always thinking.....and yet it leads me to nothing...My heart full of hatred....it can't be healed...Im cursed...I cursed myself....don't know when and don't know why.....No love,no pity,no sadness....only thing of nothing.....I am nothing....I'm not happy anymore....please stab my heart....it's the only cure....the only way to be free....to smile....you judge me...criticize me...throwing me to the darkest pits....blood trickling down from my head...yet I feel nothing.....my eyes are dull....No life.....I'm dead inside....what you have done is not enough.....I'm not yet free....I close my eyes....there you are...looking at me with sad and pleading eyes.....you lend me your hand....I shook my head...You started crying...I wipe your tears....I'm sorry...You want to reach me but I won't let you.....I can't let you feel the coldness inside of me......because it will destroy your life.....I can't let you live the way I did....Your Fragile...Your Precious....Your Important to ME.....I want to hold you like you wanted me to...but I can't..I'm....fading......you knew in the beginning that I would be....and yet you stayed with me......and I'm so gratefull...You don't know how happy I am on what you did......but I wish I pushed you away that time too........because of me......you're hurt now...you're crying...please stop the tears.....I don't want to remember that face......just smile for me...that's the only thing I'm asking from you....I don't want to leave with regrets....I'm not being selfish....I'm leaving...for your Happiness...it's better this way....You gave me your warm smile...and for the first time in my life....I smiled back......Goodbye... Sad to say that I'll be leaving for awhile...something has come up and I have to do something...so the contest will be postponed for now,hope its ok wid u guys...I'm very sorry...but.....it's a matter of life or death here....I have to go....till then... Farewell Fed up with my destiny And this place of no return I think I'll take another day And slowly watch it burn. Doesn't really matter How the time goes by Cause I still remember you and I And that beautiful goodbye...

Comments (6)