Tuesday, August 28, 2007

   I'm an idiot
I cause people pain... i feel so bad, so i tried to cause myself some pain to try and get rid of the guilt that i feel....

my protractor wasnt sharp enough...

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

   ...
I've got to let go now.
I'm just in too deep.
Can't let this happen anymore.
It needs to be laid to sleep.

I'm sorry if it hurts you so,
But I cannot any longer stay,
This can never work.
I'm sorry it has to be this way.

It won't work.
Find someone better than me.
My heart is elsewhere,
That's what I need you to see.

I shouldn't tell you where it is.
It's better that I just go.
This computer screen in front of you isn't love.
I know I probably seem cold as snow.

I'm moving on now, to better things,
I beg of you, please to the same.
I'm not kidding you, it was nice while it lasted.
But we must be done with this game.



I just have one thing to say...I'm sorry. That is to a person who knows who she is. I don't want to hurt you so...My heart is elsewhere though, and I need to let go. It's not healthy for either of us. You can find someone way better, someone in real life. But this has to stop now. Again...I'm very sorry
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Thursday, August 23, 2007

sigh...
feelin very emo today. hopefully i can talk to my good friend Kristen today. she can always cheer me up
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

   Bored....So I'll sing a song....
Well, let's go back to the middle of the day that starts it all. I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feelin'. And now these red ones make me fly and te blue ones help me fall, when I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling. And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall-fall on your tongue like pixie dust, just think happy thoughts and we'll fly home. We'll fly home. You and I, I, I, I. We'll fly home. Now, come on. Well now I'm back in the middle of the day that starts it all. I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feelin'. And now these reds one make me fly and the blue ones help me fall, and I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling. Home, We'll fly home, you and I,I,I, we'll fly home, we'll fly home. Now honestly, that's what I said to her, what I said to her. Think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts. think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, a-how. woo!

Heh, I think I'm done now...whatever...
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Monday, August 13, 2007

   I'm Midnight. Cool.

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

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Thursday, August 9, 2007

yeah...
My mom is still all mean to me lately.. with the whole emo thing, I guess. Its going to be nice to get to new york, especially since a certain someone is there, someone who makes me heart skip. ^_- last night I went and seen rise against, i got hurt in the mosh pit again, but whatever.

this kid kept trying to mosh where I was moshing and it was starting to make me irritated and upset, my friend got seperated from me and now he hates me. he says I intentionally got moshed away from him, but whatever, he can think whatever he wants. he was scared and all. i feel kinda bad about that...

my friend thought it was funny to take these pictures, they said they like it, but whatever, i think i'll take it down.




**Ghost



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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

   A Poem For Kayla
This is another poem for you. I hope you like it.

You make my heart light,
And my cloudy days bright.
You make me so clearly see,
All my good, the best in me.
I have you now,and I can't let go.
It would sear my soul, surely that's so.
In such a short time, you became so dear,
Everything in life now seems so clear.
There's just something about you that makes me smile.
These feeling I have your you won't ever go out of style.
The way I feel is pure and true.
I know for certain now, I really love you.

^_^ I hope I don't come across to strongly, but it really is how I feel, and I can't hold it in. Well, that's all
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Monday, August 6, 2007

   but whatever....
Hey guys... got some, um, sad news i guess. Turns out i'll be moving to New York for a bit, because my mom is stupid and kicked me out because i'm so 'emo' and all. but whatever. she's on my last nerve anyways. I'm going to my aunts, she lives in Newport, or something like that. i guess its ok though, seeing as i cant stand my mom at the moment anyways. the only thing that sucks is i'll have to constantly fight my cousins for the internet... but whatever.
has anyone been there? i just wanna know if theres anything interesting there. like a music store or guitar store of something... cause i like guitars and music. but whatever.
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Sunday, August 5, 2007

   Well, I've got something to say....
I have to say that coming to theO just a little while back has got to be one of the best things I've ever done. I've made a few nice friends on here that enjoy looking at my art, even though I'm really not that good. They understand that practice makes perfect and they accept that I can only get better with time. Thank you to all of them. But that's not the main point of my post today. I've got something that I need to get off my chest cuz it hurts me to keep it in. I've got feeling of more than just friendship for a special person here on theO...we've only talked for a short time but i feel like we've been friends for years. i want her to know how i feel. i think she knows who she is and i know she feels the exact same way. This is a poem for her.

So many times my heart has been broken
The pain I felt then, I haven't spoken.
But now you're here
I haven't a fear.
I want you to know how I feel.
So now my love, I'm going to reveal.
You're the most wonderful on earth and outer space.
And it means so much these roses you won't throw in my face.
I know that you'd never tear out my heart,
Now I'm hoping we won't be apart.
My love for you won't ever go away.
So I'm hoping, dear, that you're here to stay.

I'm not so good at writing, so I apologize. It's meant to be a song, played on my guitar. I only wish I could do that for her. And I hope she reads this and understands. Well, whatever now, goodbye all!


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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

   Sup..
Hey everyone, how's it going. Not much going on with me. Just been bored out of my mind. Been staying with my friend a lot lately cuz my mom is still pretty pissed at me cuz i act all "emo"...but whatever...she can think what she wants. Been practcing a few more songs on my guitar. I think I'm getting pretty good at them, and a lot of others say I'm pretty good. Yeah. It's cool. And some new art should be coming up soon. I submitted my half of the trade for inuyashagal so look for that soon here, if you're interested. I apologize that it's not very good. But with a little practice I could get better. But whatever. Gotta go now.

**Ghost
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