Sunday, May 1, 2005

REAL EMOTION

What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you

what can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
Far beyond the hazy borders of my heart
I could see a place that's something like this
Every now and then I don't know what to do
Still I know that I can never go back
But the things I've seen in those hazy dreams
Can't compare to what I'm seeing now
Everything's so different
That it brings me to my knees
And though I know the world of real emotion has surrounded me
I won't give in to it
Now I know that forward is the only way my heart can go
I hear your voice calling out to me:
"You'll never be alone"
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you

what can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I don't plan on looking back on my old life
I don't ever plan to rely on you
Even if by chance everything should go wrong
You'd come anyway and try to save me
Though from time to time it's an upward climb
All I know is that I must believe
'Cause the truth I'm seeking
Always was inside of me
And when I find the world of real emotion has surrounded me
The many things that you taught me then
Will always be enough to get me through the pain
Because of you I am strong enough to know I'm not alone
What can I do for you? What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you
And if I find the real world of emotion has surrounded me
And I can't go on
You are there the moment that I close my eyes to comfort me
We are connected for all of time
I'll never be...
And though I know the world of real emotion has surrounded me
I won't give in to it
Now I know that forward is the only way my heart can go
I hear your voice calling out to me:
"You'll never be alone"
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
What can I do for you?
I can't hear you
I can't hear you

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NUMB

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes

[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take


And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

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1000 words by Jade

I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
You steal my soul
To hide the pain, when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to part
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see
I know they are reaching you, suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
A thousand embraces
Will cradel you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words (a thousand words)
Have never been spoken (ohh yeah)
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home, (carry you home) and into my arms
Suspended on silver wings (on silver wings!)
And a thousand words (ohh)
Call out through the ages (call through the ages!)
They'll cradel you (ohh yeah)
Make all of the loneliest your lonely days (lonely days)
They'll hold you forever.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh a thousand words

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

i could just fall asleep now. im listening to soom final fantasy music. so calm so peacful.
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Monday, April 11, 2005

My thoughts



Ive been thinking maybe death is the final awakening? or maybe not.
It could just be a never ending cycle of life.
It might sound crazy but this is how I think.
If u new me ud probably think that I didn’t think of this atal but I did.
Death is nothing to be feared.
But to be rejoiced.
Because you never truly ever die.
You live your life over again.
But in a different dimension.
Its like having the power of immortality.
Those who are dead look silent and asleep but are not.
But they are waiting for their time.
Theyre time to awaken again.
Or to fix a mistake they had made
In their life before.
Or to make it bigger.
Its just like time traveling.
And you change the outcome of ur life.
I think thats how u can have a dream and later recognize that event.
Like having a premonition or something.
So u can see what has will or may come to pas.
Ive come to the conclusion that its not death u fear but life.
If this sounds crazy to u then u don’t believe this.
Or u don’t believe in magic.
Life be given from the heavens
But taken from light
Darkness plays no part
But falls in ur heart
Believe what u need
But this u must head
Life and death are the same
Life is to blame
Death is to blame
They fall in line
Think thou knows all?
But thou knows none
Falling falling and falling

The darkness gathers
Darkness heads it
For then it neadnth a reason
To destroy the light
And all that fall will be in rebirth

The battle has begun
The war is near
They fall no longer
The battle for life and death ends
With death as the victor
This sounds familiar to me but I cant remember from what.
I do have a bad memory but I would remember this.
And I would never forget this.
We live for a reason and nothing else.

Death is more feared than life.
When life should be feared more than death.

~ Sam
good- bye~

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Thursday, April 7, 2005

the darkness


dont ever go nere it
itll drage u in if u do
ur heart with u u lose it
alone with ur life
it consumes u
the further u go the darker
the darker it gets
its only once a milenia
somone of the darkness sees light
and then never sees thedarkness
again
then every tweo millenea they
come out then is swolloed
that is more comon than ever
the cicl has broken and darkness
is weilded for ron rreasons
and then covers all
non com out only in
thern the last red mooned
child is born the one torn
and lost
this is the final milleania
the red moon child is born
not nowing his destany
hes born not only a legend
but has a berden to cary
to eliminate the darkness
the only ray of hope left
from pandoras box
wich is a miogical legend
but now nown ture the god of
light has been born
but on an odd day
the day that the plantes
alin and all to be destroyed by
the heartless
all who flead ten milleanea
ago fleading the darkness
new the day of
distruction was neaer day
pasing day
they prayed that this god
would be born soon
as he did wen the final scream
for light was caled to late
for the legand to
take place the last of the
light had nerly faded
but the peace, love, and
light was in rebirth
all yeled in thanks
to this child
who had brought them home
again life was created
on mars, pluto, jupiter,
uraines, veinus,
murcery, and many
more that were in dout
all payed respect
for him the giver of
a new life the one winged-
angel
his name has been lost
for more than
900,000,000 milenias
his legend had lognin a
place by the egyptians and
romans but never mentioned
he can never die but has
died he walks the earth
hidden by his legacy
if the sides of his
body ever meat the
light and darkness
will met and dooms day will
acur by then the last of
pandoras box would
have been destroid
and caled a mith but fond
and will conseal the
legend and distorid bring uneas
to servivers and an
unatural immortality
now his name has been
reveild by the immortals
the onewinged-angels name
squal leonheart.

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Saturday, April 2, 2005

ok ifound this riten on somthing:
So ur the Bitch
who told the Bitch
that I'm a Bitch
well listen here Bitch
it takes a Bitch to now a Bitch
so ur the Bitch, Bitch!

Kinda stupid hu
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Friday, March 11, 2005

hey sorry im not aloud on my comp at home so im at school. the reason that im on is that im done with what i was working on. i cant get on at home because my parents think im iming people on the comp when im not no lies only truth. now they think ive been downloadung shit on my cell when im not, the only times ive used it was to call people. im happy because i found a cd player to listen to on the bus now (my moms). so ill be realy dead if i lose it. i think that i sould make a copy of my new 3-doors down cd just in case. so i have to get of now.
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Friday, February 25, 2005

hey i found out that this isn't my last b-ball tuernement. but next weeknd is. =( (tear tear SOB)

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Monday, February 21, 2005

   hey ya'l. sorry i havnt ben on for so long. we were getin r computer fixed. i just love 3 doors down and thier new song "just let me go". also at my school dance no one request "in the end" man that suced. they might have i duno. i was in a corner and trying to think of how bad me and my team would lose at r basketball tournament that weekend. turns out that we won r second friendship game. i think that it was that game or another one but we kiked ass! man that was xtreamly wierd. well latly a friend of mine got in a "fight" if thats what u wanna call it. i didnt care if i was going to be late for class at that moment. so all that was going through my head was i hope she doesntget hurt again. i said "again" because later i found out that she got punch in the eye. the reason i tryed to stp the "fight" was because i have a rule its my number 1 right befor self-defense (ill get to that next). that rule for me is " if a friends in truble ill help them no matter what if i get in troble or not." i guess that u can call it loalty. anyways the self-defense rule "if u get in a fight that u didn't start throw as many fukin punches and kiks in as u posibly can." so screw the fukin court rule ur not the one who started it so u shouldn't get in trouble. oyea the girl that stasrted it was suposed to fight some 9th grader after 3rd hour. (i reamembered what hour because my teacher cept on telling us to stop talking about it. gotta giv somone else for trying to break up the "fight". she a realy good friend of mine well ive non her a wil. she got there about wen some one told a teacher tohat there was a fight so she ditched at last minute. but al that was going throw my head was punch her com on punch her! or rachel' get hurt! and don't even think about it bitch! don't hurt rachel more or ull be on the ground! well thats the latest from school. but basbetballs over this wekend. its the championship tournamet. i can tell u right now we lost every thing. so if u read all this GOOD JOB FOR THE RETARDED KID BITCHE! hee ha heee HAAAAAAAAAA HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AHAHAHAHA!! (disterdin gaint it)
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