Friday, August 24, 2007

Alone...
Hello, today Justine and Michelle arent in school... yes its very sad...

so yeah, right now im in drivers but its a free day so im actually in the library...

Yeah...

i really wish Michelle were here, but if you read her post then you know why she isnt... i already knew Justine wasnt going to be here...

Um, yeah yesterday the kept us locked up in our classes until like 4:00... (we get out at 3:30)
because the weather. i was so ready to beat my teacher and run home... i like the rain so was really mad, that and i was hungry as hell so i wanted to get home to eat... yeah...

Um, my mom yelled at me yesterday because i told her i was going to do bad in history... i mean i was just trying to warn her you know. its like she wants me to lie about it. but i cant help it im no good at remembering stuff and i dont see the point in learning about a whole bunch of dead guys... o_o

...

yeah...

me go now...

Bye-bye
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Drivers?
i get to take the drivers test today...

Mwahahahaha, so all other drivers beware...

hahaha

no i dont think ill be to bad.

my mom said that if i pass the test then were going to find an empty parking lot on the way home so i can drive some.

so YAY!

^__^
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Sunday, August 19, 2007

Hair cut... and some hair dye...
I GOT MY HAIR CUT TODAY...

Yeah...

im not really sure it fits me though...

*sigh*

my mom said i look beautiful, but i dont think so. and the asian said i look pretty. i think it just looks weird, ive never had hair this short before. Oh and the bang thingys are dyed black. which i like. ^__^

but whatever...

i feel odd, like i wanna go show my friends but then im scared that theyll laugh at me. although im sure they wont cause there all really nice... Hmm... i guess ill wait till tomorrow to call anyone.

yeah...

Hm, i havent really hung out with anyone lately... (mainly Michelle and Justine)

the last time i saw Michelle was on thursday, and Justine on tuesday i think.

Wow!

yeah im definatly calling them tomorrow...
*nods head*

maybe we can watch Kashimashi?

*nods again*

Ewww, i just had to kill a bug.

...

yeah i think thats all i have to report...

i guess ill put up pictures now...

Oh My God, ok i just remembered something... its about the girl who cut and dyed my hair.
*giggles*
i thought she was attractive... o_o
anyways she was wearing a low cut shirt and she kept leaning forward in it... and lets just say i was very distracted... yeah... she also kept pressing her crotch into my knee... so yeah... very distracting... hahaha...

*sigh*

pictures now...



Oh yeah i dont know why but this picture just reminded me that my mom said i can get a tattoo, but i have to pay for it and it has to be kinda small... which i thought was cool...



YAY YURI!



Haha, boobs are comfy...

okay im done now, my computer is being a bitch...

bye-bye
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Hot Topic!
Hello, well today i went to the mall for clothes... so of course i went to hot topic... i got a pair of paints, shoes, a wrist thingy that says "useless", and one of those studded braclet things except this one was rainbow colored... im so happy, this is my first time wearing something that represents gay pride...
^__^

i also went to f.y.e and bought an anime called Kashimashi... which was AWESOME!
now i really want the next DVD...

*sigh*

oh well...

ive been reading eclipse like nonstop the past 2 days... im on page 328... which is like halfway through the book...

Hmm...

what else...

i guess i can just rant randomly, but that really isnt much fun for you guys...

Um, i guess ill just put up pics until i think of something to talk about...

YEAH...

god my computer is taking FOREVER today...

once i get a job im saving up for a laptop...

damnit...

heres some awkward moments...





yeah im done with those... takes way to long to load...



this looks like fun...

...

god this is taking so long, theres so many gifs...

...

this is starting to get annoying... and i missing bleach, now i have to wait until it replays at like 2 in the morning... its going to be a long night...



so cute...



if i ever wore a skirt this is probably what id do... hahaha



hahaha, this reminds me... i got bras today when i went to the mall, and i found out im a C cup... Hm, maybe i shouldnt be saying that on the internet... oh well, i dont really care...

oh theres a topic, i think im one of the only girls in the world that doesnt want big boobs...

hahaha...



this would be an interesting view...



cool i havent done one of these in a while...
going from front to back...
Michelle, Justine, Aimee, and Me...

Hm, i keep finding wedding pictures and im wondering if it really happens or if its just a dream thing...



you know in cases like this i would tell them to have a threesome... hahaha...

yeah i think im done now...

bye-bye

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Friday, August 17, 2007

Naruto...
Ok, so all week ive been waiting for today because there showing 100 episodes of naruto. so i was planing to watch the whole thing right, but no. it said it was coming on at 6 so i set my alarm and everything... BUT IT REALLY CAME ON AT 5... so i missed the first 2 episodes, which i guess is fine because i already saw it but still...

anyways i think i have a new favorite character, well maybe not a favorite character but someone that remindes me of me...

or how id like to be...

Hmm, any-who...

its Haku... Zabuzas tool... after watching the episode where he dies (i cried) i went on the internet to see if there were any good fanfictions for him... and there were, which made me happy. ^__^

so yeah, i think thats all i have to say... i guess I'll put up some pictures now...



I wear a mask...



its not to late for me, its just never going to happen...



this is just cute...



i like snow...



i want to be needed...



i want to be used by the one i love...



i want to protect the one i love...

...

bye...
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Thursday, August 16, 2007

Library...
Hi, so im at the library right now...

And i guess ill tell you all how i ended up here.

ok so today i woke up with a phone call from my mom telling me to walk to school so korie (my lil sis) could look around and stuff cause shes gonna be a freshman... Mwahahahahaha...
oh and i had to change some things...

i also saw michelles little sister... o_o

anyways, i didnt wanna go alone with my stupid lil sister so i called up the asian and it turned out that she needed to go to the school to...
so she came over and we all walked to school, luckily it wasnt really hot today. ^__^

so after doing everything that we had to do we decided to walk to the library, now we got here around 2... and im slowly getting bored, although we did just eat lunch. we walked over to subway...
-_-
so yeah, i got some books and movies but i cant watch the movies until i get home, and im just rereading the books...

somebody save me...

hahaha...

no i guess its not that bad, if i get to bored ill just bother the asian... heeheehee....

we got the movie ThumbTanic... which is going to be REALLY funny...

we also got date movie which ive been wanting to see for a while but my mom always says no... but now i can just say michelle wanted to see it... hahaha...

life can be fun sometimes...

hmm...

yeah i think thats all...

maybe ill put up some pictures now...

never mind this stupid thing wont let me right click...

whatever, i guess ill be going now...

bye-bye
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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Somewhat Sad... -_-
yeah as it says im kinda sad... although i dont really know why, i think today was pretty good...

i got to see Justine for the first time in over a week, so i was really happy. we watched a weird kung fu movie... it was funny...

and i got to see a picture of her in a pink dress, she looked suprisingly good considering she was wearing pink... hahaha

Hmm, i also finished reading New Moon today for the second time. its a really good book, now i really wanna read the next one... *sigh*

So yeah, i dont understand why im sad... well... i guess i can say ive gotten more selfish since summer started, and i know that sounds random but its not, i think that has something to do with me being sad all the time... i can spend the whole day with one of my friends but once there gone i slowly creep back into my depression... its so stupid, before i could see a friend for a short amount of time and have a grin glued to my face for the rest of the day...

so yeah, ive just gotten really selfish...

now i hate being alone, but i used to love it, it was my "me" time... and i used to try and have as much of it as i could... now im stuck trying to keep myself busy all day, if i dont it gets kinda bad... i just start hitting things, or i just sit in my room and think for hours...
and thinking usually isnt good for me, cause it just makes me more sad...

wow, this is starting to get become a depressing post.

I should probably stop now, its stupid for me to rant like this.

stupid panda...
*shakes head*

i guess ill put up some pictures now...



Ha, this is how i feel right now...



Hm, its nice to know that im not the only one out there that feels that way.



thats kinda funny...



i like that...



pretty...



i wish...

that reminds me, i wrote a poem yesterday...

*Empty and Full*

the numbness i wanted
the hope i felt
is taken away
again and again
my blade,
my liqur
where am i now
what is left
but a she
a shell filled with worthless emotions
feelings that will never fade
and yet
here i am
crying again
wishing for it to stop
but to afraid to do anything about it.

......

yeah that really is a stupid poem, if you even wanna call it that. i apologize to all of the good poets out ther. this is a disgrace...

im sorry...

bye

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

I'm Back... *whispers in creepy voice*
Hola!

Well im back from Alabama...

so yeah...

theres not much to say...

i guess i can tell you guys some random stuff that happened while i was there...

Hmm...

i got to see a scorpion, and a baby lizard...

i got to go to the mall down there, but it was only like 20 stores... o_o

i got fruits basket volume 17 which was awsome, and i finaly found out that akito is a girl...

YAY me... *shakes head in shame after realizing what i just said*

and i also got loveless volume 6... which was also good...

i went to walmart a few times, and apparently the one down there is the biggest one in the USA... which i think is funny... why the hell is it in fuckin alabama?

Umm...

it got over 102 degrees while i was there, and never went below 90... which sucked...

Oh! and when i was going home i saw a baby and mama deer... they were soooooo cute...

Hm, thats about it... over all it was a very boring trip, i also had to sleep on a couch the whole time, which usually i wouldnt mind but this one was more like a love seat so it was REALLY small and my feet hung off of it like a foot...

so yeah...


i got to bring my swords home...

...

Ok, when i got home i called Justine but she didnt answer, so i called Michelle, but she didnt pick up either... so i waited a while, and then Michelle called me back...

so i hung out with Michelle until 8 and then we thought we should try to have a sleepover so she asked her parents and i asked my mom, and suprisingly they both said ok.

so yeah...

it was fun, we played pokemon stadium and talked and stuff... it was nice, but cold... -_-

Crap, i just remembered something... when i was in alabama i heard this one song and it reminded me of Justines avatar that she has for me... so here are the lyrics...

"All You Wanted"

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the time comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

[x2]
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone



yeah i think im done now...

Sooo...

bye-bye
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Friday, August 3, 2007

Vacation of Hell...
Hi everbody...

this is probably going to be my last post for a while, cause i'm going to alabama... dont be to happy...
sorry that was mean...
just because i hate myself doesnt mean everybody else does... i gotta try and remember that...

Anyways, yesterday i got to hang out with michelle, justine, and the asian...

it was fun, interesting, happy, sad, depressing, and a lot of confusing...
does that even work...
whatever...

Hahaha, yesterday Justine thought it was friday so i gotta call her today because she probably thinks that today is saturday, and thats when i'm leaving so... yeah...

i should also try and hang out with michelle today

Hmm...

complications...

well it makes life interesting right...

and helps you grow into a better person... wow that doesnt sound like me at all does it... Hahaha

i'm a little out of it right now cause i just got up... and ive just been thinking about alot of shit... yeah...

but im ok, im great, right... just gotta keep telling yourself that... right?

...

i wasnt planning on this being a sad post, i kinda wanted to leave on a good note... oh well...

Hmm...

im listening to kiss and control from AFI right now... and its 10:24...

which is pointless info for you guys but i really dont know what else to put... other then pictures that is...

yeah i guess ill just do that until i think of something else to say...



this is the only good picture i found when i typed in leaving anime...

now for anime gone...



sorry its not anime...

now im listening to Endlessly, she said by AFI...
i guess it kinda fits...

this one is random...



is akito a boy or a girl? @_@



see now im just being stupid, im acting as if im never going to see you guys again... but its only going to be a week... One week... 1 week...

yeah...

im good now...

great...

awesome...

right?

whatever im leaving now...

sorry

bye
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

   I'm tired...
*yawn*

I'm really bored...

Um...

and i really dont have anything to talk about...

so yeah...

oh but i do wanna put up some lyrics so...

its the 2nd openning song to bleach.

here they are...

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healedShoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live
Your hand that I held...
Will we lose it someday?I want to protect you and that disappearing smileThe ringing voice that calls me dries outEven if it gets erased by the wind along timeI will find you
Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healedDon't say words like you can't smile or you hate peopleEverything that happens in the unseen future has a meaningSo stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize
Like a rusted person
It felt so hollow to just pile atop one anotherYou said you could live on your ownJust with the usual kind wordsYou ache to a point where I cannot reach you
Your hand that I held searched for some simple kindnessDo you rememberBy learning pain, you can become a person who can be kind to othersDrive your Life
Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healedDon't say words like you can't smile or you hate peopleEverything that happens in the unseen future has a meaningSo stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize
How can I see the meaning of lifeDisappearing, you're the only. . .
So you will not break, you distance yourself from meDon't say words like you can't smile or you hate peopleNow it's by and by, even if you cannot see, there's a meaning to everythingShoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life?You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . though, we cannot return
Like in times of warped memories, we can understand someday

i already liked the song to begin with but now i like it even more now that i actually know what there saying...

^_^

Hm...

what else to say...

im listening to maroon 5 right now...

i went to walmart the other day to see how much there older cd cost and it was actually more then there new cd... i dont understand that at all...

whatever...

...

I'm writing another storie thingy...

yeah...

...

i guess ill just put up some pictures now...



yeah im not even going to try to explain why im putting this up...



Heeheehee...
ok so from left to right its:
Michelle,Aimee,Me(yeah im a pervert),and Justine.
and we're all going to pretend the guy isnt there.
-_-



from left to right its Michelle, me, Justine...



again from left to right its Michelle, me, Justine



Aimee is the one with the red roses, Justine with the yellow rose, michelle with the blue(sorry but its only because the glasses), and im in the back.



again from left to right its Justine,me,Michelle.



Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...



Hahahahahaha... thats great...

yeah i really shouldnt put this next one up but im going to anyways... I'm sorry...



...Sorry...



Hahaha, i first heard this from Aimee... god i miss her...



YAY...



...

i miss how we all used to be...

...

yeah im going to regret this later...

...

I'm done now...
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