Sunday, February 25, 2007

sick in the heart.
this morning i woke up and it hurt.
i clutched my hand to it, feeling tha pain.
looking in the mirror, i saw sickness in my eyes.
my throat hurts from crying.
my eyes are red and puffy from tears falling down my face.
slowly, it cracks a little bit more.
my head hurts from thinking about you, constantly worrying if you are ok.
the cracks spread and get deeper and deeper.
im sick, but i don't have anything.
im in pain, but nothing is sore.
im hurt, but nothing is bleeding.
ever since you left, i've been sick right there, in the place all my concern for you is.
ever since you left, i've been sick in the heart.



i feel sick in my heart. 'im not bleeding, but it hurts a lot'-gaara.
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Friday, February 23, 2007

without my guardian angel
at first, i thought i was alone.
then you showed me what it was like to see the beauty inside me.
you taught me to find a friend in everything i did and still do.
so i found a friend in you.
my hero, my angel, my brother, my friend, you were all of those things and more.
one day, you packed up and left, without saying good-bye.
friends say it was because you hurt me.
but you have to know that not having you in my life hurts more than anything ever could.
since you left, i dread doing things i love.
since you disappeared, food is tasteless.
since you ran away from your fears, life seems like it's not worth living.
don't you see, i need my friend.
who else can i be myself around?
don't you see, i need my hero.
who else can i look to for advice?
so please come back.
promise not to leave me again.
cause i don't want to live without my guardian angel.



i was looking through my poetry collection and found the poem i wrote when my boyfriend moved away last yr., it's really sad. i guess it suits my mood.
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Thursday, February 22, 2007

someday
how the hell did we wind up like this?
why weren't we able to see the signs that we missed and try and turn the tables.
i wish you'd unclench your fists and unpack your suitcase.
lately there's been too much of this, but don't think it's too late.

nothing's wrong just as long you know that someday i will, someday, somehow, im gonna make it alright but not right now. i know you're wondering when, you're the only one who knows that.
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

   all guys do is lie
im so f*ckin mad! just when i thought someone loved me, it turns out he's been seeing my friend. figures, when it comes to a girl like me, all guys do is lie. yeah, L-I-E, LIE!!!!!!!!!!!! whatever, im mad at him, looks like im not meant to be loved.
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   weird naruto dream/nightmare
ok this is about a dream i had 2/17. i told darknesswolf about it and she had the same reactions i did. so im gonna tell you ppl.

darkness wolf and i were in the art room after school doing mindless anime drawing. then i hear something. i go 'michele, hear that dude?' her ears perk up and she says 'yeah, i hear footstpes.' 'dude, sounds like ppl marching.'
the nxt thing we kno, a naruto-chibi parade storms into our class. we were like 'OMG, WTF?!?!?!' it was a parade of naruto boys as chibis telling us what drugs (i always interpretted) the advertised in the show. naruto was screaming. 'need more hallucinagens!' shika came behind him moping 'what a drag, i need another double dose of depressants'. roc lee said 'i want to be strong ans tell ppl im on stimulants!' gaara came in all cute cheering 'me want crack!' sasuke had his new outfit and was muttering. 'not strong enough to beat itachi, need steroids.' and itachi was saying 'man im getting so drunk i might kill another clan.'
i kno, at first we were like WTF?, but then we laughed cause it was funny. that's when the nightmare started. the nxt thing the two of us knew, we were in frilly bright pink girly dresses with matching bows and shoes. and we were like 'OMFG, NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!'
then i woke up. man, that last part was scary. well, i hope you like my weirdest dream/nightmare. i advise you not to have it.
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007

   atastuki angel
and so the members of the atastuki boed in respect, listening to their leader.
'itachi' the ghostly voice called. 'you will have a new partner, one who will kill your brother and his girlfriend.'
so stepped in a new girl, deadly and innocent, a strange combination.
'hello' her voice hissed. 'my name is ryu. pleased to meet the traitor od the uchiha clan.'


my oc for the atastuki!
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Monday, February 19, 2007

   battle rages on
blade stared at her old team. yeah, she was originally on team russia, but left them to be on team darkheart. they hated having a girl on and all boys team anyway.
'so' the ref called. 'are you ready to blade?' the crowd cheered on. 'i can't hear you.' so they cheered louder. 'alright then, let's get started. our first match of the tournament will be team darkheart's own american blading angel of evil, miss fire against team russia's captain, donaven.
the two of them stepped onto the platform and it rose in the arena. 'bladers ready?' donaven whiped out his blade. 'all set.' fire had hers in hand. 'bring it on russia.' 'ok, three, two, one, let's beyblade!'


more to my beyblade story.
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Saturday, February 17, 2007

   CONTEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i decided to have a contest featuring all my ocs. its open to all my friends and anyone who wishes to be a part of it. you are to draw at least one of my ocs in and evil demonic form.
1. has to be an orinal work.
2. has to be of one of my ocs currently posted on the otaku, no ocs that i haven't posted such as my death note oc suicide.
3. must be in an evil demonic from.
4. other than that, go wild with it.

i will be looking for orignality, creativiy, colors, skills, neatness, and above all, evil utter darkness. i wish you all luck!
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Thursday, February 15, 2007

i was WRONG!
i was wrong, it took a dream to realize that.
i am loved, i have someone who cares for me.
he's out there somewhere, he wants to find me.
it took a dream to realize i only wanted to hide myself from the fact i hadn't felt loved in so long.
it took him to show that i was really worth something.
you're out there, i know it, please forgive.
you're the reason i now know, i was wrong.




plz read this, i know you out there, plz forgive me for the huge mistake i almost made.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

   alchemist love
rikki looked sullen and hurt, watching couples around her.
no one was there to be her valentine. she was alone, as usual.
'should've guessed this' she thought. 'with my automails, who would want to be my valentine?'
but then came up next to her with roses in his hands.
'hi rikki' he said nervous. 'happy valentine's day.'
she turned, blushing at who wished her joy.
ed gave her the roses and then closed his eyes and leaned to kiss her.
'uh, ed, what are you doing' she asked afraid. 'ed..? ed..?'
'i love you rikki' he whispered. 'and i want to kiss you.'



every1 should hav some1 2 luv them on v-day. and thats how ed feels about rikki. *note:not and ed fangirl, just think they look cute together*
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