Friday, February 9, 2007

Hello… I don’t really have anything to talk about so I guess im just going to ramble on about something… once I think of something… 5 minutes later… YAY… no wait… never mind… hmmm… ok so lately iv noticed that iv been really happy… not the whole fake smile and nod kinda happy but the real happy… idk… I had and still kinda am going through some shit that id rather not talk about on the internet… anyways I was like way super depressed and I even started cutting… (for those of u who don’t already no)… but im not anymore… and surprisingly I don’t really want to anymore… I mean at first I stopped because my mom told me she would put me back in the hospital… but I still wanted to… so instead I just wrote a lot of depressing poetry… but now I can smile and be happy without feeling bad about it… its like… how do I put this… I used to feel bad about being happy… its complicated… or maybe its not… maybe im just being selfish by thinking im the only one whos ever done this…but whatever…iv also noticed that im much happier when im home… like when your home alone and have nothing to do but you can still smile just by thinking about your day or what’s going to happen tomorrow… I used to be really sad when I came home from school because then I wasn’t able to see my friends… and without them I started thinking about things I really shouldn’t be thinking about… but now I don’t… well at least not as much… so yeah… im going to go look for a picture to put up with this post so ill be right back…





so this is the pic I found… its not anything special… I mean I found it in like 2 minutes… so yeah… I guess im going to go now… I gots to try and past this onto theotaku without the stupid teacher person seeing me… so if u get this then YAY… if you don’t then im very sorry… so yeah… bye… ^_^