Wednesday, July 11, 2007

   No Emotion.....
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......

yeah...

like michelle explained in her post justine is leaving...

and...

.........

i dont think its clicked yet...

i mean at first i couldnt stop crying but now its like...

i dont no...

it feels wrong to smile...

or to feel anything...

on the way home i hit that big metal thing that we always pass by like really hard. i had to hide my hand the rest of the night because if my mom saw it she woulda gotten really mad at me...

i really just wanted to walk forever in the rain but if i didnt get home my mom would of flipped out...

yeah my clothes were soaked so i just got in the shower and cryed some more... and i couldnt cry again until i went to bed because my mom gives me no space at all so i was scared that she would walk it on me... and then i would have to explain what was going on. and she would say i told you so... and a whole bunch of other crap...

i tried talking to the asian but she couldnt come out...

so i just sat it my room watching some random crap...

yeah i ended up watching south park...

and i actually slept pretty well... probably because i was exausted from crying and shit...

yeah today has been pretty boring... justine said she would call me today so im prbably just going to go home and wait like an idiot by the phone...

god im pathetic...

it doesnt matter...

i have to go now...

bye