Tuesday, February 19, 2008

   Random thoughts...
ive been thinking about sex a lot lately... lol, but not in a good way. Just like, i dont think i really want to have sex. i think the only reason why i talk about it and stuff is because everyone else does. and it makes me feel normal if i talk about what everyone else talks about... so yeah. honestly it still seems kind of gross to me you know. and whats the point of it anyways, cause it feels good. thats not a very good reason...

Sorry.

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Oh, me and Justine decided that were only going to live until were 40 then were going to kill ourselves. ^_^

lol

Hm... what else to say.

i wrote another poem, and its stupid but i kinda want to see what people will say about it so i'm putting it up.

*nods*


~Creatures~

I’ve decided that no one will see me
Body and soul
I will keep them hidden
With layers of clothes
And my iron mask
No one will see it
This thing
This creature in human form
Will not be seen by them
Those creatures of beauty
Will never look upon me
And smile
With beautiful faces
They will shun me
And hate me
They will be repulsed by the mere thought of me
One of beauty
Could never love a creature like me


Yeah, thats it...

Sorry, i know it sucks.

*shrugs*

Whatever.

lyrics and i go.

"Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off"

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster



Whats the point?


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Bye