Friday, September 10, 2004

I couldn't realy sleep last night cause I spent the entire time thinking about katie (my dog). The vets going to be gone monday and mom's gone this weekend so she took kates in today. She said she took her for a very long nice walk and gave her a bunch of treats before taking her to the vets and I whent on a long walk with her last night. If your ever a pet (can't imagen why you would be but if you are) then you should start getting susbisuse when everyone is extra nice to you and doesn't complain about having to walk you and gives you about 10 treats. I know its for the best but that doesn't mean I have to like it. I didn't realy cry, though my eyes started to get watery at random times, but all day at school I felt weird. Like I wasn't suposed to be there, my stomic kept on doing flip flops and I just kinda felt like I wasn't there. I also kept glancing at my watch wondering if mom had taken kate in yet. I also acted different. I'm surprised no one noticed maybe they did and just didn;t say anything but I just couln't stand everyones fights and bickering today and sparred a bit with Shaina then walked away. I don't think she noticed but it was diferent for me. I hardly ever get in fights with my friends and it wasn't even realy a fight but I acted rather...I don't know... put out. Just didn't do the stuff I normaly do. Though they did make me smile a few times. I didn't say anything about katy cause honestly I didn't know how. I just got 2 e-mails from my sisters friends saying they were sorry and such. That almost did make me cry. There Jen's close friends but I've known them sence I was very young so there more like cousens to me and I guess you could call them my friends to in a weird way. The e-mails worn't sent to everyone either. They both took there time to say something specificaly to me and one to me and my brother. Shara (one of them) is in vet school and she talked about how it wasn't our fault, that we must were very loving from what she saw and who much katie trusted us, how these things happened and such and it was the best thing and how she had seen this many times and we were very coragous and loving to deside to put kates down. While val gave me an e-hug and said she'd make sure to give me several real ones next time she saw me. At school I kept on being reminded of her by the most random things. Shaina talking about her dog, or even just fruits basket that I lent her cause someone in it turns into a dog. I don't realy whant to talk about it anymore so I'm going to move on to a new topic. Jen and James are going to visit shara this weekend like I said shes at vet school and mom is with chip in pennyvaina so nuben and chrisie (jen and james bosten terriors) are staying with us at dads. I just don't seem to be able to get away from the topic of dogs can I. Nicole called me last night panting saying you got to come to my game tommarow. So, I asked when it was and she said this weekend so i asked her again and she said saturday and then I asked when it was more specificaly and she said morning and i asked her one more time and she said 10 30 so I'll try to go tommarow. Turns out she was calling right after practice with is why she was panting. She goes to rockville (not my school) and is on the football team. Yes nicole is a girl. Yes she is on the football team. No to my knowledge rockville does not have a girls team and if they do she's not on it. And yes the rest of her team is boys. When she told me she made the team I wasn't surpriesed cause nicole is nicole and she does what she whants without thinking of what could be considered "normal" but you should see the expressions on some peoples faces when I say that nicoles on the foot ball team. Mentioned it to margerite last night cause her son goes to the school she's playing saturday. Margerite's eyes got realy big and she looked confused and said does he play football. Me, nicole she's a girl. Her, realy. Me, realy. Margerite looking more confused, I didn't know they have a girls team. Me, they doen't. Margerite know with a very funny expression, but how does she play. Is she big. Me, no actualy she's quite petite. Margerite, but how... Generaly how the conversation goes when I just mention it passingly cause can't discuss nicole and football without it being a surprising thing for some reason. Oh, something to add to my great day. We got done early in english so we had 15 minutes to do nothing. I don't know anyone in my english class and didn't feel like talking so I just sat there. The guy infront of me and his friend spent the entire time making fun of his autistic brother and talking about how he set him up to look like he was screaming for no reason when the guy was actualy making fun of him and stuff. The guy kept on calling him a fat pig. I mean I don't have an autistic brother but god thats harsh. Alot of things that happened to day made me think of peoples character and morals but this post is getting kinda long and I'm sick of typing so I'll save that rant for another time.
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