Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Hopefulness Gone
See, I told you it wouldn’t last long…
And as always it’s my fault… All mine… Like always…
But this time they actually know it’s my fault…

I’m sorry…

I’m so fucking sorry…

And if you have no idea what I’m talking about I’m sorry for that too…

God I’m such an idiot…

Such a fucking moron…

See, it’s not worth it…

Being alive and hurting the people you love… it’s just not worth it…

I really need to die…

I’ve hurt so many people… and the list just keeps getting bigger and bigger…

Damn it…

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I’m sorry…

This is so stupid…

You guys should disown me or something…

But tell me first ok… cause if I just keep hanging around and you all hate me I’ll feel even stupider… so just tell me that you want me gone and I’ll leave… Forever…

God that’s pathetic…

I’m being really over dramatic…

So fucking stupid…

Somebody please kill me… just beat me to death or something… stab me… hang me… anything but letting me live… no, that’s wrong… anything then making me stay here… the only place I deserve to be right now is hell… yeah, that’s right… hell would be perfect for me right now…

*sigh*

I’m still being way too dramatic…

But I’m only saying what I really want…

What I wish for every second of the day…

But wishes don’t come true… neither do dreams, or hopes…

There all pointless…

So fucking pointless…

I’m sorry…

The moment I said it… I just…

No, I won’t run away from this…

It’s my fault and I’ll take the blame for it… so blame me… Please…

Yell at me; tell me I’m a fool… and that you hate me… Please…

Just don’t ignore me… I can’t take that… I’d rather be yelled at then be ignored…

Damn it… I can’t see the keyboard… stupid tears…

I’m sorry…

Now it sounds like I’m just trying to make you feel bad… but I’m not… I promise…

Cause I don’t want pity…

I’m better off without it… without anything…

So yeah…

I think I’ve just about got everything out…

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Let’s see if I can find any pictures that match how I’m feeling right now…





Well I guess that’s it…

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