FUCK.....
well i think i just made my hand ten times worse then it was before...
here let me try to explain... *ahem*....lol...
ok so ive grown quite fond of punching walls... and i guess the reason for that is because i stopped cutting myself... but i couldnt do nothing it was driving me CRAZY... ("it" meaning whatever problem i was having at the time)... so i hit a wall and i liked the feeling so i kept doing it... it really does wonders for my stress...
Anyways, i was in the shower just now and i was getting really angry... which usually doesnt happen. because i usually do all my calm thinking in there... but then i just got really upset so i hit the wall and after awhile of just standing there i looked down at my hand and i flipped out because now its like twice the size it usually is... so now im scared i broke it but i dont wanna tell my mom about it...
and it hurts to tighten my fist... or to touch it... it even hurts to open my fuckin water bottle
...WAAHHHHH...
well i guess ill put pics up now...
this is kinda what it looks like except its my ring finger knuckle...
i think ive already used this one but i really like it... so suffer... mwahahahaha...
random...
Awwww... so cute
ok so im listening to simple plan right now and this song is like perfect... so im going to put up the lyrics ok... good... lol...
"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
yeah i think im done now...
let me think... wait... wait... no... never mind
me go now...
bye
