Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Okay time for me to go on a little rant about to things money and presents. Specificaly between friends.

Sence I said it first lets start with money. I've been thinking about this because of how I've seen a few people acting lately. Money should never get in the way of friendship. Thats just so stupid. Lets start with loaning money. If one of my friends needs money to say by lunch or pay back a fine and I have some I'll give it to them. Me being me I usualy forget about it five minutes later and never ask for it back (witch could explain why I'm always in need of cash). I don't think its wrong to ask for money back from your friends a loans a loan. But you can take it to far. Take for instance two friends of mine. Honestly they only hang out with each other because they have to to be around everyone else but I don't think it matters and My first friend, friend A acts like this with everybody. Friend A has loaned Friend B money a few times. When she does she refuses to leave the issue alone until shes paid back. Except Friend B doesn't have much money. Friend A as well as the rest of us already knew this. If someone just doesn't have money and you know that you should be sentive enough to relize that they can't pay you back imeadiatly and give a break ro if you have a problem with that not loan it in the first place. So, she hounds her about the money she lowned her last week then adds another 10 dollers on to it and we all ask were that caome from. Apreartenly 6 months ago when we all whent to dinner together she bought her something. Friend B says she already payed her back and they go on and on. So eventualy I just give Friend A the money for friend B saying she can pay me back but she won't cause like I say I'll never remember to ask. Honestly though if you have a problem loaning someone money don't do it in the first place. And after a few months just let it go. It shouldn't be something convient to pull up whenever you have an arguement to show your both right and generous for lettting soemone use all of your few dollers. I remember once she just kept on going after me beacause I owed her a doller a doller. I don't think you should owe your friends anything and that if you think about it it all balences out in the end with continusly louning each other stuff. I mean she probably owes me alot if I ever talied everything up. Just my pointless little thing on ideocies of money. I had more to say on the subject but I've kinda forgoten.

On to gifts. First of I think gifts should never be mandatorie or demanded. I mean thats the whole point of them being gifts. I'm talking about this cause alot of my friends and me have birthdays around this time of year so I've been thinking about it. Friend A from above has been getting on my back cause I never got her a present for her birthday somthing like 8 months ago. First of I'm not obligated to get her something secound of I did just it whent missing. I'm sorry about it but on the subject of money I don't have an endless suplie of it or time. Can we please move on now. Besides she didn't get me anything for my birthday do why am I the only one with an obligation. Friend B also from above just had her birthday and was demanding good presents but that was okay cause she was joking we knew she was joking. You shouldn't stop being someone friend cause they didn't get you anything. Also you should get someone something purposfully you know will get them in trouble because thats not right either. I never liked gifts that much because they have alot of potential for being bad. If people exchange gifts one will invaribly feel shortchanged and get mad at the other person and personeley I like gifts that are personel rather then ones that are expensive. One of my favorite girts is a cd case because my friends specificaly got it because she knew it was my favorite colors. Or another friend who got me an old tattered book but had spent a long time looking for it cause she knew I'd like the story. Thats what gifts are about.

I don't know what I'm rambleing about (I got away from what I was origenaly going to say a long time ago) or the point of this but basicaly its stupid to let material things get in the way of friendship.
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Erg so much to do. Today alone I had a test in spanish, a test in health, a test in nsl, and a speech in english. Its pretty much like that for the rest of the week. Owell four day weekend comming up four day weekend comming up *continues to repeate in my head*. Our health test today on drugs I swear my teacher didn't tell us half the stuff. She claims it was all on our study guide but it wasn't. Besides even if it was I don't exactly have time right now to look up various drugs effects on unborn children and how long they last and witch ones are colorus and witch ones come from what plants and withdrawl symtoms for cafeine and so on. I was doing homework last night from about 4 to 11 and still didn't finish it all. I basicaly couldn't take any more of it and quit. Its encredible the amount of work I have this week. Most of the answers were common sence so I'm pretty sure I got alot of them right but some were just out there. I also don't like true and false because I'm always second guessing my self and wondering if words have double meanings that make something wrong instead of right like I put or if one letter of an important acurnem was changed to make the answer wrong (that happened today I think its THC, the active chem in mariguana I might be wrong on that, but it was spelled TLC on the test so it was wrong) So thats my little complaint of the day. Though I guess I should be thankfull I don't have more work because in a little I probably will and will look back and wish I didn't complain and enjoyed how little it was. I do that now with what I used to have to do. Things should get easyer though when the new quarter starts cause teachers won't be rushing to get all the things they need to on this one. So Friday. The quarter ends friday and then four day weekend.
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Monday, October 25, 2004

Okay this is going to be one of those long posts so I'll brake it up into sections. If you get bored the you can skip ahead to when I talk about something new.

Homecomming
Homecomming was saturday. I whent with nicole and donna. It was alot of fun. Errrggg my dad was so embaracing though. I told him I'd meet him in front of the school at 11 30 and even brought a cell phone so he could call me if something happened. It was the last song so I decided to stay all of the extra 2 minutes for it to finish and that way nicole donna and I could leave together. I hear do you whant to dance turn around and see my dad. About 15 seconds later after a bit of cussing (I was surpririesed) I asked him what he was doing. He pointed to his watch and said its 11 31 you said you'd be out at 11 30. 11 31! You have got to be kidding me. Later he said he also whanted to see what was happening. Its a school dance there all the same. Thats no reason to do that. I didn't see anyone elses parents come busting through the doors when there kid was a minute late and besides he isn't exactly the picture of puncuality. In fact you always add at least half an hour to the time he says he'll be someplace. I swear he was just looking for an exuse to come in and say he caught me doing drugs or making out in a dark corner with a strange guy I never met before or something. Stupid over bearing never trusts me... Okay well at least he let me go. Neither steph or michelles parents let them go cause they were afraid they would get drunk or something. What is with parents and irrationel fears. Again its a school dance. If they were going to an after party later that at least makes a little sence but again its a school dance.

NSL Class
My teacher for nsl (nationel state and local gov) is so...you'd think shes a student. Its not a bad thing. Its just she looks so young and the way she talks you'd think shes 16 or 17. We got into class today and she was talking about homecomming. Said something like "Oh my gosh I whent to homecoming and I saw so many of you! I was with my boyfriend and I kept on pointing out my students. And going like look that boy in the blue shirt over there is in my class. And he say Katie they all have blue shirts on. I also got to see some of my students were going out with my each other and I didn't know. I thought maybe you guys were just good friends but then at the end of the night I saw you all making out in the corner and I new you were going out." Shes a great teacher I just thought the way she said it was so funny and made her seem so young.

Books
Michelle Steph and I were in the school library this morning looking at the new books and the libriarian came up and asked us if we needed anything. Michelle for some reason suddently asked if they had any manga. Well the librarian said no but she had just ordered some. This got us all interested so I asked what titles. She said she doesn't remember and doesn't realy no much about manga but got some sugestions from another librarian from a different school whos realy into grafic novels. She then said that sence we were interested if we wrote down any titles and put them in the sugestion boxs thered be a good chance she could get them because there in the middle of ordering books and have a 1000 dollers left over that they need to spend by the end of the week. So, if we have any sugestions we should write them down but to make sure there school apropriate. I found this interesting but I wasn't overly exited but Michelle and step were so happy. They spent all of lunch writting down manga and other books they whanted to get. I swear they had a pile of paper an inch think by then end. Though we spent awile trying to figure out what was school apropriate for the manga sence the librarian didn't know much about it and if we sugested something she deemed offensive she might not listen to sugestions or get anymore. I pointed out some of the more violent and graphic things in the library but steph pointed out no pictures so thats different. We decided to be safe not to recomened anything that you know the warning labels on the back that say older teen and such not to recomened anything that wasn't sutible for at youngest a 13 year old. I hope that made sence so basicaly books that say there suitable for 13 plus or younger.

Oprah
Okay we watched oprah in health today. It was a show on ecstacy. Parts were realy funny. For example when ever oprah talked about parties she'd go "teens would go to large nonstop parties at night called raves" They were never just raves or parties always "nonstop parties called raves"

Birthday
My mom's not going to be here for my birthday so she held a semi surprise pary for me. Semi cause I was knew it would happen just not when and it was a full blown party just a cake and exuse to envite people over and give me presents. Val(my sister jen's friend) gave me a realy pretty set of earings she made herself. Mom got me tickets to something. Jen already took me to the metalica concert hugs jen several times explaiming that i love her very very much. Metalica rules. Chip (moms boyfriend) got me a bunch of stuff including a book about writting by stephen king. Gwen (moms friend) and Emma (her daughter meaning basicaly it was Gwens gift with emmas named attached) was a gift certificate to borders. YAy money to buy manga with. And someone got me a blockbusters card though I'm not sure what I'm going to use it for sence I never realy rent movies. I let other people do that and watch it with them. Those were all my presents and its not even my birthday yet. I'm not having a party so I'm willing to bet my friends will have a small surprise one for me (they always do) and then I have to go to dinner with dad MArigerite (his girlfriend) and there kids. Man, my mom says she thinks my life is to compartmentalized and looking at this she might be right. Anyway the party, basicaly I spent the entire time talking to jen (my sister) and val (her friend) about homecomming and letting them remenice a bout when they were in highschool and talking about fanfiction. Val gave me a few good sites and authors for that. So yeah that was my weekend, very bissy.
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Friday, October 22, 2004

Pep rally today. There were a couple of realy realy annoying guys behind me who kept on yelling you suck to people when they did stuff. And your hot and the doctor says its clearing up to the people when they announced homecomming court. They wouldn't just shut up. They also threw bottles of drinks at the kids behind me and infront of them so they got stuff all over them and moved. Also, seniors actualy lost homecomming halls. Freshmen were 3rd, seniors 2nd, and juniors and sofmores tied for 1st. They were pretty cool. The theme was retro television. Seniors-Giligens island, Juniors-I love lucey, Sophmores- Happy days, and Freshmen the adams family.
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Thursday, October 21, 2004

Hmmm...in health these kids were doing a power point on Rohipnol aka the date rape drug. They were explaining the side effects and said what happened if you took a 2 millagram dose. Then right after that they had a part on the power point that said something like a 2mg dose and a beer will knock a women out into a state of pure carnel bliss witch she won't remember in the morning. What?! What?! I'm not exactly sure how to react to that statement but the teacher didn't do anything about it and just told them to move on.
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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Self image and how people preceive each other is realy terrible. Its so easy for person A to see the best in person B and ignore there faults condsidering person B realy lucky and wishing to be them while at the same time person A is concentraiting on all there own bad qualities seeing none of the good. Not realizing thatperson B probably wishes they looked or acted like them. I hope thats not to confusing. I'm saying this cause I have several friends right now who are butiful but have no self confidence whats so ever. Take one, I'm not joking when I say she looks like a model shes butiful. She can were the most amazing clothing normal people wouldn't even think of trying on. She looks like she steped out of a magazinge. Yesterday she was looking down at her stomic and said something like "Look at this its so discusting. I'm so fat. You can see the roles of fat on my stomic. Its so discusting." What? I told her this wasn't true. I mean the girl wears a size 0 clothes. If she's fat I'm a walrus. Then she s worried if her hair looks alright if her makeups okay ect. Or another one of my friends who told me today she was so ugly. That her hair was so puffy and this and that. She has butiful hair and realy nice face and ect. I told her all this but she wouldn't beleive me. I'm not sure if its related to this but everyone who seems to show they have low self asteem realy whants a boyfriend. I mean realy realy badly whants a boyfriend. Boyfriends are all fine and good but you should never feel like you have to have one. Theres nothing wrong with trying to get one but when its such a big part of your life then thats just not a good thing. My second friend that I mentioned when on and on today about how she needed a boyfriend inbetween insulting herself. I told then to get one. I know its not that simple but if you whant a boyfriend do you have anyone in particular in mind because if you do you can work on it. And I don't mean the random guy across the room thats the first person you see. She then asks me if I think she should ask the guy across the room if he would go out with her thats shes been going on and on about for awile. He was standing all of five feet away. We were talking in wispers so he didn't here us but thats another story. I told her I didn't know. Honestly though why do people ask me for relationship adive. I've never actualy been in one so maybe I'm not the best person to ask. I'm at a compleate loss on the subject. Well theres my little rant on self image. Though it got off topic a couple of times. (I sound like I'm in english class saying off topic hmmm...)
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004

   *Bursts out laughing* just thinking about this is so funny. steph accidently sent me this e-mail that she ment to send one of her other friends. It had a coppie of an im conversation with this boy she was trying to scare (he had a crush on her friend and she was trying to make him think she was crazy so that he would stay away from both of them I know juvenile and mean but hey why else be in highschool if not to be juvenile and mean to people once in awile besides I'm realitivly sure the guy knew she was joking) It was the funniest conversation though. He never met her before so all he knew was it was a random girl on the internet who was friends with the girl he liked. She sounded like a cross between a crazzed fan girl groupie and stalker. The g rated parts included her telling him she was watching him at his play practices and if he would marry her. She came to school today and apoligized profusly about everything and then told me a few realy funny stories about other times shes done this and how a few times she got over her head witch were also very funny (her and her friend have been doing this for like 2 years). People act so different on the internet. Steph is the most quiet shy girl, I didn't even know she knew the meaning of half the things she said. Then again shes the one who always says "I love the internet you can be anyone you whant to" Though after hearing her the guy was convinced that steph must be fat ugly and desperate. Except steph weighs around 95 pounds and is most defently not desperate or ugly.
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I'm sorry I haven't been able to get to everyones sites at all the last few days I've been so bissy. The metalica concert was so cool, I'll talk about it in a later post (if I start now I'll be sitting here all day and I don't have time for that.)

Homecomming week is here. Today people dressed up as what they whant to be when they grow up. There were the normal jobs like doctor and buissness person even a balerina the grown kid bumb ect. and of course someone dressed up like a pimp, someone always dresses up like a pimp. A few girls dressed up like they were pregnet. Ummm...okay, uhhh yeah uhh I realy hope having children isn't there only ambition in life. Another guy was a gynocoligest and even made up cards with his name on it and such. No thats not obvious at all (sorry sarcasum.)

My classes chem tests we took aren't graded but the other periods were. It wasn't exactly pretty. Mr. Prange didn't even whant to know the average yet so he read the scores off (not with names or anything just the scores) of the other class and had us average them. Every other grade you could here a colective grown or dispare from the class though it wasn't as bad when we found out they weren't ours. Though we usualy do just as well as them. So we had to listen to the oblitory depressing I know your smart but you need to apply yourself speech. Though it wasn't that bad at least prange didn't spend the entire time telling us we were better then this just a quick five minute speach.


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Friday, October 15, 2004

Ummm never mind about my last post I just got it to work. How, is beyond me.
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Erg, this is realy annoying. I mentioned a few days ago I started an account on fictionpress.net. I't won't let me submit stories. It used to I mean I was able to put the first chap of a story up but know whenever I try to upload a document it just says file did not upload correctly and I can't firgure out why. I tryed everything I can think of. Changing computers, trying with different documents, even logged in under different names, trying to upload someing on fanfiction.net to see if it was something I was doing (that did work not that its helping me) and its not helping. Its been several days know sence this started to. Hmmm...IF anyone knows anything I could do to let me upload stories could you please tell me.
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