Sunday, July 29, 2007

Sleepover... (sorry, im running out of new titles) -_-
Ok, so yeah...

i had a sleepover...

it was just me and Justine but it was still really fun...

she brought over DDR, the Wii, video games (for the Wii), and some movies...

Umm, yeah so she forced me to play DDR, which im kinda happy she did. *shrugs*

we watched an anime but i dont remember the name of it, and arrested development... which was great, we finally finished the first season...

we also just sat and talked for a while, which was diferent, we usually keep busy...
but im REALLY glad we got to talk about stuffs... Hmm, yeah i really hate making desitions, (for those of you who dont know me) and im proud to say that i actually made some...

*smiles triumphantly*

we slept for like 3 hours, then played super smash brothers and one peice... and i sucked at both of them...

*shakes head*

Um...

i walked her home at like 8:45 or something...

then i went home and took a shower to help wake me up...

and now im here...

Oh wait, i also put my newest storie like thingy up on fictionpress.com

so if you want to read it here is the link thingy...

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2396550/1/

its a yuri thingy, only like 3 pages on word...

if you comment on it please tell me the truth...

Um...

yeah i hink thats all for now...

bye-bye
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Friday, July 27, 2007

I Dont Really Have A Subject.....
Um, hi i guess...

ok well today was pretty good...

i was supposed to hang out with Justine, but that didnt happen, its nobodys fault, it happens...

but shes supposed to sleep over tomorrow...

so yeah, i thought the rest of the day was just going to be boring and depressing, but then michelle called.

so i hung out with her until like 5:30...

i wanted to ask my mom for more time but she forgot her cell phone...

so i went home and waited for my mom to come home... then i tried calling the asian michelle but she wasnt picking up so i called the other michelle and we decided to hang out some more... but her mom was being mean so we had to stay outside...

so yeah we just talked and stuff until like 8:40... it was fun, i kept dissing myself... which is like my favorit thing to do these days...

it has to do with the whole hope thing that ive tried to explain...

so yeah...

i got home and called the asian and hung out with her until around 10...

then i went home did dishes and here i am...

talkin to you people...

YAY!!!

lol...

yeah i guess ill try and find some pictures...

but they'll probably be sad and depressing...

yeah these are all aimed at myself...





not all of those make sense...





yeah sometimes i feel like i have a split personality... Meh...



i dont even know what the real me is???



Yep, thats how it should be...

one more...



heres a hint... im the thing hes stomping on...

-_-

well i guess ill go now...

bye
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

   I PASSED!!!
Hi, ok so i passed my final... :D
and the class over all...
i got a C-...

yeah...

i told rachel that we should have a party this weekend cause we dont have any more summer school... any excuse to party right... i think ill just ask her if we can get the whole group together to go bowling or something...

yeah...

Umm...

we got to watch the last mimzy just now...

its now 11:20

so now we get to do whatever until 12...

god i cant wait to get out of here...

becca says shes bored...

shes drawing on the mouse pad thingy...

*squeee*

im so happy i passed, now my mom has no reason to yell at me...

Woo Hoo!!!

Uhh...

i guess its time for happy pictures now...





Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

*sigh*

thats great...



OMG my cat billy sits like that to...

amazing...



i love rainbows but i dont like wearing lots of colors...



i kinda miss my hapy place now...

oh well...



this isnt exactly happy but...

this is how i feel now that i have all my friends...

*blushes and walks away*

MORE PICS...



this is just cute...



...yeah... ive been "trying" to draw latly but i still suck...

but thats ok...

i dont really care anymore...

Hmm... my mood is slowly going downward...

damn...

oh well...

i guess ill be going now...

Bye-Bye
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Monday, July 23, 2007

   Confused.....
Yeah, sorry but im not going to say what im confuse about...

Mwahahahaha...

...

but seriously, im so fucking confused. and im not sure if its just because im stupid or what...

the asian keeps saying one thing and im all like yeah your right...

but once i actually see the thing of confusion i go right back to the start...

its so stupid...

i wish i could just...

idk...

yeah i dont no why im even typing this... its not like any of you can do anything about it...

Im sorry...

god im such an idiot...

i should just be myself and do what i really wanna do... or say what i really wanna say...

but i get so scared...

whatever...

it doesnt matter...

this is so pointless...

...

i guess ill put up some pictures now...













envy is sooo cute...



WTF



*walks over with sad face*



Hell yeah...



YAY FIRE!!!



yeah my computer hates me...



Random party...



I suck at DDR...





This is a lie... you can so tell...









i hate it when people start freaking out because its raining, also when people look at me like im crazy when im happy cause its raining...



good song...









i gots to go now...

bye-bye
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Saturday, July 21, 2007

Sleepover.....
Hello...

this is going to be short ok...

cause im at my moms job so i cant stay on for long... (dont ask y)

ok so today michelle and justine are going to be sleeping over at my place...

and im hoping that it goes well... see there it is, me hoping again... its so stupid, see i bet something goes wrong now...

you just wait and see...

Hmm...

i finaly saw the movie RENT yesterday, it was good... but i cryed i few times...

im a wimp when it comes to sad movies...

the only problem was that i couldnt stop thinking, and then i would miss something (even though i was staring right at the screen) and id have to rewind it.... which sucked...

anyways i have to go now...

see you guys later

bye-bye
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Friday, July 20, 2007

Avatars again......
Hello, well yesterday michelle and i finally got to hang out with Justine. first we played video games, then we looked at cards, then drawings, and then we got to see some baby Justine pictures... which were really cute... ^__^

yeah...

i also got to hang out with the asian... which was... interesting...
yeah its complicated and im not going to try and explain what happened...

so yeah...

its now 10:10 and im in bio...

im really bored so i looked up more avatars...

thus the title...

so here they are...































^yeah... i am a fool^







Yeah... sorry they are kinda depressing...

im not in the best mood right now...

which is weird, cause after a day of seeing my friends im usually happy for a while...

yeah i think i kinda know why...

but if i explain my reason ill just make a bigger fool out of myself...

so im not going to...

ill leave it up to your imagination...

-.-

yeah...

i guess ill be going now...

bye


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Thursday, July 19, 2007

DAMNIT!!!
Hi, ok so yesterday i was supposed to hang out with Justine... but it turns out she was grounded...
so i called the asian but she was sleepy so she told me to call and wake her up at 3...
but i got bored so i ended up falling asleep myself...
i woke up at like 5:55 when my mom got home...
and then the asian called to see if i wanted to go to wendys...
so me the asian and kary all walked up to wendys and talked about random shit...
REALLY random shit...

yeah...

anyways afterwards we did that we went to karys place and we talked about religious stuff...

her family doesnt lke me cause im a lesbian...

so yeah...

i went home at 9...

and yeah...

took a shower and shit...

Oh then i started working on a story i started writing a while ago...

which was cool...

by then it was like 10:13 so i had to get off the computer and go to bed...

so yeah...

Hmm...

Becca is talking about drugs...

god i really wanna try some weed... and shrooms...

yeah...

im bored...

its now 9:05

in 10 minutes i gets to go on break, but i dont have any money...

-_-

i cant wait till school is over...

.................................................

DOTS

heeheehee...

PICTURE TIME!





this picture scares the shit out of me...

me go now...

bye
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Monday, July 16, 2007

I HATE SUMMER SCHOOL!!!
So...

yeah my weekend was over all pretty boring...

although i did hang out with michelle saturday...

we talked for a while at my place but then my mom came home so we went to her place. she made me ramen in the microwave which was strange... i always make it on my stove top... but it was still good...

after that we went in her basement and played video games, like pokemon snap, pokemon stadium, and super smash brothers...

yeah...

oh and before she came over we had to take momiji (my bunny) to get his nails clipped... cause im to scared to do it myself... :(

Hmm...

now for sunday...

oh my sister came over, and we all went out to eat... which was fun...

and i got to talk to her about all the shit thats been happening latly...

yeah...

Sammys probably the only person i really open up to... her and the asian...

idk why?

i guess its just cause...

i dont even know...

they just ask me whats up and i usually just say whats on my mind i guess... Hmm...

yeah idk...

whatever...

it doesnt really matter...

Umm...

now for some pictures...

YAY...

i havent done pictures in a while...

Oh My God... ok so im actually supposed to be doing work right now so i was jsut about to start... ok and we're doing the whole food/what you eat/how bad it is for you stuff ok and we're supposed to do this thing where we put in our weight/height/age and then say what food we eat and how much we exercise and shit... and i refuse to do it... my weight is none of his fucking beeswax... fuck... god i hate this suction in bio... it just make everybody feel fat... and nobody has to remind me that im fat... ok i already know... now there just trying to make us depressed... and i dont need to be anymore depressed then i usually am...

FUCK

well that just ruined my mood...

damn it...

and this is random but my neck hurts...

its been killing me since yesterday, cause i slepton it wrong... so i cant look to my right, or tilt it to the right without my neck
throbing...

Fuck...

well i guess ill do pictures now...

actually i feel like doing avatars...











yeah, i almost picked this for my loveless name... i really dont think i should ever hope for anything because whenever i do im always disappointed in the end...







i think this says love me hate me...



^this is for Michelle^





yeah im a pervert...



yeah...



yeah its hard it fight yourself... expecially when your not aloud to hurt yourself...



one more and then i have to go...



yeah...

i gots to go now...

bye
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Friday, July 13, 2007

   So F***ing Happy...
Shes staying!!!

Oh My God, I am so freaking happy now its not even funny...

I really wanna describe how i felt when she said she wasnt leaving but...
i dont think i can even come close to putting it into words...

*squueeeeeee*

Ok...

i really need to calm down...

*breath in... breath out*

*sigh*

Okay...

So today Justine, Michelle, and the Asian are supposed to come over to watch SAW 3...

and then rachel said she was going to take us to go see harry potter...

I cant wait...

^_^

god its only 10:19...

10:21...

damn it...

10:23...

im trying to think of what to type and trying to do work at the same time...

its not working...

10:24

were now learning about the digestive system...

which makes me not wanna eat...

and yet my stomach is still growling...

damnit...

Im soooooo bored...

ummm...

and i have nothing to talk about...

its now 10:32...

god i wanna go home...

and hang out with me friends...

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

yeah...

and its REALLY cold in here... oh and my stupid teacher wont let us leave to use the bathroom without taking off 5 points of our grade... that should be illegal or something...

i really wanna put pics up but i dont wanna do it with all these people around me...

GRRRR...

GO RAINBOW PEOPLE...

heeheehee...

Oh My God, i think i missed the gay pride parade... i am like soooo... i wanna say angry but the truth is that im not... im in such a good mood right now... the world could blow up and all id do is smile...

yeah...

although i really wanted to go...

*sniff*

ok sad/angry stuff is OVER...

10:39

oh yesterday my mom made me go to some weird stamp up thing... you know how people will have those tuper ware party things... yeah... it was like that except with stamps... and not the post stamps this was ink stamps... we did little card things... it was soo stupid... and all the people there were from the church she goes to ... which made it ten times worse... and i think some of the old people were scared of me cause i was wearing all black...

10:45

yeah i think im going to go now... i wanna look up some other shit...

so yeah...

bye-bye


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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

   No Emotion.....
...

......

yeah...

like michelle explained in her post justine is leaving...

and...

.........

i dont think its clicked yet...

i mean at first i couldnt stop crying but now its like...

i dont no...

it feels wrong to smile...

or to feel anything...

on the way home i hit that big metal thing that we always pass by like really hard. i had to hide my hand the rest of the night because if my mom saw it she woulda gotten really mad at me...

i really just wanted to walk forever in the rain but if i didnt get home my mom would of flipped out...

yeah my clothes were soaked so i just got in the shower and cryed some more... and i couldnt cry again until i went to bed because my mom gives me no space at all so i was scared that she would walk it on me... and then i would have to explain what was going on. and she would say i told you so... and a whole bunch of other crap...

i tried talking to the asian but she couldnt come out...

so i just sat it my room watching some random crap...

yeah i ended up watching south park...

and i actually slept pretty well... probably because i was exausted from crying and shit...

yeah today has been pretty boring... justine said she would call me today so im prbably just going to go home and wait like an idiot by the phone...

god im pathetic...

it doesnt matter...

i have to go now...

bye


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