Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Blind or Lying?
Today’s been pretty boring so far.

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Nothing interesting has happened, and I’m not expecting anything to happen.

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i hate being bored, cause then all i do is think about shit, and its usually not good shit.

And then i usually get depressed. but lately I’ve just been getting angry, and i don’t like that. id much rather be depressed, cause at least then i don’t have to worry about bitching at other people.

I’ve been doing that a lot recently, just randomly snapping at people...

so yeah.

that sucks.

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I’m starting to think that living until I’m 40 is too long, so i might shorten mine to 30... maybe 25.

i might not get to do everything that i want to do, but at least i wont have to put up with shit.

I’m tired of living. There’s really no reason for me to be alive. I’m not going to college, so I’m not going to be doing anything important with my life... really the only thing I’m doing is wasting resources. food, water, air, those things should only be given to people who are needed, and I’m not needed.

So im sorry, sorry for wasting everything.

sorry for being alive.

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Wow, that sounds really over dramatic doesn’t it.

lol

Sorry.

i'll move on to something else now.

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i changed my theme to loveless again. actually i really just want it to be soubi, i finished rereading all 7 books again and i just keep liking soubi more and more.

i think i think the way he does in a way. like id like to have a master, but not for any dirty reason, just because i would be useful, i would have a reason to be... I’m also a masochist. (no matter how much he denies it he is a masochist. ^_^)... and i guess just wanting to be controlled. It’d be nice to not have to think for myself, just do as I’m told.

Simple.

so yeah, soubi's going to be staying for a while.

Sorry.

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oh yeah, I saw a music video this morning and I really liked it so here are the lyrics.

“Sorry”

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby, Yeah.
I'm sorry.





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