Sunday, February 24, 2008

   Sunday boredom

*Sigh*

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So how is everybody doing?

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ive been ok, just really REALLY bored.

Hm, but i did get to see sweeny todd yesterday. and it was good, and kinda sad, and kinda gross... but the singing was good, i was surprised.

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yeah thats about the only exciting thing that happened to me over the weekend.

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Uhh.

yeah im not sure what else to say. i mean i could complain about some stuff but i really dont feel like trying to put things into words.

*shrugs*

and its just stuff that ive compained about before so i wont bore you peoples.

-_-

Lyrics Time.

Yay!

"Drowning Lessons"
Without a sound I took her down
and dressed in red and blue I squeezed
Imaginary wedding gown
That you can't wear in front of me
A kiss goodbye, your twisted shell
As rice grains and roses fall at your feet
Lets say goodbye, the hundredth time
And then tomorrow we'll do it again
Tomorrow we'll do it again

I dragged her down I put her out
And back there I left her where no one could see
And lifeless cold into this well
I stared as this moment was held for me
A kiss goodbye, your twisted shell
As rice grains and roses fall at your feet
Let's say goodbye, the hundredth time
And then tomorrow we'll do it again

I never thought it'd be this way
Just me and you, we're here alone
And if you stay, all I'm asking for is
A thousand bodies piled up
I never thought would be enough
To show you just what I've been thinking

And I'll keep on making more
Just to prove that I adore
Every inch of sanity
All I'm asking for is, all I'm asking for is

C'mon

These hands stained red
From the times that I've killed you and then
We can wash down this engagement ring
With poison and kerosene
We'll laugh as we die
And we'll celebrate the end of things
With cheap champagne

Without, without a sound [x2]
And I wish you away
Without a sound
And I wish you away

Without a sound, without a sound
And I wish you away
[x3]


"Skylines And Turnstiles"
You're not in this alone
Let me break this awkward silence
Let me go, go on record
Be the first to say I'm sorry
Hear me out,
And if you take me down
Or would you lay me out
And if the world needs something better
Let's give them one more reason now, now, now

We walk in single file
We light our rails and punch our time
Ride escalators colder than a cell

[Chorus]
This broken city sky like butane on my skin
stolen from my eyes
Hello Angel, tell me where are you
Tell me where we go from here
[x2]

Tell me we go from...

And in this moment we can't close the lids on burning eyes
Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors
Steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black
It reaches in and tears your flesh apart
As ice cold hands rip into your heart

That's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest
And after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence
And if the world needs something better, let's give them one more reason now

[Chorus]
This broken city sky like butane on my skin
stolen from my eyes
Hello Angel, tell me where are you
Tell me where we go from here
[x2]

Tell me we go from here


"Early Sunsets Over Monroeville"
Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes
Then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen
And the whole time while always giving
Counting your face among the living

Up and down escalators, pennies and colder fountains
Elevators and half price sales, trapped in by all these mountains
Running away and hiding with you
I never thought they'd get me here
Not knowing you'd change from just one bite
I fought them all off just to hold you close and tight

But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But would anything matter if you're already dead?
And well should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...

But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
And would anything matter if you're already dead?
And now should I be shocked by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
And our memories defeat us,
And I'll end this direst.

But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But does anything matter if you're already dead?
And should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
But does anyone notice there's a corpse in this bed?


"Cubicles"
It's the tearing sound of love-notes
Drowning out these gray stained windows
And the view outside is sterile
And I'm only two cubes down
I'd photocopy all the things that we could be
If you took the time to notice me
But you can't now, I don't blame you
And it's not your fault that no one ever does

[Chorus:]
But you don't work here anymore
It's just a vacant three by four
And they might fill your place
A temporary stand-in for your face
This happens all the time
And I can't help but think I'll die alone

So I'll spend my time with strangers
A condition and it's terminal
In this water-cooler romance
And it's coming to a close
We could be in the park and dancing by a tree
Kicking over blades we see
Or a dark beach with a black view
And pin-pricks in the velvet catch our fall

[Chorus]

I know you don't work here anymore [x6]

Sometimes I think I'll die alone, sometimes I think I'll die alone
Sometimes I think I'll die alone, live and breathe and die alone
Sometimes I think I'll die alone, sometimes I think I'll die alone
Sometimes I think I'll die alone, I'd think I'd love to die alone

Just take
I think I'd love to die
Me down
I think I'd love to die
Just take
I think I'd love to die
Me down
I think I'd love to die alone [x4]
Live and breathe and die alone
I think I'd love to die alone [x2]

I think I'd love to die alone


Sorry, i wasnt expecting to put up that many lyrics. i got to listen to an older my chemical romance cd. and it was pretty good.

Picture Time!







Heeheehee

One more and I'll go.





Bye-Bye
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Friday, February 22, 2008

Mac is back
Hi!

today im in the mac room.

Yay!

^_^

and i have a full lunch cause its friday.

so yay again.

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yeah, todays been pretty good. nothing interesting has happened, but nothing bad has happened either.

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yeah.

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me bored.

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lol, theres another girl in here named Amanda and i keep flinching when they say it.

-_-

anyways, lyrics and i go.


Endlessly"

There's a part of me you'll never know
The only thing I'll never show

Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dreams forever asleep
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
But the moment never comes


"Unintended"

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you


"Starlight"

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold


Bye

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Thursday, February 21, 2008

   Headache
...

Yeah.

i have a headache, and so i dont really feel like posting a lot of shit.

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or anything at all.

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later

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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Blind or Lying?
Today’s been pretty boring so far.

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Nothing interesting has happened, and I’m not expecting anything to happen.

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i hate being bored, cause then all i do is think about shit, and its usually not good shit.

And then i usually get depressed. but lately I’ve just been getting angry, and i don’t like that. id much rather be depressed, cause at least then i don’t have to worry about bitching at other people.

I’ve been doing that a lot recently, just randomly snapping at people...

so yeah.

that sucks.

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I’m starting to think that living until I’m 40 is too long, so i might shorten mine to 30... maybe 25.

i might not get to do everything that i want to do, but at least i wont have to put up with shit.

I’m tired of living. There’s really no reason for me to be alive. I’m not going to college, so I’m not going to be doing anything important with my life... really the only thing I’m doing is wasting resources. food, water, air, those things should only be given to people who are needed, and I’m not needed.

So im sorry, sorry for wasting everything.

sorry for being alive.

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Wow, that sounds really over dramatic doesn’t it.

lol

Sorry.

i'll move on to something else now.

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i changed my theme to loveless again. actually i really just want it to be soubi, i finished rereading all 7 books again and i just keep liking soubi more and more.

i think i think the way he does in a way. like id like to have a master, but not for any dirty reason, just because i would be useful, i would have a reason to be... I’m also a masochist. (no matter how much he denies it he is a masochist. ^_^)... and i guess just wanting to be controlled. It’d be nice to not have to think for myself, just do as I’m told.

Simple.

so yeah, soubi's going to be staying for a while.

Sorry.

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oh yeah, I saw a music video this morning and I really liked it so here are the lyrics.

“Sorry”

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby, Yeah.
I'm sorry.





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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

   Random thoughts...
ive been thinking about sex a lot lately... lol, but not in a good way. Just like, i dont think i really want to have sex. i think the only reason why i talk about it and stuff is because everyone else does. and it makes me feel normal if i talk about what everyone else talks about... so yeah. honestly it still seems kind of gross to me you know. and whats the point of it anyways, cause it feels good. thats not a very good reason...

Sorry.

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Oh, me and Justine decided that were only going to live until were 40 then were going to kill ourselves. ^_^

lol

Hm... what else to say.

i wrote another poem, and its stupid but i kinda want to see what people will say about it so i'm putting it up.

*nods*


~Creatures~

I’ve decided that no one will see me
Body and soul
I will keep them hidden
With layers of clothes
And my iron mask
No one will see it
This thing
This creature in human form
Will not be seen by them
Those creatures of beauty
Will never look upon me
And smile
With beautiful faces
They will shun me
And hate me
They will be repulsed by the mere thought of me
One of beauty
Could never love a creature like me


Yeah, thats it...

Sorry, i know it sucks.

*shrugs*

Whatever.

lyrics and i go.

"Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off"

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster



Whats the point?


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Bye

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Monday, February 18, 2008

SO FREAKING BORED!
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i have nothing to read. ive re-read all my manga, and all the manga that i got from the library...

and im bored of all my anime...

WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TOO!

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*looks around sweating*

God i wish i could go to the library right now.

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`-_-`

so... how is everybody else?

nobodys been posting lately.

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so bored.

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Oh, i wrote a poem last night. but its really short, and it REALLY sucks. so im not going to put it up. that and its kinda embarassing to show you know.

So sorry.

Um...

naruto comes on in 8 minutes.

Yay! my bordom will be gone for 30 minutes.

but then ill be back to being bored once it goes off.

*sigh*

oh well.

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6 minutes left.

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Oh, i know, i'll go find lyrics.

Yay!

"Time To Dance"
Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor
Just for the attention.
Cause that's just ridiculously on.
Well, she sure is gonna get it
Here's the setting
Fashion magazines line the walls now
The walls line the bullet holes

Have some composure
Where is your posture?
Oh, no, no
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong
[x2]

Give me envy, give me malice, give me a-a-attention
Give me envy, give me malice, baby, give me a break!
When I say "Shotgun", you say "Wedding"
"Shotgun", "Wedding", "Shotgun", "Wedding"

She didn't choose this role
But she'll play it and make it sincere
So you cry, you cry
(Give me a break)
But they believe it from the tears
And the teeth right down to the blood
At her feet
Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams
(Give me a break)

Have some composure
Where is your posture?
Oh, no, no
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong
[x2]

Come on this is screaming "Photo op." op...
Come on
Come on
This is screaming
This is screaming
This is screaming "Photo op."

Boys will be boys, baby
Boys will be boys
Boys will be boys, baby
Boys will be boys

Give me envy, give me malice, give me a-a-attention
Give me envy, give me malice, baby, give me a break!
When I say "Shotgun", you say "Wedding"
"Shotgun", "Wedding", "Shotgun", "Wedding"

Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and boys will be boys
Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams


narutos on now.

so BYE!
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Saturday, February 16, 2008

Calm
*Sigh*

Well I'm feeling much better now. I talked to my sister Sammy, and like always she made me feel better about stuff.

^_^

So thank you Sammy!

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Now for todays news.

My mom finally let me drive today.

*jumps up and down*

first we took my bunny to the vet to get his nail clipped. (cause we're all to scared to do it) then we went to best buy to look at laptops. ^_^ im really hoping my mom gets me one. then i got my hair cut. nothing big, you cant even tell it was cut.

lol

pointless i know.

anyways, i got to go eat diner now.

so bye-bye.
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Friday, February 15, 2008

........
I'm not expecting anyone to comment on this post, although it would make me happy if somebody did. im in one of my sad/angry/nobody cares kinda moods, so it might be better if nobody even read this at all. maybe i'll just type up a bunch of shit and not post it.

Hm... no i'll probably post it.

*nods*

okay so now i will tell you about my day so far.

i woke up in a good mood, cause i finally got a good nights sleep for the first time in like 2 weeks. and i still had my stuffed animal, usually i wake up and its on the floor or something. so that was cool.

i ate a cookie for breakfast, it was the one that Kay gave me. (Thanks Kay)

i talked to the asian michelle and karina on the bus, which was nice, usually they do homework or sleep.

then we got to the school and i waited for everyone to get there.

...

yeah.

i ended up playing tetris instead of talking to people. but i did get to talk to michelle a bit, and she made noises for my tetris game, which was great. :)

lol

then i walked to class and took the tests and stuff. (this is wear i kinda had a breakdown)

i like cried through the whole fucking test. i dont even know why, but the tears wouldnt stop, and i just wanted to hug someone. (i was actually considering hugging my english teacher). anyways, then i got pissed, cause you know when you cry then you start sniffin and stuff. well its like REALLY quiet and im just sitting there sniffing my ass off and crying FOR NO FUCKING REASON. i mean what the fuck. i just wanted to get up and go home.

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but yeah when i was sitting there crying i was thinking about everyone else, and trying to picture what it would be like if i wasnt there. like in the morning and stuff, and im pretty sure nothing would change.

Michelle would still just sit there, Justine would still be off in her own little world with Tony, Rachel would still just talk to everyone else, same for Mike, Amanda, and Elle. Fluffy hardly even shows up in the morning, and when she does its only for like 1 minute... who else, ashley doesnt really show up much either. and nothing would change for amber... yeah i think thats it.

basically i'm not needed. there is not one person in this world whose life would change if i just disapeared.

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yep.

and i mean its not a big deal, im sure its the same way for a lot of people. theres no reason for me to be sad about it.

but whatever, back to my day of nothingness.

after the test i met up with sam, justine, and fluffy. and me sam and justine ended up missing our bus. well we missed there bus, i could have gone on my bus but i thought maybe walking home with them would cheer me up some.

and it did... kinda.

we talked about some funny stuff with this random guy that i dont know. and i bought everyone cookies at mcdonalds which i liked cause i like feeling usefull.

oh i also proved to Justine that i can climb fences.

SO HA!

although i did fall off, but (and none of you are going to believe me but whatever) i kinda did it on purpose, cause ive always wanted to fall or jump off of something into a pile of snow, cause its all soft and i wanted to see if it would make it not hurt as much.

so yeah, i dont care if you believe me or not.

>:P

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then yeah, we walked to sam and justines home place thingy and then i walked home.

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yeah.

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and now im hear complaining.

sorry.

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*10 minutes later*

ok so i just went back and deleted some stuff that i dont think i should say.

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lyrics and i go...

Dont Let Me Get Me

Never win first place, I don't support the team
I can't take direction, and my socks are never
clean
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me
I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin'
right

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else

I wanna be somebody else, yeah

LA told me, "You'll be a pop star,
All you have to change is everything you are."
Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears
She's so pretty, that just ain't me

Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Cuz I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else

Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Don't let me get me

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else


Lonely Girl (featuring Linda Perry)

I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize

Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?

Lyin' awake watchin' the sunlight
How the birds will sing as I count the rings
around my eyes
Constantly pushing the world I know aside
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to
try

I'm lookin' for a way to become
The person that I dreamt of when I was sixteen
Oh, nothin' is ever enough
Ooh, baby, it ain't enough for what it may seem

Do you even know who you are?
I'm still tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Everybody wants to be
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No

Sorry girl, tell a tale for me
Cuz I'm wondering how you really feel
I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you
Cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come
true

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, yeah, yeah
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Oh, I wanted to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell, I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
I guess not, oh I guess not

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, I'm tryin' to find
A rising dream or a superstar?
Oh, I have a all these dreams
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No, no
Do you even know what you are?
A rising dream or a fallen star?
Is life good to you or is it bad?




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Thursday, February 14, 2008

   Happy Valentines Day
^_^

So hows alls yours V-days goings?

lol, i love my english.

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well apparently im wearing a pink tux to prom.

sorry, random.

but i dont think they'll remember. or they wont be able to find one that fits me...

Mwahahaha.

lol

anyways, so far today has been pretty good. i gots stuffs from peoplez...

AND JUSTINES WEARIN A SKIRT!!!

Heeheehee.

*grins*

i wish i had my camera. but that would be creepy...

Hm?

Anyways...

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Oh, i tried writing a poem yesteday but it didnt work.

*cries*

i havent been able to write or draw anything lately.

T-T

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Lyrics and i go.

"My Bloody Valentine"

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life


I ripped out
His throat
And called you on the telephone
To take off
My disguise
Just in time to hear you cry when you...


You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time


Singin'...


Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight


There was
Police and
Flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read
A lover died
No tell-tale heart was left to find when you...


You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time


Singin'...


Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight


Tonight


He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him, he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you


Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight


Perfect...

lol, not really, its more like a stalker song.

-__-

this is the song a had stuck in my head when i was in the hospital. i think the nurses thought i was crazy cause i used to just walk around singing it. i even had Patty play it for me over the phone.

Hahaha, good times.



i know this has nothing to do with v-day, but i still like it.

...

Bye

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

   Tired...
Okay so the past few nights i havent been able to sleep. so im slowly getting more and more tired.

...

but yeah, the reason why i couldnt sleep last night was because my grandma called at like 11:40 and told us that she was taking my grandpa to the hospital cause his heart was hurting and stuff. and it turns out hes going to have to have surgury. so my family is freaking out.

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other then that, today has been fine.

i got really angry this morning cause people were just talking shit about other people. (wont name names) i mean why does everyone have to be so mean. and if youve got something to say, say it to there face, dont be a wimp and talk about them behind there backs. thats so stupid.

>_<

and now i just feel like i cant trust any of them. i mean how do i know that they arent talkin about me behind my back.

WTF!

whatever.

it doesnt matter.

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anyways, i just got done telling my english teacher that im not doing the paper. and she wasnt mad or anything she just said that if i really tried i could do it and some other crap about college. shes nice, but i really wish she just didnt care. cause now i just feel guilty. and it didnt help that peter was sitting next to me saying that i made her sad, and how shes going to go home and cry.

god i hate that kid.

the whole period he just typed stuff in french and translated it and made me read it.

SO STUPID!

but whatever.

...

Hm?

tomorrows v-day.

whos excited?

lol

i dont really like v-day. i mean you go around and see all those girls with flowers and shit. it just makes me depressed you know. i mean i already know im alone its not like i need a day to have it rubbed in my face. and why do you need one day to tell someone you love them anyways. thats just stupid. if you really love someone then tell them whenever you get the chance.

thats what i do.

but whatever, maybe thats just me being clingy.

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*sigh*

i guess ill go and stop complaining.

Sorry.

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Bye
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