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Wednesday, March 7, 2007

   i feel giddy
/.
Listening to : Nightwish [OverTheHillsAndFarAway]
mood : utterly giddy


I fought with him last night.
For bout 2 hours.

And at last we got through it.
...
And I feel somehow...stronger.
I didnt go to school today. Exhaustion, it must be.

My passion for acting came back again yesterday.
I realized that it didn't matter if the teachers were being harsh on us, or that I sucked.
Truth be told, I was harsher than the seniors above me.
People weren't commited to the scene.
So I yelled at them.


they shut up.
only to make double the noise.
So I yelled at them again.
They finally shut up.


I'm part of the emsembly in the play, not a big role. But it matters that every each one of the emsembly did their part right because, like My teacher says, "People are scrutinizing you. Each and every one of you."

The lines came to me somewhat naturally, even though I had no script whatsoever. I did my role with gusto, regardless of any stupid mockery.

Being the trouble-maker I am, I attracted more attention simply because I wasn't creating chaos.


I've always had a mental force telling me I must always win every argument, always come up on top.

Be the best.
to 'do it better.'

and do it better.

But, as I've learned, people do not always bow down to my whimsies. People eventually get tired of my arrogance and eventually attempt to put me in my place.

So far, few have succeeded.

My mentality must change, and so must yours Nadiah.

I address you specifically because you are the only loose end left to tie up.

Honestly speaking, I think you're a little too narrow-minded.
If say, someone who's a close friend to me fell in love with MY cousin, I'd be weirded out at first, but seeing as my friend is happy, I'd be happy for her.

And the real reason why we never wanted to tell you was because he knew you'd react this way. I thought I could in turn, spare you the shock.

Well forgive us for caring then.

And you didnt lose me to a boy, no.
You willingly gave me up.
I still want to try to work on this friendship, but since you already declared the end, it is thus, the end.



hope life's still fair to you.

-anis.
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