Wednesday, July 27, 2005

   Bad Day
Today is just not my day. Last night the power went out when i was slepping, so my alarm didn't go off. Hence i woke up late and had to rush to work. Then, @ work, the computers were down and i had to do everything by hand. Plus, the manager was cranky because the computers were down, so of course they have to ride my case. Then i went to the eye doctors, and my glasses that were suppose to be in last Friday, still are not in. My cell phone still does not work. Oh well, it can't get any worse right? RIGHT? lol. There are worse things.
LPadlock just got his new guitar. I'm trying to get one too. I wanna learn so bad. So how are you all?
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

   I woke up to a thunderstorm this morning....Don't you just looooove thunderstorms?? :-D.
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Monday, July 25, 2005

   My lil' sister is soooo lazy! My step-dad is away for the week on business so i'm trying really hard to help out my mom. Today alone i've done the vaccuming, laundry, dusting, fed the dogs and cats, and swept and mopped the floors. I politely asked my little sister to do the dishes and she was like, "Hell no. Why do i have to do everything?" She's done nothing today at all! She just sat her ass on the couch and watched the home shopping network ALL DAY!!! Grrrr.....I hate siblings.
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

   Good guys are hard to find u know? I've met two guys in the last 3 weeks, and there all totally bogus. The one guy is totally hott, but every other word he uses is the F word. That and all he does is brag about the bad stuff he's done. Such a turn off. The other guy is totally boring, and has like no sense of humor or personality. *Ugh* Where have all the good guys gone?
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Thursday, July 21, 2005

   I had a complete revelation yesterday. I've felt so disconnected from God lately so i just prayed aobut everything, and cried. I got the most incredible feeling. So i want to tell everybody out there who is feels just unfufilled and empty. Maybe lost or unloved, or unimportant. I know you've heard it a bunch of times, but people wouldn't keep saying it if it wasn't true. Jesus is real. God is real. And He wants you to know Him. He's just waiting for you to come to him. What are you afraid of? Are you afraid that you won't be able to have fun or live life to the fullest? Because since i've turned to Christ , i've had more fun and mindblowing experiences then i would ever have had without Him. And no, life isn't perfect, and it's not easy. But at least i now know that the hard times are only temporary and that i h ave a real home waiting for me at the end of my journey. And no, i'm not happy all the time, but i do have this undescribable, consistant joy inside. Please, i'm begging you. Just give it a chance. What do you have to lose, really? If anybody wants to talk or has questions , i'm here. I don't know everything, but i can try my best. God is waiting. So what are you waiting for?
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

   I spent today up @ the lake with the family. It was nice. I got to drive there and back, i'm getting better!! Newayz, i swam (duh) and cannoeing and row boating. Okay, i fricken rock at connoeing, but totall suck at row boating. It took me like 45 minutes just to get back to shore.... I got to go sit on a swing in the shade and read my Bible. It was nice. You know just to take a look at my life, my family, my friends, my belongings, my house..and just to see how the Lord has truly blessed me is incredible. It was nice to take an escape from life and just spend some time in prayer and reflection. My parents want me to take a year off from school after i graduate. It sounds like a really good idea. I mean i could travel Europe, or i could do missionary work by reading to underpriveledged children in third world countries. That or i could try ot get a couple of auditions set up in the city. Or just stay in Houghton and be the drama club advisor and help direct the productions. Idk. I def. am going to find my birth family though, i have so many questions! So what's new with you guys?
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

   I still can't get this guy out of my head or my heart. I just wish, if he liked me, he'd tell me first , cuz i'm not spilling, till he does. And i'm pretty sure he knows i like him, because if he doesn't, he's a total idiot. And if he's reading this...u know i like u. Do u like me? Cuz if u do just say. Even if u don't, just tell me that u know. It would make things a whole lot easier.
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Monday, July 18, 2005

   Oh no......
I spent the enitre day trying to get him off my mind. I went for a walk, went to the library, went up to the railroad tracks and painted. I went through all my old scripts. And i kept busy at work. BUT NOTHING IS WORKING!!! I even tried calling up and flirting w/ other guys but it's totally useless. And how come all of a sudden every song on the radio and every show on television is about falling in love? *ughhh......* HELP!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, July 17, 2005

   This weekend has been great! I spent the night over in Houghton and just chilled with my friends. I got to see everyone! It was awesome.
I've felt this feeling for one of my friends for a while. And i've like fought it for months, but now i'm like, what the hell. I'm just giving in. lol. It's so great, and so exciting, and terrifying, yet warm. I don't know. lol. I'll just be damned if he ever finds out. lol. Not now at least, maybe down the road.....That way, if it's just a feeling, or just a fling, it'll go away......right? RIGHT??? lol.
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Thursday, July 14, 2005

   Yesterday i went to the William's. It was really fun, cept' i was a fifth wheel, i hate that. lol. Then today i went and visited vball camp , and saw all my summer friends. I MISS THEM SO! lol. But i'm pretty good. Lpadlock is going through a hard time this week, i feel bad for him. So if y'all could just pray for him for me? Thanks. Hope everything is great for you guys! Enjoy ur summer while it's here.
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