Saturday, May 28, 2005

   Tired...

Ive been sleeping well but people keep coming to visit me real early...well early for me at least...lol...i had a good day...got unexpected phone calls from three different peoples..and i went to waffle house...and i went fishing....i only caught 4 fish though...im a terrible fisherman. lmao but anyways....whats everyone up to...only two people came by my site lol....take care everyone...bye for now. *hugs* And Remember depression and pain are both made by the mind...so both can be forgotten and gotten rid of by simple thought....*huggles*...bye for now everyone *waves and runs in circles then poofs away*

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Friday, May 27, 2005

   MEEP!!

I'm still soaring high watching my recent life fade away. I have discovered that being depressed took a lot of energy...cause now that im not depressed i feel great. anyone up for hiking the appalachain trail with me? ^_~ lmao not really ...i dont have 4-8 months i can spare right now but maybe later that would be fun. So how is everybody...i have almost no visitors to my site but no worries...hope everyone is well...i bet most of you are....farewell for now my friends *hugs everyone*

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

   YAYNESS!!!

Yay. for the first time in a long while i am happy...not just that little happy i get sometimes when i do something right, but happy as in everything is going well in life. I just got off the phone with the most unexpected person I could think of. A great friend of mine known as garoul. She doesnt have an account here but she is a great friend of mine who i havent heard from in a long while. It made my night and she talked with me about everything that has been happening and helped me to see a few things that I couldn't before. I love life right now. Thank you all for baring with me and don't worry bout me anymore cause im through with depression..its pointless to be depressed anyways so why do it ya know. Take care everyone and I hope to hear back from you all soon. *hugs to all* take care my friends and farewell but not goodbye.

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

   Soon....

Soon I shall be strong enough to keep them safe...those that i care about...i am pushing myself far beyond my own limits to do so. I feel it is my duty to protect them because i am capable of protecting them. Take care of yourselves everyone. and if you neeed me just let me know.

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

   Changes

I am changing several things about myself and they will be reflected on the site soon....i do not like what ive become recently so i will be changing it soon...take care everyone.

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Sunday, May 8, 2005

   i'm well....amazingly...

They say if you prepare for the worst then it won't hit you as hard....this was one such case....i took that weekend to prepare for her leaving me and when it happened i took it hard but it didnt knock me down as hard as it could have. I am doing quite well considering and i have even begun to do some projects i had been putting off to keep my mind occupied..but as for relationships.....there is only one person i wish to be with right now and if i cnat have her then its ok..i just want her happy...but i dont think anyone else would fill that spot in my life for a while so i will be remaining single. Take care everyone and may the dragons watch over you always.......farewell and of course i love you still katie.

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Monday, May 2, 2005

   It's Over..............

I won't let them hear me cry. I won't let them hear me cry. It's over.....she decided that she couldnt take the distance and with her being busy she doesnt have time for a relationship right now.....so its over betweemn her and me....i hope she is able to move on i hope she can find happiness in wherever life takes her. I don't know when ill move on..if im able to...this one is hitting me really hard...i really did love her....with all that i am...i don't know what to do right now......i feel empty...lost...confused.....help me.....someone...farewell for now. May there always be someone there to light the path below yor feet and give you the wings with which to soar. where is that person for me now though?

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Saturday, April 30, 2005

decisions decisions.....

Ever had a really really big decision to make and either decision could cost you something very dear to you.....how do you decide...if you weigh the options and neither options turns out to be better then the other how do you decide.....im at a lose on that one myself......well take care.....may the dragons watch over you all.....i love you katie...no matter what...

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Friday, April 29, 2005

anyone out there....please....

I'm having some trouble with my mate. We live very far apart from each other. Well she lives in Colorado, USA and i live in South Carolina, USA. She talked to me tonight and well shes having problems dealing with the long distance....I feel deep within me that i love her deep and true. I know it in the same way that i know that i am me...its jsut the kind of thing that you know is true. I don't know what to do. I don't know what i would do if i lost my mate. She is the first person to make me actually be able to just smile and be happy i am alive in well 12 years. I haven't been like that since my father was living with me when i was 6. I just don't know what to do. I've talked to her and asked her to really think hard about it before she decides anything but i don't know what else to do. I know this may be a bit off topic for this group, but this is one of the few places where i find protection and acceptance so i feel that i can be open with all of you. I guess i came seeking advice and solace if you can help it would be great but if not its alright for i know we all have our own burdens to carry. May we forever watch over and keeps each other safe.

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

fun times

I get to help paint this awesome pic on my wall..its a ying yang symbol with a chinese dragon and a white tiger and all this cool stuff in the background i just have to pick something for the oppisite wall now ....any suggestions? may the dragons watch over you all....i love you katie....farewell everyone....

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