Sunday, September 26, 2004

   Three Days
It's been three days since I have slept in my own bed. ^_^ It's funny, because The Nik just said that to me right after I typed that. Odd? Probably. Most of my antics now do not make any sense because my new group of friends do not make any sense at all. It's the best! So, this weekend was interesting. Friday night was a depressing night. I was at State with a few friends of mine, but we ended up coming back to my college and watching the Return of the King. I fell asleep for about an hour, and then watched the rest of the movie. Cip went to bed after that, but The Nik and I stayed up until 7:00 in the morning just talking. It was great, and it really lifted my spirits. Around noon we headed back to State, and then Cip and I left a little bit afterword. The Nik, Cip, and I just hung out all day...it was so undepressing that it was great. The three of us went out to Chinese for dinner, and then went to a play after that. Since I was broke, Cip payed for me and called it a date. I am having so much fun with this group of guys that it is great! More movies that night, and then the sleep thing. This morning we went to brunch, and then we are going out later as well. Probably more movies...I have a lot to catch up on, apparently. Kyle and I talked again last night as well. I ended up crying again, but I am happy that he made a decision. Although it did not turn out in my favor, I came out of this with a few great friends. I'll be fine. It was strange how he was reacting to me hanging out with The Nik so much though...you see, The Nik is his room mate. I don't know what to make of it, really. *shrugs shoulders* Only time will tell...aluve' (Look below...talk about ironic)



what's your cowboy bebop theme song?

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Thursday, September 23, 2004

   ...On My Hands and Knees...
Yeah...there's a long story about that...so I won't get into it. It has been a very rough week...it's Thursday, and today is the first time that I haven't cried since Saturday. So, yeah...it's been tough. I have been talking with Kyle every night since Saturday, (the one that I am having troubles with)and that has helped a little bit. I mean, at least he's not blowing me off or anything, and he is being honest with me as well. I am sure this would make more sense if I said what was going on. Alas, I do not want to go into details. I know some of my friends from home read this, and I do not want them to worry about me. Last night I went back over to State for a movie night -- well, every Wednesday night is movie night, I guess. I like it over there though. I feel at ease there. Well, I feel at ease whenever I am around Kyle, but now that I have made some more friends with theatre and whatnot, I am enjoying myself much more. My ordeal has allowed me to become closer to Kyle's best friend, Cip. He has been a great help for me...offering me advice and just being there for me to make me spill what I was afraid to tell Kyle. I will admit, after I told Kyle what I needed to say, I felt relieved. I have never been able to express my emotions very well, so I got frustrated when I couldn't put my thoughts into words, but I think I did all right for it being my first time. Anyway, last night lifted my spirits a bit...and I haven't cried today...that must count for something. Eventually everything will fall into place; it is just the waiting part that sucks. what can I do though? This is not up to me to decide. I know what I want...surprising, really. aluve'



Villian! Powerful, controlling, you know what you
want and will not stop to get it,


::..::..Whats your anime personality?..::..::
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Monday, September 20, 2004

   El Scorcho
El Scorcho, Rock n'Roll!
Goddamn you half-Japanese girls
do it to me every time
Oh, the redhead said you shred the cello
And I'm jello, baby
But you won't talk won't look, won't think of me
I'm the epitome
of Public Enemy
Why you wanna go and do me like that?
Come down on the street and dance with me

(chorus):
I'm a lot like you so please
Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you
And you'd be good for me

I asked you to go to the Green Day concert
You said you never heard of them
How cool is that?
So I went to your room and read your diary
"Watching grunge leg drop New Jack through a press table"
And then my heart stopped:
"Listening to Cho Cho San 'fall in love all over again'."

(Chorus)
I'm a lot like you so please
Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you
And you'd be good for me

How stupid is it?
I can't talk about it
I gotta sing about it
And make a record of my heart
How stupid is it?
Won't you gimme a minute?
Just come up to me
And say hello to my heart
How stupid is it?
For all I know you want me too
Or maybe you just don't know what to do
And maybe you're scared to say
"I'm falling for you"

I wish I could get my head outta the sand
'cause I think we'd make a good team
And you would keep my fingernails clean
But that's just a stupid dream that I won't realize
'cause I can't even look in your eyes without shakin'
And I ain't fakin'
I'll bring home the turkey if you bring home the bacon

(Chorus)
I'm a lot like you so please
Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you
And you'd be good for me
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So, yeah, that song has been stuck in my head for a couple of days now. I hope everyone had a much better weekend than I did. Friday was the best night that I have had since I got to college, it's just the following days have been hell. I won't get into it because I don't want to bore you all with my misery, but I'll just say that I hate heartbreak, and my eyes are killing me from crying so much. You'd think that after a couple of heartbreaks that you would get immune to it, or it would hurt less...or something along those lines. I wish that were true. Unfortunately, it hurts just the same every time. It's not fair. I feel so helpless, sucumbing to my emotions like this. Emotions suck. However, I did make a good new friend last night; he's so easy to talk to, and I feel like I can trust him. (Which is odd for me, because I rarely trust people at all). Yes, I have trust issues. What to do? You can only cry for so long before your body says "Enough! Get a grip! I need food!" Yeah, so, whatever...it is going to be a very long week...aluve'


You are the red head character, a very cunning
person indeed. You are smart, athletic and
very beautiful. You can be a bit arrogant, and
others build up a defense against that, watch
what you do and say.


*What anime character and personality would you be?*
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Thursday, September 16, 2004

   Resovoir Dogs
It has been going well here lately. I was cast in the play here...it's a small part with only 13 lines, but I am not complaining. At least I was cast. =-) So, my part is the Head Nun, which is ironic because of this one thing that my friend Arison has...it's a DVD of Nun Porn. -_- So, yeah...the guys back home are really getting a kick out of that. Besides that, last night after rehearsal I went back to the college down the road from here to watch Resovoir Dogs with a few people from the theatre. That was fun; we didn't actually watch most of the movie, we just kind of sat around and talked. Well, I'd love to write more, but I have a class to go to, so I'll see you all later. aluve'



you are [nandaba naota]. mostly thought of as
apathetic, you care only for those extremely
close to you. you can act quite strange at
times.


Which FLCL Character Are You?
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Tuesday, September 7, 2004

   Orchestra Practice and Auditions
Wowwie, it's 10:17, and I don't have any homework to do. It's amazing. What's even more amazing...I got all of my homework done before 5 this evening. I had orchestra practice today, but they didn't have my rental clarinet, so I was basically told to come back next week. So, I went to auditions for our Theatre group instead. That was so much fun. It went really well. Unfortunately, if I am cast in the play, I have to stay here Saturday Morning instead of going home on Friday. What a good college gal I am! I haven't stayed the weekend yet. A bad thing? Naw, I am just enjoying the fact that I can go home on the weekends. ^_^ So, yeah, enough of my endless babbling. I'll be off now; aluve'


Elves are the "firstborn" people of God,
the first created on Middle Earth. You are
immortal and have the opportunity for gaining
great wisdom in your long life. You value
beauty and nature, and in fact you are probably
very attractive yourself. Although you seem
mysterious and distant to some, it's just that
you have greater knowledge and higher goals
than mortals. When you tire of life on Middle
Earth, you will pass over the sea to the west
to dwell with the Valar and Maiar, a privelege
that that few others obtain.


Which Middle Earth race are you?
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Friday, September 3, 2004

   Mario Party, ABCs, and 6 hours of Talking
Wowwie...none of my friends have updated their journals today. So, I decided, why not go against the norm? Hehe. Today was an interesting day; I had to get up for a 9:30 class...first year seminar, then I had Life's Diversity and Diversity Lab. I got done at 5:20 with all of my classes. Then, my friend Luke stopped by, and we "studied" for our ABC test that we had to take at 7. Actually, we ended up talking the entire time. We went to take our test, and then we went out to Subway and got dinner. We talked some more, and went and got milkshakes around 10:30. He lives about half an hour from me, so we have something to connect us, you know? Our curfew to be back in the dorms is midnight, so he had to get going around 11:45 since his dorm is on the other side of the campus. I came back to my room to find my roommate playing Mario Party with three other guys. It's an every night thing here. Although it gets annoying, it's her room too, so there's not much that I can say about it. -_- So anyway, yeah. I still have homework to do, but I have to wait for quiet...aluve'

You like sports, but you prefer to watch rather than participate. You don't like to give up the remote control. You're straight to the point and no-nonsense and attract like-minded people. You tend to be self-centred and high maintenance. The Cakes Quiz

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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

   -_-
Meh, I didn't have a good title for today. Today has been a rather easy-going day; I had classes from 9:00 to 1:45 with a break somewhere in there. So, now I'm done, and I have no homework either -_-. I don't know what I am going to do with myself. I think I am going to go into town soon and check out the prices on Clarinets at the music store. you see, I am thinking about joining orchestra, but I'll need my own Clarinet, and seeing as how I do not own my own, I might want to think about making a purchase. I've played for eight years, but I have always just borrowed one from my High school. Now that I am in college, however, I cannot do that. So, I must fork over some money. I am happy to report that the college life has been getting better though. I am adjusting more and more everyday. This weekend I am staying here and not going home...just to see how that turns out. I am afraid thatI am going to be surrounded by a bunch of drunken idiots...something I do not want to be subjected to. At least I'll have something to do Saturday during the day; I joined the theatre here, and we are doing a cleaning of the stage this Saturday, so that shall take up some of the day at least. I just don't wnat to get bored. Bleh, and that's what I am right now. The "Nightmare Before Christmas" soundtrack can only do so much for a gal ^_^. Alrighty, I'll be off now; perhaps I'll go roller-blading or something. aluve'



I think it's official, you are obsessed!
Congratulations!


How obsessed with LOTR are you?
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Sunday, August 29, 2004

   What a Weekend
Well, I went home this weekend for my birthday party. We had a blast. A few of my friends showed up, and we just had an overall good time. My friend Steve showed up with some alcohol for mixed drinks. He also brought over some other shit...I think he spent something like $80 on alcoholic beverages. That's crazy! I can't imagine wasting that much money on something like that. Maybe that's just me? My Mumsie did buy me some wine coolers though. I'll admit it...I'm very much a lightweight. I actually got trashed. That was a first for me. I don't intend on drinking again for a very long time. I was just so exhausted. I only had, like, five too. I never puked last night, but I did pass out twice. I am happy to report that I didn't wake up with a hangover this morning. I can't see how people on my dorm floor actually like to go out drinking every night. I think that's just crazy. Whatever makes them happy, I suppose. I was so thankful for my friend Arion though; he stayed with me all night, just making sure that I was all right and safe and whatnot. That's a good friend right there. So, yeah...happy birthday to me once again. ^_^. I'll get going now, aluve'

(Just kidding!)

How Well Do You Know The Fellowship Of The Ring?

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Thursday, August 26, 2004

   Yayness
It's my Birthday...need I say more? Now that I am 18, I can buy lottery tickets, porn, and cigs. So, it seems like now that I am 18, I have more opportunities to waste my money. Hurrah.
aluve'
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Sunday, August 22, 2004

   No Comment
Well, here I am, at college. It is so strange to not be around my friends, especially Arion. I cried when he had to leave my house on Thursday night. I have been able to talk to him online and on my cell, so at least I won't miss him too much. I just miss the things that you can't give over the phone or internet, like a touch or an embrace, or a smell...things like that. I'll manage though. I have made a couple of friends here; the guy to girl ratio is about 5:1. That's crazy! ^_^ So, at least I am slowly adjusting. I don't know what else to say. Classes start tomorrow; at least that will keep my mind off of my homesickness...blah. I'll be off for now. aluve'


You're most like Galadriel, Queen of Lothlorien.
Galadriel is the granddaughter of the High King
of the Noldorin Elves, and she is considered
the greatest beauty of the house of Finwe. She
is one of the strongest members of her family,
but her desire for change and adventure has
wounded others more than once. She provides
wise counsel to all who seek it, and has the
gift of seeing what truly lies in people's
hearts.


Which LotR Elf Are You Most Like?
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