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So, I am sitting here studying for my Physical Chemistry exam that I have tomorrow, and I decide to take a break and check out facebook, myspace, and all that cliche stuff. For some reason, it made me feel down. I hate when things like that happen, because there is no reason for it. I don't have any reason to feel crappy minus the fact that Mitchel is in Massachusetts until Saturday at the earliest. I miss him.
I have also been in my room doing work since noon alone, and I am thinking that might have something to do with it. I don't know. It's really silly, actually.
I don't really have much else to report on. I had some delicious soup today in a bread bowl. It made me think of Mitch. But then again, there isn't much that doesn't. I mean, I AM completely head-over-heels for him. Next week marks our 1 year 4 month anniversary. ^_^
Whoo!
Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is off to study some more...aluve'
You Are 44% Addicted to the Internet
You're somewhat addicted to the internet - but who isn't?
You can keep it under check, and you're by no means a hermit.
Looks Can Kill
That's what the quiz result says anyway. So, I am up early this morning so I can do a ton of work that is due on Monday. I hate the weekends because I always have so much work to do. Yesterday, I went to the theatre to help clean the 4th floor; it's where we keep all of the props. Since the past two shows, it has become an absolute disaster. Mitch helped me clean, and then my friend Matt stopped by to help me as well. I felt completely overwhelmed being up there, but I made a lot of progress. It was rather difficult to leave after not finishing cleaning, because we had other things that we needed to do. It was difficult because of the OCD. I am convinced that I have a mild case of OCD, but once again I am too stubborn to go to a therapist to see what is actually wrong with me. So, I dealt with the internal freak out and left the theatre.
After that glorious time, I went to the mall with Mitchel and my other friend Matt. I needed to buy a new outfit because I have an important interview on Thursday. It's for an internship over the summer. I would be staying right up here at school for the summer, doing research, and taking a couple of classes. I generally don't do well in interviews because I am not an outgoing person, but I hope that since I want this so much, something will click in my head and I will do amazingly. But, yeah. We went to the mall, hung out, and I got a cute outfit. Matt also ended up buying a generic version of DDR for the gamecube, which was AMAZING! I love DDR, so finding it for cheap was even better.
So, that night we had a dance party, and it was a ton of fun. After that, I went with those two to Mitch's place to watch TV. Around 11:30 I became exhausted, so I had Mitch take me back to my dorm. He wanted to stay, but I didn't want him to. Afterwards, I felt really bad. He had had a terrible week, and was really looking forward to falling asleep with me in his arms. I have been feeling sick, which is why I didn't want him to stay. I don't really like being around people when I am sick. So...I don't know.
Whatever.
I need to get going for the day, so I can get all of my work done before my meetings starting at 3, and ending around 8:30. Lame. I hate Sundays. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is going to go shower...aluve'
I am in the mood to post, but I don't have anything to write about. I think my room mate is pissed at me because I password protected my laptop after I found her using it without asking me first, and after she lost two hours of work on a paper of mine by not saving my work. So, great, I get to deal with that. Then there's the fact that I just feel depressed for no reason...I really hate the way my body looks lately, and I just have the urge to go to the gym to make myself feel better...I just haven't had the time lately. We had our One-Act festival, and that went over very well. I was extremely pleased with that.
Yeah...I have nothing important to say. I mean, I do, but lately I have just been feeling like no one really cares about what I have to say.
Ever.
It's hard, when you're feeling bad about yourself, and then the people you look to to make you feel better just look down upon you. I mean, not everyone, of course...it's just that some of the Brothers have been disrespecting me in one way or another in my eyes, and I really just don't like it. I could be overreacting. I mean, that does happen a lot.
Or maybe it's something else.
I don't know. I haven't been sleeping well. Everyone it seems is sick at this University...and that's no lie. I was talking to one Freshman, and she said that all but about 5 people on her floor were sick with some stomach virus that's going around. Not fun at all. At this school, no one can afford to get sick.
Plus, Mitch is going through a real tough time, and there is nothing I can do to make it better. All I can do is love him with all of my heart, and I wish that could make all of his troubles go away.
I don't know. My mind is all over. I sometimes think that I should go see a specialist to see what is actually wrong with me, but then again, I am too stubborn for something like that, because Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is strong-willed...and nothing can stop her.
It seems like no one posts on here anymore. I get on to look at my friends whom have updated, and it's always the same two. Luckily, I love reading their posts.
But that is besides the point.
I think I am sinking back down again...and I hate that feeling. Lately I have been feeling like I am not really good at anything I do, and I feel like I am not going to make any sort of difference in this world as has always been my dream. I am applying for internships for the summer so I don't have to go back to Camp. I know how much Mitch does not want me to go back. I just don't know if I am smart enough to get the internship that I want, or if I have the perfect interviewing skills, or if I will be able to do the job if I do get the internship.
I have extrordinary dreams, I just don't feel like an extrordinary person.
I won't be remembered for being completely selfless...I care too much about my grades and my future. I won't be remembered for being an eloquent speaker or a deep thinker, because I am too afraid to talk about what is on my mind, for the fear that no one is listening.
I am smarter than people give me credit for.
I wish people would recognize that.
I also deserve respect.
At least I am in love with my Mitchel.
Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is depressed, but will make it through...aluve'
Happy Valentine's Day
Okay...I am a geek. I am going to confess my undying love for the Wiggles...a Children's group from Australia. Okay, so I am not in love with them...but I was sad to find out that the Yellow Wiggle, Greg Page, has to leave the band because of an osteo disease:
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The Wiggles have today announced the replacement for Yellow Wiggle Greg Page.
Appearing at press conference in Perth without Page, band members said his yellow skivvy would now be worn permanently by his long-time understudy Sam Moran.
Page, in a video message played before the press conference, said he's suffering from a chronic condition called orthostatic intolerance, which means when he stands up his heart doesn't pump enough blood around his body.
"It's not a life threatening condition by any means, but it is one that's going to be with me for the rest of my life," Page, 34, said.
It is estimated that over 500,000 Americans are afflicted with Orthostatic Intolerance. The condition affects predominately younger individuals, often those under the age of thirty five and more often in women.
The National Dysautonomia Research Foundation says the onset can be sudden, and the impact can be significant on both lifestyle and on the capacity to work.
"It means I'll no longer be able to sing and dance the way that I want to and as a result I've decided to stop performing with The Wiggles."
"I'll miss being a part of The Wiggles very much but this is the right decision because it will allow me to focus on managing my health," said Page.
At a press conference at Perth’s Burswood Dome today, the three other Wiggles members, Anthony Field, Murray Cook and Jeff Fatt, announced with regret the change in line-up.
“You know, it is sad…Greg would really love to get in that big red car of his and toot-toot, chugga-chugga; but his body wouldn’t let him do it.,” Blue Wiggle Anthony Field said.
“Greg loved doing the show, just physically he can’t do it anymore,” he said.
Moran said the promotion was bittersweet, particularly because he was a close friend of Page and sympathised with his medical issues.
“You know it’s always been a little daunting filling in… but I’ve been with the group for ten years so it’s a great opportunity as well,” he said.
“Some children say Greg’s different or Greg’s had a haircut,” said Field as Red Wiggle Cook said children were remarkable at adapting.
“Children tend to centre on one thing… they see the yellow skivvy and black hair and think that’s Greg,” he said.
The trio had flown to Perth late yesterday with new Wiggle Sam Moran and Page was a noticeable absentee.
"We're very disappointed he's not with us today," Blue Wiggle Anthony Field said on arrival.
Red Wiggle Murray Cook said Page was still undergoing tests.
"We hope he gets better, basically," he said.
Since a double hernia operation in December last year, Page has often been absent from the line-up, handing yellow skivvy-wearing duties to his understudy.
Paul Field, the group's manager and brother of Blue Wiggle Anthony, recently told AAP that Page would be out of action indefinitely.
As well as missing scheduled shows, Page has also missed key Australian industry events, including the Seven Network's 50 Years of Television show and the 2006 Australian Recording Industry Awards.
While Page hasn't spoken to the media, the Wiggles singer released a statement to fans earlier this month explaining his absence from the group's US tour.
He said doctors were attempting to find the cause of his fainting bouts.
“I have had numerous bouts of this over the past eight months but they are getting more frequent, and more concerning,'' he said.
The announcement will not affect the Wiggles' national "Racing to the Rainbow" tour that begins in Perth today, or the group's multi-million-dollar business.
Page has been a Wiggle since they first formed in 1991.
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I know this has nothing to do with anything in my life, but that is okay. I am doing well, I suppose...I survived my three exams, and I enjoyed the weekend. Mitch and Matt came to visit on Saturday and we spent the day at the Mall and surrounding areas. I got my hair cut, I bought three movies, and I got a new wallet. We checked out the Porn shop, just because, and were highly disappointed. We would have had more fun in Spencers. Anywho, that's about it. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is going to go brush her teeth...aluve'
I am on a roll...updating as much as I have been. I am taking a short break from studying as my exams loom on the horizon. I have my first exam today at 11, a quiz at 1, and then another exam at 8:30 this evening, followed by work 10-midnight, studying again, an early breakfast, and a third exam at 9:30 tomorrow morning. What a busy girl I am. I am just so lucky to have an amazing boyfriend. Last night after he was done working, he stopped by my room to drop off a present for me for our anniversary. He brought me some vegan meal bars, some pretzels, and some sour patch kids, because he knew that I wouldn't be leaving my room today except to go to my exams. Therefore, I now have things to eat. He is such a sweetheart. It makes me happy knowing that, regardless of how well I do on these exams, he will be there for me to pick me up when I fall, and to love me as much as is possible. I am very greatful for that. Anywho, this is going to be a short post because I have deemed my study break over. Make sure to wish Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt luck on her exams...aluve'
Oh, lame. I have three exams this week, starting tomorrow in the morning. Then I have one that evening, and one on Friday morning. I just want to go home. I have spent this entire week studying, and it's making me depressed. I don't have time to do anything that I want to do, like going to the gym or spending some time with Mitch. Hell, I don't even have time to do my crunches before I go to bed because I am so exhausted when I settle down for the night. I hate how I care so much about my grades...but I really want to go far in life. In the end, it will all pan out, but it's just depressing right now. Then there are the people who procrastinate forever, and then complain to me about it...I don't care to hear about your ignorance, FYI, I want to study and help myself out. Procrasitination gets people nowhere in life. I don't care to hear about how people "work better under pressure" or any shit like that. I work well under pressure as well, but I also like to get things done early so I know that I produce my very best work. It's all silly. And I am just complaining, so I apologize. I am just fed up with it all right now. I just want to go home for the long weekend that we have and just hang out with Mitch and Matt when they come to visit on Saturday, even if I have a ton of work to do over the break too. Lame.
Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is off to watch the Price is Right...aluve'
I was doing great. I felt great about myself, about how I looked, and about my eating habits. Then last weekend happened, and everything turned upside down. I hate when that happens. Last weekend I was absolutely swamped with work...I spend 7 hours on Saturday and 4 hours on Sunday on it. It was rediculous. And then the next day I had problems with some people in classes picking on me. It was in a joking way for them, but I was depressed because I felt that every weekend was going to be like that, and I took the picking on me to heart. It was not fun. I flipped out on my roommate and then my lab partners in my Biotechnology lab. I was visibly upset, and my lab partners almost brought me to tears. All of those events just brought me straight down. I started looking at my stomach and realizing that it used to be smaller, and that my hair never looked good, no matter what I did, and that I hated my muscular legs, and that my arms weren't as toned as this summer, etc. I become rather critical of myself when I am feeling down. I went home this weekend, and we had pizza for dinner, and I ate too much, so of course I felt bad about that, and then I got back here and had ice cream last night with some of the Brothers, and I haven't been to the gym for 4 days now...bleck. Another thing...since when is gelatin in youghurt? Seriously! I had some youghurt for breakfast this morning, and I was looking through the ingredients after I had finished eating it, and the last ingredient was "kosher gelatin." Being a vegetarain for almost 6 years now...well, I just feel like shit now. I had every urge to go into the bathroom and throw up, but I hate doing that, so right now I am morally distraught. They stopped serving the soy youghurt, so I don't know what I am going to do now. Seriously. It's just weird. But, yeah...I have classes to attend, and professors to listen to. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is off to further her education...aluve'
Perfection
(http://m-w.com/dictionary/perfection)
perfection
One entry found for perfection.
Main Entry: per·fec·tion
Pronunciation: p&r-'fek-sh&n
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English perfeccioun, from Anglo-French perfection, from Latin perfection-, perfectio, from perficere
1 : the quality or state of being perfect : as a : freedom from fault or defect : FLAWLESSNESS b : MATURITY c : the quality or state of being saintly
2 a : an exemplification of supreme excellence b : an unsurpassable degree of accuracy or excellence
3 : the act or process of perfecting
Why do I put this, you ask? Well, something has been bothering me lately. It's the fact that my roommate is always mentioning how her family is "perfect" in some aspect whenever the topic of families comes up. For example, she asked me how my winter vacation was, and I told her that it went well, and that I enjoyed spending time with my family. She asked me if I talked to my father or my half siblings at all, and I told her that I hadn't. She then mentioned that she couldn't imagine not living with both of her parents and not seeing both sets of grandparents during the holidays, etc. It's just something that she likes to brag about or something. I don't know. It's just weird. It doesn't bother me that my parents are divorced or that I don't see my younger half-siblings on that side of that family much...if at all. The statistics show that a good majority of marriages in the U.S. end in divorce anyway. So, I ask you this: how many of you have divorced parents? I know that my family may not be perfect according to the standard...whatever that may be, but I could not ask for something better. My mum is freaking amazing, and I love my twin 4 year old half-siblings like they were full siblings of mine, and my real sister and I are really close. It's just something that was bothering me, that's all. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is off to waste time before class...aluve'
Happy Valentine's Day 
So this one time... 
