Friday, June 8, 2007

lyrics...
yeah so today is the last day of school... and im not really sure wether i should be happy or sad... i know i said id hang out with my friends and all but im pretty sure im not going to be seeing most of them... but thats ok i guess... ill get over it... like i always do...
anyways, im going bowling today with a bunch of my friends so that should cheer me up... ^_^
im suprised my mom is letting me go though... because she was REALLY mad at me yesterday... aparently i was moping around and she didnt like that because my lil sis was graduating and all... so it was suposed to be a happy korie day... but i just wasnt happy... i actually wanted to just sceam my lungs out... and i still kinda do... last night i was like convulsing because i just really wanted to start yelling and hitting things... but then my mom woulda freaked out and i probably wouldnt be able to go bowling today so im glad i was able to keep it in and all... anyways im going to put up some lyrics and go...
no pictures today... :(

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Go!

Yeah, yeah

Since I was a young man
I never was a fun man
I never had a plan and no security
Then ever since i met you
I never could forget you
I only wanna get you right here next to me

Cause everybody (a-whoa-oh-oh)
Needs someone that they can trust and
You're somebody (a-whoa-oh-oh)
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Now my life is changing
It's always rearranging
It's always getting stranger than I thought it ever could
Ever since I found you
I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you

Cause everybody (a-whoa-oh-oh)
Needs someone that they can trust and
You're somebody (a-whoa-oh-oh)
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Go!

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah

Don't tell me
The bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me
That you need me
And stay right here with me

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

love ya

bye
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

GIR....
OMFG... i had forgoten how much i loved GIR... im sorry gir please forgive me... i promise i will never forget you again... *sigh*
anyways... as you can see i changed my theme again...
finally...
it took me forever to figure out what i wanted it to be...
...................................................................................................
yeah... im REALLY bored...
and i cant wait for SUMMER...
which is normal i guess but i usually get REALLY depressed over the summer because i dont get to see any of my friends...
but this summer im planning to hang out with my friends as much as possible... that and i plan to get a job... im not exactly sure where... but i swear i will get one...

i really need money... because i need a computer, a CD player, or maybe an ipod or mp3, and i wanna get a bike... oh and i need to save up for acen next year... *nods head to self*
the only problem with that is i usually spend my mony the moment i get it...
*nods head sadly*
bad apanda...
*slaps self*
oooowwwwwwwwwww...



so yeah...
hmmm...
i dont think theres anything else to say...

PICTURE TIME...












yeah...
i thinks mes be goings nows...
heeheehees...
*sighs*
...yeah...

I LOVE YOU ALL

BYE-BYE


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Monday, June 4, 2007

perfect song...
Hello again...
ok...well...fuck... im no good at explaining things...whatever...

ok so in lamest terms i found a song that explains how i feel with my friends... and im sorry but its another avril song...
i heard it and i started tearing up and shit... but it probably wont make since to any of u guys...
but whatever...
here it is...

"Innocence"

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

so yeah...

THANK YOU

and now onto something less emotional...

picture time...

^_^










last one...



so yeah...

i love you guys...

bye
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Friday, June 1, 2007

.......
I'm so boooorrrrrddddddd...

yeah thats all...

bye
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Thursday, May 31, 2007

funny kinda mood...
hello...

yeah i got nothin...

but i did write some more poems...

and once again they suck and are really short...

so yeah... here they are...

I ripped out my eyes
I don’t want to see the beauty
I sowed my mouth shut
I don’t want to speak those words
I blocked up my ears
I don’t want to hear your voice
I cut out my heart
I don’t want to feel the pain

Yeah… I wrote something like this before but I can’t find it… ANYWHERE…

Anyways… on to the next one…

Oh and I was actually able to give it a title…

Yay me…


DOLL

Dress me up
Put on my face
Stitch up my wounds
And throw me away

Leave me for dead
Then come back to play
Make me feel pretty
Then toss me away

Again and again
The pattern will never change
I’ve had enough
I need it to stop

yeah i dont really like the way this one ends...

but whatever...

guess what time it is...

eh...eh...

come on...

you can do it...

......

its picture time...

*shakes head*

god im such a loser...





yeah im kinda in a yuri mood...

you have been warned... ^_^







god im no good at explaning things... but this... crap... ok so my friends want to hook me up with someone and this picture kinda reminds me of that... so yeah... >_<



yay for hugs...



now for some non yuri pics...
yes i know... its very sad...


ok starting from the left...
it would be justine
aimee
me... apanda
and then michelle

next...


ok so the upper left one is me
the one below me is aimee
and then the one in the upper right is justine
and below her is michelle...



same as the one above it...



yeah... same again...



OMG this is sooooo cute...

ok last one... -_-


ok im not really sure about this one...
well justine just said shed be the one with black hair...
so michelle would probably be the one with silver/white hair
aimee would be the one with blue hair
and that leaves me to be the one with brown hair...

so yeah... i think mes be going now...

love ya...

bye-bye

^_^



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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

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I really wanna change my theme... but i have no idea what to do... although i do want it to be dark... hmmm...

anyways i wrote some random shit and i thought id post it because i have no life... and with no life i have nothing to write about...

oh but i did get LIFE volume 5 yesterday but my mom was being a bitch so i wasnt able to read it until like 12:30...
and the only reason i even got it was because i said everything was my fault... god i hate her soooo fuckin much...
she was going to return it...
which would have sucked because with the way the 4th one ended it was driving me crazy...
anyways if u have never read the manga book LIFE you should because its an awsome book... kinda sad but still good... i actually like sad books... but whatever...

now that i am done boring you i shall put up the crap i wrote in math today... and no its not a poem its just random shit like i said before...

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The pain isn’t helping
Not like before
Is it their fault?
Those bastards who gave me those pills
They made it stop working
Those assholes took away my release
And I want it back
Without it I’m nothing
Why won’t they give it back?
I cut and slice and tear
But it’s not getting any better
Not like before
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yeah i guess ill just put up some pictures now...








dude i am so putting this on the top of my site...





yeah for some reason it always hurt more when i cut my legs...hmmmmm



yeah i think im done now...

love ya and all that other shit...

bye...
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Friday, May 25, 2007

Random...
Hi... ok well i was listening to avril lavigne last night...*shut up*... anyways i was listening to it and almost all the songs remind me of all the shit that is happening with my friends so i thought id put up some lyrics...

"Nobody's Home"

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah


"Fall To Pieces"

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

"Together"

Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny

When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

[Chorus:]
Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we've built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall

This has gone on so long
I realize that i need
Something good to rely on
Something for me

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

[Chorus]

My heart is broken
I'm lying here
My thoughts are choking on you my dear
On you my dear
On you my dear

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

[Chorus x2]

When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together
I don't feel together
When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together, no
I don't feel together

so yeah...
now its time for pictures...



crap the bell just rang...

bye-bye
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Thursday, May 24, 2007

Im leaving...
hello... well i gets to go home after 5th period...

so yeah...

i guess ill just go now...

im not in the mood to put pics up...

i love you all...

bye-bye...
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

   Stupid...
heres another stupid poem...
about my supid life...
and my stupid obsession...
Oh and once again it doesnt have a title because im to fucking stupid to think of one...

Why wont you help me
My small little friend
Help me like you did before
When you were all I had

You used to give me so much bliss
So much peace of mind
But not no more
None at all

Now all you give is blood
That toxic sin
That leaks out from me
Is all you have to give

But still I wait
For you my friend
To give me my way out


so yeah that my stupid poem...
now i guess ill put up some stupid pictures...







one more stupid pic and i have to go...



whatever...

bye...
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

The Thing I Hate Most Is Me...
Hi... well today i seem to be very angry at myself so i thought id right a poem about that hatred...

so here it is...

oh and it doesnt have a title because im to fucking stupid to think of one...

whatever...

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Here I am
Once again
Writing about
My selfish soul
And all this crap
About my heart
My stupid mind
Won’t let it go

But here I am
Writing again
About this freak
Who loves the drama
And the pain in my stomach
That I create
With my small rusted blade
My only friend

The only one
That doesn’t lie
The only one
That’s always there
The only one
That cares about why

But what does it matter
I’ll just do it again
Why should I care
About what happens next


well i guess ill put up some stupid pics before i go...













random but i just saw a picture from .hack//sign
and now i feel like watching it... onward to the library...

now for more pics...



*sighs* this reminds me of my quiet place when we were at the hotel... *sighs*







this is so stupid... i just want to see the person who made this and shake him and tell him its never gonna happen so you might as well get over it...





ahh this reminds me of justine... not the actual picture just the fact that theres post its...



yeah none of these pics or avatars mean anything... if i tried to explain it to anybody id be put back into the hospital or something...

anyways ill end with a sad picture...
(as if the others werent sad)...



well there are 4 people in this pic but im not going to even try and name them...

well i dont like that as a last pic so one more...

dont u feel lucky...



YAY... death to all males...

fuck yeah...

yeah i think ill go now...

bye...
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