Sunday, October 7, 2007

Homecoming SUCKED!
Yeah, I was like depressed the whole fucking time... it was so stupid, i wanted to leave like 30 minutes into the it... im such an idiot, i dont even know why i went... i cant fuckin dance... and most of the music sucked... not like that was a big suprise though...

god what a waste of 10 bucks...

*sigh*

well im bored so im going to talk about it... so for those of you who dont want to hear about it just go away... i dont fuckin care anymore...

first off i went in a suit thingy and i dont care what anyone says i looked like shit... so that right there started the night off bad...
and
Justine wasnt able to come so that sucked...
Mary was so fuckin annoying and kept taking Michelle away so i wasnt able to spend much time with her... mike disapeared and i only saw him for like 1 minute every 50 minutes... amber was with her date so i didnt want to bother them... tony was dancing alot so i kinda stayed away from him because i felt like an idiot just standing there... rachel was with E-man most of the night... every once in a while she would come over and hug me... but that just made me feel worse, cause i felt pathetic... i did spend some time with ashley thought, but she kept trying to get me to dance...
over all i just stood/sat by the wall the whole time... which was fine i guess...
Oh and heres something exciting,(this is going to be a long explanation)...

ok so most of the night i just stood by Maria... (i think thats her name...) cause she was by the wall and not dancing and shit and even though my night was sucking i thought i might be able to cheer her up some... so yeah... after a while she asked me why i came, (cause i guess i was complaining about how i shouldnt have come.) and i told her it was because Justine was going to be there... then i dont really remember what we talked about or if we talked at all... i know we were messing around with some other peoples stuff because it was just laying there and we had nothing better to do... but after a while i asked her why she had come... (because she was just as miserable as i was) and she got all defencive and shit... and she said she couldnt tell me... so of course im going to bother her about it... so after about 30 minutes of begging she finally said that if she told me she would have to tell me who she liked... so of course now i really wanted to know... so i asked if i guessed the person would she tell me if i was right and she said yes... so first i asked if it was a girl and she said yes... then i asked if it was someone i knew and she said yes... so of coure the first person i guessed was Tony... hahahahahaha...

then i got seriouse and started naming names... and i hate to admit it but i kinda thought it was me, but i didnt want to say that... so i mentioned a few more names and Amanda Hall, except i didnt say Hall... and at first she said no but then she was like wait which Amanda and i was like HA! and she got quiet and i said sorry... and i was all like trying to make it less awkward... and im not sure if it worked or not...

so yeah...

it was REALLY weird and the whole time after that i was trying to figure out why... not by asking her just like in my head... cause its defiantly not my looks... (cause im ugly as hell)... and she doesnt really know me that well so the whole personality thing doesnt really work... so now im really confused... unless shes just REALLY desperate or something... maybe it was a dare... yeah that would make sense...

*sigh*

Me so confused...

now i know how it feels to be the person who is liked and i dont like it... so im sorry...

on a different note they played the Girlfriend song so i called Justine... (the reason why is odd so im not going to explain that)... and yeah she didnt pick up so i left her a message and let her here the song... although im not sure how it will sound cause it was so fuckin loud...

so yeah...

Um, about halfway through the last song which was lips of an angel, Maria asked me to slow dance and i said i didnt know how and she said she didnt either so i was like crap what do i do... so i just said sure and we walk over to where the other people were dancing and she put her arms around my neck and i put my hands on her sides and we danced... we were really quiet and i got nervous so i told her about how the song was actually about someone cheating and that it was weird for people to be slow dancing to it... and i dont remember exactly what she said but she did mention that she didnt usually listen to this kind of music...

so yeah, when the song ended we hugged and said by... and we walked away from each other... i said by to other people and i left and called my mom and when i got home i went to bed...

The End...