Monday, November 1, 2004

Time for hte question of the day....

What if everything you knew....all of your friends and family turned on you all the sudden...how would you react......sorry its such a morbid sad subject but my friend asked me that today so i thought i would put it to you all as well...peace and may the dragosn watch over you always...farewell my friends...and all others..

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Another peom for all of you to read.....

True Friends I rhyme about life And set my mind free Just like the sweet dove I let it go and be. Though we often say love It's rarely ever true. But one of those i think of Is when it's love for those few. The few who are my friends Not the kind taht leave anyday But the kind that are there in the end Not the kind that leave as they may. The few that I keep near Are the best there ever were. These to me are very dear And they came from events that occur. They are the most important to me For they help me set my heart free. They help me to write what I see So everyone knows what the world can be. -Bradley Alan Mills This poem is dedicated to all of my friends out there...you know who you are....exspecailly those that are there for me when i need them.....Peace and may the dragons watch over you always....farewell for now my friends...and all others..

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Sunday, October 31, 2004

The closest poem from my heart.....

This poem's last line does not apply anymore.....so do not pay much attention to that....it was meant for somethign that didnt happen....i'm crying as i type this btw .....it hurts to do this..but i want to show the best poem in my opinion that i ever wrote....it is really long so bare with me.....here it goes...It was written for Rayea. Forever Love Beauty is it the eye of the beholder, And my eyes behold it in you. Even though everyday we grow older, Everyday our love becomes more true. I see the beauty of your soul When i look so deep in your eyes. I've seen a beauty so, not since times of ol'. So now I wish you hold you by my side. Having you there keeps me strong And helps me to be my true self It helps give me teh strength to go on, And gives me a different kind of wealth. It's the kind of wealth that can't be held, Because it is a wealth of love. And this love I hope can be felt As I hold you in my heart full of love. My love for you is that of true, And I wish to always be with you. So consider this my promise to you. That I will be faithful through and through. As the years continue to pass by I know out flame will keep it's glow And that our love will never die. No matter how old together we grow. Forever together I know we will be. With our love growing everyday. And our love that began in highschool they will see, Can go on forever and a day. I give my thanks for all you have done Because you have helped me be who I am. You helped me see how I'm not like everyone. That I can be myself in life's game. I might not be able to give you money, And I may not be able to give you gold; But I know I can give you all of me. So now there is something I must ask so bold. I know we are young, but thats fine to me. Because I always want you to be able to see, How wonderful life can really be. So now I ask, will you marry me? -Bradley Alan Mills I wrote that a couple of months ago...while rayea was still mine... I gave her a copy but never read it to her and never let her answer because by the time i saw her agian....it was over and it wouldnt have mattered.....i hope you all enjoy it...please comment of how you feel about it....may the dragons watch over you always....farewell for now my friends....

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im just....

im just posting this so it shows that i updated..i want everyone to read my post from yesterday if you havent...please comment i love your commenting.....may the dragons watch over you always....farewell for now my friends....and everyone else.

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Saturday, October 30, 2004

Memories.....

I am going to tell two things...my favorite memory first...then my least favorite.... Favorite...: My favorite memory is actually involving rayea....it was the second time i stayed over night at her house and her mom wasn't home....it was about 8 o clock at night on saturday night...we were in her room sitting on her bed listening to inuyasha music and she layed down and set her head in my lap....i started to feel a bit tired so i laid down behind her and wrapped her in my arms rigt as Inuyasha and Kagome's theme came on....we didnt do anything for those perverts out there...but jsut being so close to her for so long with no words ....just the song repeating over and over.....it wsa teh most memorable time of my life and i will never forget it. Least favorite...: My least favorite memory is the time i lost rayea.....it was at school and i noticed that she seemed different...she said she was goign tohelp one of her friedns with homework or he was helping her or something....(sorry its so sloppy i am tearing up a little bit remembering it) ...but anyways she got up and left me to go help him and i was already feeling down cause i felt like i had no friends....and it was almost true....so i got her attention eventually and she comforted me slightly.....but then left agian....after third she gave me a letter..which i read in fourth and cried in front of everyone.....then i went home crying...that was my worst memory...i didnt go into full detial for everyones sake.... thank you all for listening....and my questiont o all of you ...what are your favortie and least favorite memories....if you dont want them public then PM them to me.....or dont tell at all. its up to you....farewell for now my friends....and may the dragons watch over you always....

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A poem i just wrote straight out of my own mind....

Pain Burn me, torch me, my mother should have aborted me that way you wouldn't have to deal with all the pain that i cause you wouldnt have to try and understand you wouldnt need to try and be kind you could just be yourself you could be with someone else you wouldnt have to waste time on me you wouldnt have to give me things you wouldnt have to give me time you would be able to do anything anythign that didnt involve me i should just up and leave. i should wipe myself from your memories i should up and dissappear into dust but will they let me. -Bradley Alan Mills Hope you all enjoy.....i am being ripped in half right now.

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Friday, October 29, 2004

Listen up...

No poem on this post just some news.....i think im about to make a desicion....i think im going to tell rayea that she cannot have my heart anymore.....whether she knows it or not she toys with my heart so fucking much that it has been litterally killing me inside for the past ...i dont even fucking know how long....everytime i feel like i may have a chance something comes up and gets in my way.....i dont know if she realizes what she does and does it just to toy with me or if she is just not able to comprehend teh pain that her actions can cause....i think i might have to move on real soon.....peace and may the dragons watch over all of you.......btw apparently my dragon is going to be taken from me soon...or so it seems because ive been slowly feeling him slipping away....farewell all.

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Another poem from the darker side of my mind....

Fury unleashed All at once it happens And i know not what i do. Though often i hurt The ones i hold most dear. For some i behave like spawn Spawn of hatred i become. Everywhere i act a front and sisillusion those not near. I know not how to control This fury dwelling in my soul. I look and try to seek But an answer cant be found. And so i remain with this this fury i cant contain. And i just go on looking for answeres that i cant find. -Bradley Alan Mills This is just one i worte a long time ago..its not to anyone its just expressing emotion...May the dragons watch over you all....P.S. if this is rayea i still love you.

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Thursday, October 28, 2004

A poem from a side of my heart that many of yo don't know...

A Heavy Heart You have pushed me to the edge You have me standing on a ledge. One more push and i will fall but i doubt you even care at all. I know being with me, you dread. I know this because its what you said. So why do I even bother Why do I even press farther. I had given away my heart to you. But you broke it again just like you always do. -Bradley Alan Mills i wrote it randomly shortly after something shattered my very being...if you want to know what it was...jsut ask in yoru comment or PM me....ttyl...peace and may teh dragons watch over you all forever.....I will always love you Rayea.

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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Another poem...from not to long ago..

Could i could write you words that come only from a heart most tender i could cry the tears of a river most deep i could give you love that even juliet had not felt i could build you a castle : that soared above the clouds i could sing you a song to which only angels could compare i could tear away mountians just to be with you i could give you everything if you would have me for me because all of this would mean nothing if i didnt have your love. -Bradley Alan Mills P.S. if this is Rayea i Still love you forever and a day.

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