Remember my last post?...well I faced the problem and as I expected it wasn't really good,it was HORRIBLE!!!!
What I didn't know that those thoughts that I've been having from the past,have some hidden secrets and unknown truths.
I talked about it with my mom,she told me everything.
I really couldn't tell you the details,it would be so long and very personal but I'll just tell you the one thing that really hurt me the most.
When I was born my dad and his side of the family didn't accept me right away.They were disappointed.
"Love is given,not asked"-guess I never thought that love is NOT given right away,especially from my family.........
Yeah.....and things just got worst today.....well I went to bed at 3 am......I woke up early in the morning cuz I have karate practice on 10:30 am.....
While karate practice....I almost collapsed
again.....my heart was aching and I was having a hard time breathing
I think I'm capable of having a heart attack.......maybe even sooner
The Chief Instructor told me to take a break.....after lunch I continued my karate practice and it went well.But I was very tired aswell.When I got home,I rushed upstairs to my room to get some sleep but my mom told me that I have to go to the dentist *groans*
Man I'm pissed!!! Well I hurriedly dressed-up while in a VERY BAD MOOD.....the rest of the day I was silent.....having that all very know glare Im wearing from the past when I was still a loner.They know better not to talk to me cuz I wont talk to them or even look at them.
I apologize very being rude
Well now I'm finally home,I cool down a bit.....but I'm still pissed! Jeez,I wish I fully collapsed and never wake up!
sorry for being immature
Anyway.....I checked all of your sites and read your posts but I didn't reply to all of them cuz I'm not in the mood still and I'm really tired *sigh*
Take Care
Anime Bishi of the Day
Shinji Ikari
From Neon Genesis Evangelion
This Neon Genesis Evangelion hero is the designated "Third Child" and pilot of Eva Unit 01. A loner who keeps to himself, Shinji is at times nearly physically and emotionally crippled by his fear of what others think of him -- he sees little worth in himself. He is the most skilled of the Eva pilots, despite his reluctance to be one.
Quote:
"What's wrong with running away from reality if it sucks?!"
"You're just a child yourself." "
~Blue Hawk
Those demons have finally show their true form