Monday, April 10, 2006

   New Woman
Okay, bought a bright sexy red dress, new sunglasses, new high heels, changed my hair (BLONDE BABY!!) , got asked on two dates, TWO!!! lol, and i'm packing my bags and leaving to the city in a month and a half. New beginnings baby, out with the old, in the new. How i need something new! Like a man! Tall, handsome, kind, charming.....lol i know he's out there somewhere, and i'm gonna go get him in Manhatten! I'm sick of ppl. holding me back, telling me i'm not good enough, trying to make me feel bad about myself. My entire life! No more. I'm leaving in a month and a half, and after i pack my bags, i'm never ever coming back. Kiss me goodbye my darling, the next time u'll see me is on the silver screen.
I'm a new brand new girl, wait, no, woman! I think it's safe to say that now. I'm ready for the glamour and fast lane. I'm ready for a new life! I'm going to be confident, charming, flirtateous, witty, and smart! My heart's been broken enough, i'm gonna break a few now. No turning back. No more "Nell". Nell is weak, she cares too much. Now it's Chanelle. And if i have to be manipulative and ruthless to get to the top i'll be damned if i'm not! I'll be on top of the world! I will defy gravity! To hell with him! To hell with them! They may have killed Nell, but this is a new beginning! And they will be sorry. The world will be my throne, and admiration will be my crown! And he will be a nobody, forgotten. I will have the perfect hair, perfect body, perfect smile! No longer will i be ugly, no longer will he be able to call me "fat".
My new life will be great! Everyday i will go to my classes, read a book at the coffee shop around the corner, go to the gym with my roommate, party at night at the hottest spots! Shop in the hippest boutiques, make the best of friends, and then get engaged to the most perfect man in the world. Then i'll get my agent and get my break and become rich and famous. Then i'll marry the man, and have many children and live comfortably and happy for the rest of my life. His memory will be erased from my mind through happiness, safety, and love. Mark my words, I will be loved.
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