Monday, December 10, 2007

Monday. . . great. . .
Okay so my weekend sucked, and heres why.

i was grounded from the internet and wasnt aloud to ask to do anything, cause my mom said that if i asked for anything the answer would be NO.

so yeah, i was bored. all i really did was sit in my room and read tramps like us, naruto, and i started reading deathnote volume 8 again but i started getting a headache. then i also played tetras and listened to music. then there was lots of sleeping, singing, and eating. yeah i get hungry when im bored. which sucks, cause i get bored a lot. and im trying to lose as much weight as possible before acen so... yeah.
which is going surprisingly well actually. its kinda embarrassing, but ive lost 16 pounds so far.

^_^

so me is excited about that. but my mom thinks im starving myself cause i dont eat lunch anymore. but im not, i like food to much to go anorexic.

-_-

Hm, what else is there to say.

my mood is still kinda weird, but a little more sad then on friday.

*nods*

Um, in art im trying to make the spout for my teapot but its not working. its like REALLY hard cause im doing it on the wheel. and i still have to pull the handle which is also hard.

*sigh*

Oh well.

. . .

i guess thats it.



Bye-bye
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Friday, December 7, 2007

   Hm. . .
well today i feel really off.

and the only way i can explain it is like, its a sinking feeling. like that weird feeling in your chest when your going down a roller coaster.

except its not going away, and I've felt like this sense last night.

I'm also in a very self-abusive kinda mood.

which probably isn't very good.

-_-

the only time i feel slightly better is when I'm like interacting with someone. or just like keeping my mind off of it... whatever "it" is.

...

this sucks, and of course its friday so i'm going to have a shitty weekend cause theres nothing to keep my mind off of it.

*sigh*

oh well, the happy never lasts forever.

but it was cool, this has to be the longest its ever lasted.

so thats pretty amazing.

i think it was like 2 straight weeks of happy, if not longer.

*nods*

. . .

now i guess the only other news i have for you peoples is this rule at our school about no zip up hoodies. which nobody is actually obeying, except a few of the stricter teachers.

but Justine and Sammy made a bet about whether Justine will get yelled at, and whoever wins gets to have me as a pet for a week, and i think $5...
but i kinda wish i hadnt offered the whole pet thing, cause its really just me being... i dont even know what you would call it. but its more like im getting awarded then them. and its not like either of them are actually going to play along. i mean i guess that would be weird for some people. i just wanted to try it out and this way i dont have to pay anyone to do it.

so yeah, just me being selfish again.

yeah im really beating myself up today, mentally and physically.

Haha, last night i just laid in my bed and punched myself in the stomach for like 5 minutes straight, while i listened to music.

so that was fun.

-_-

and i guess thats it.

sorry for being like this.

so fucking pathetic.

. . .
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Thursday, December 6, 2007

Still Happy, but Kinda Worried. . .
Yeah, yesterday i called my drivers teacher a fucking asshole and i got sent to the office, but my administrator wasn't there so i just had to sit there the whole time. which was fine cause i got to do some of my reading for English. ^_^
So today im not even supposed to go to my 7th period class, im just supposed to go to the office and talk to Mr. Author.

so yeah...

i might get suspended, which in a way would suck, but it would also be kinda fun. cause i wouldnt have to go to school. but then i wont be able to see any of my friends. so im kinda hoping i dont get suspended.

...

yeah today mikeys here with us in the mac room and its kinda funny cause he doesnt know how to use the computer very well. Haha makes me feel smart.

-_-

yeah im done i guess.



sorry, random pic...

Bye
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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Blisters suck!
Man its even hard to type.

T-T

and now i'll explain.

well i finally had to do the climbing thing in gym, and i sucked at it. like i knew what to do, but i have no muscles so it took forever for me to get up.

*sigh*

and then i had to figure out how to get down all by myself. and that sucked, cause if i did something wrong and i jumped then i would die. and thats pretty damn scary.

*nods*

but yeah, as you go down your supposed to slowly slide down and like hold onto the rope, but the idiots who were letting me down did it to fast and i was holding on to tight, so i got rope burn and now i have like 3 blisters on my left hand/fingers.

and the one on my middle finger is hurting while i type, but i dont have anything else to do...

so yeah.

Um, today has been pretty good. im planning on going outside today.

Cause i never got to go out yesterday night.

-_-

yeah, me was bummed.

but thats ok, i plan to make up for it tonight.

Heeheehee

im going to prepare my snow people army. (i refuse to say snowmen, what happened to all the snow-woman)

^_^

so, pics and i'll go.



yeah, the other day me and Justine had a conversation about the whole pet and master thing. (we we're talking about an anime)
and yeah, now i really wanna do that for just like a week to see how it is. like id probably have to pay someone to do it, but i still think it would be fun.
and i think id make a good pet. i mean i like taking orders/ i dont like making decisions, i already have a collar, i like making people happy, i wouldnt mind being pet, and i just like being there for people, like when people just need to rant and get something off there chest i like being the person whose there to listen.

so yeah, thats going on my things to do list.

yes i made a list.

*nods sadly*

one more pic...



bye-bye
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Tuesday, December 4, 2007

   OMFG THERE'S SNOW EVERYWHERE!
WOOHOO

^o^

ok thats my official woohoo smiley.

^_^

*squee*

i is SO happy.

i was like jumping up and down when i got outta school and like hugging everyone i knew... i even hugged someone i dont know.

o_o

Heeheehee

but yeah, i need to calm down now.

Ha, yeah right.

man if it gets deep enough tonight im going out there and playing in it... ok so its more like i'll go out there and find a nice quiet area and lie down.

*nods*

maybe make a snow angel... Oh yeah, i wanna make like tons of little snow peoples and just like put them everywhere.

Heeheehee, i think that would keep me busy all winter.

Mwahaha, and the invasion of snow peoples begins!

^_^

okay...

so i really didnt wanna go on the bus cause thats like perfectly good snow time, ^_^ so i asked Justine if we could walk home and we did.

So ha...

Ha to you bus.

wow, yeah i really need to calm down.

*inhales*

...

*exhales*

so yeah, we walked home and we picked up some applications so Justine has an excuse for her mom. which i really hope that worked out ok.

*nods with serious expression*

-_-

...

anyways, now for other news.

i didnt do the gym thing today cause my team sucks.

i started my teapot project in art, and my teacher lectured me about failing history... (dont ask)

Um, me and Justine are thinking about trying to do some deathnote cosplay either this year or next year... or maybe even both.

So yay!

God every time we talk about acen i just get more and more excited.

*squee*

i cant wait.

^_^

ok so pics and then i leaves.



this isnt the best picture, but i really like it cause kibas got the cutest smile.



ok so if we do the deathnote thing im going to be near. which i think the only thing thats going to be hard with that is finding a wig.

but yeah, its a good idea.

...

and i will be going now so, everyone have a fun snow filled rest of the day.

^_^

bye
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Monday, December 3, 2007

   YAY HUGS!
Hi!

me still happy!

^_^

which is surprising, cause it usually never lasts this long.

so thats cool...

yeah im trying to cut back on the dot dot dots.

its starting to bother me.

*nods*

Hm, well i dont really have any news.

this morning made me EXTREAMLY happy.

^_^

Heeheehee

but i wont say why cause i know if i try to explain it i'll sound like a weird pervert.

*sigh*

but yeah i is happy.

...

(damn it)

Um, gym was pretty good.

i was kinda scared for the other people... i have to go tomorrow.

which i'll probably end up falling and dieing or something like that.

yeah...

damn it

i think thats it.

so, bye

-_-
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Sunday, December 2, 2007

I Hate Parents!
God, this is so stupid...

i dont even know what i did wrong.

T-T

...

GRAHHHH...

well i guess i should explain...

its so stupid though...

like i dont know the details cause it was Bailey who had to call me...

ok so what she said was tha Justine was now grounded because she asked to hang out with me...

WTF!

like GRAHHH, i just wanna go over there and beat the shit out of her...

i mean it makes no sense, and she wont even tell us why she hates me...

i mean come on...

...

so yeah, whatever...

i just feel bad for Justine cause its like its my fault that she got in trouble...

so me sorry Justine, even though i know you would never blame me for this...

-_-

God i cant wait until we're all grown up and can just do whatever we want (within reason) without getting in trouble...

*sigh*

well, this is random but heres a picture that makes me laugh...



it makes me giggle so maybe it will cheer you up a little to...

:/

bye-bye
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Saturday, December 1, 2007

   ITS SNOWING!!!!
*Says in singing voice*

YAY!

Man I is so f***ing happy right now...

>_<

God I just wanna jump up and scream...

Ok so i just got off the phone with Justine and like we we're supposed to hang out today but other stuffs came up so we didn’t get to, but now we're going to try to finally have that walk in the snow that we've been wanting to do...

*Squee*

And yeah, I just asked my mom if it was ok and she said YES... after I begged a little of course.

^_^

Heeheehee

Yeah she said that if I’m honest with her then she'll let me do a lot more stuffs, its just that when I lie to her she doesn’t want to let me do anything so... I’m holding her to that.

-_-

But yay!

Me is so excited now...

*squee*

Wow...

that’s a lot of squees...

o_o

Hahaha...

...

God all I can do is squee...

^o^

hahaha

Hm, that looks more like a woohoo kinda face...

...

*Ahem*

Anyways, today has been over all boring...

I’ve just been sitting around listening to music, reading, and playing tetras... yeah I know, I have no life...

-_-

But right now I’m completely fine with that...

Man I wish I could feel like I do right now forever...

*squee*

God im so excited...

...

Ha, watch I’m going to feel like this the rest of the night and then it wont happen... god that would suck... but that’s usually how it works, i always get over excited about stuffs and then end up depressed...

But idk, it might not work like that this time... I mean even if it doesn’t work out id still be happy that... well I won’t explain that... but yeah id still be pretty happy.

^_^

...

*squee*

Ok so here are some lyrics and I’ll go…

"Love Like Winter"

Warn your warmth to turn away,
Here it's December,
Everyday. [small girlish echo:] I like that

Press your lips to the sculptures,
And surely you'll stay. [distant:] love like winter

For of sugar and ice,
I am made. I am made

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.

She exhales vanilla lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday. [echo:] yesterday
Read the lines in the mirror through,
The lipstick trace.
Por siempre

She said "It seems you're somewhere, far away" to his face.

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
She wanted love,
I taste of blood.
She bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.

Love Like Winter.

Love Like Winter.

Winter.
Three, four

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.
From years before.

Yeah, this is like my favorite AFI song...

The videos pretty good too...

And that’s all…

Bye-bye

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Friday, November 30, 2007

Random Picture. . .
Ok so i was looking at Kiba Shikamaru pictures and i found this one that i REALLY like so sense i have nothing better to do i'm going to put it up...

so yeah, here it is...



yeah i dont know why but i really like it... i kinda wanna draw something like it now but i know itll suck like horribly...

T-T

but i might try anyways... ive noticed that if i really like the picture then i do better so...

yeah ill try...

...

and for other news...

Justine isnt here

i know, sad

Rachels b-day party has been cancled

im not in a good mood today, havent been sense i woke up this morning so its not anyones fault

just didnt sleep well i guess

Heeheehee, still horny

^_^

Um, i fixed up my classes for next semester...

im going to have free first period so thatll be nice...

...

and thats all for now...

bye-bye
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Thursday, November 29, 2007

   Weird Day...
Ok so today I was all hyped up to see Justine and congratulate her and stuffs, but Sam said she wasn¡¯t here. So I was sad¡¦ but it turned out that she was just late so I got to see her after first period in the art hallway¡¦ I like ran to her, I was so happy.

^_^

Its weird how something so small can change my mood so easily. I kinda don¡¯t like that about me, like its nice that I get excited over little things, cause then I¡¯m happy a lot more, it¡¯s the being sad part that I don¡¯t like¡¦ I really need to change that.

Actually there¡¯s a lot about me that I want to change, I started a list even¡¦

It¡¯s very sad¡¦

*nods*

But anyways, today has been overall good. Me and Justine talked about acen some more and I¡¯m just getting more and more excited about it¡¦ but I need to get some money, like me and my mom have been talking about me doing chores and stuff¡¦ so that would be cool. Well it would suck because I have to work but¡¦ you know what I mean¡¦

-_-

Oh I lent Justine the Maroon 5 CD¡¦ I¡¯m kinda worried because I made such a big deal out of it but she¡¯s probably going to hate it¡¦

So yeah, me sorry¡¦

I just like what they sing about¡¦ its always been like that, I don¡¯t really care how they sing as long as I like the lyrics then its all good¡¦

Hm, there was something else I wanted to talk about but I cant really remember it¡¦

So¡¦

I guess that¡¯s it¡¦

Picture and I¡¯ll leave¡¦



one last thing, me and Justine decided on shikamaru and kiba as our cosplays¡¦
So YAY!

Bye

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