Sunday, November 4, 2007

Doubt...
I’m starting to hate weekends… it gives me way too much free time, and then I think… which as I’ve said many times before is never a good thing…

I’m starting to doubt everything… and I hate myself for it because it’s starting to hurt the people around me…

But I can’t help it… I can’t even imagine why someone would like me, let alone love me… there’s nothing good about me… and every time I see myself in a mirror it’s just that much harder to understand…

Everything makes sense when people hate me, I can come up with lots of reasons for why they wouldn’t like me…

So I’m sorry, and I know this is kinda random but… I just needed to say it… so maybe it won’t hurt people that much…

Um…

Yeah I don’t have much more to say…

Me and Justine are supposed to hang out tomorrow… so I REALLY hope that works out…

This whole thing feels weird… like, one moment I’m crying my eyes out cause I think she hates me, and the next I’m acting as if nothing happened…

Strange…

But in a way I don’t want to question it, cause I don’t want that to happen again… I don’t ever want to feel like that again…

So completely worthless…

It’s the worst feeling in the world, to not be needed…

But anyways, here are some pictures…













now for lyrics...

-Scars-

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life


Ok I guess I’ll go now…

I’m sorry…

bye