Tuesday, May 3, 2005

   Homeward Bound
Well, it's Tuesday, May 03, 2005, which means that I am home for the next 4 months. I stayed at college until Saturday...until the last possible minute to leave. I stayed until roughly 3:30 that afternoon...waiting until the last possible minute to leave. It was a rough departure though. I stayed to help Chris pack, and then we went to turn in our room keys. After doing so, he looked at me, and told me not to cry. I was trying hard all day not to cry...but that was a request I couldn't fulfill. I started tearing up as we left the building, and as we got out to our cars, I just broke down. I didn't want to leave the place where I finally found acceptance, where I made some friends, where I felt at home. But, there was no choice...I had to go. I gave Chris a hug and didn't want to let go. I guess I should feel lucky though...I only have to survive 4 months of hell at home and then get to go back to 8 months of joy at college, while for other people it is the opposite. I cried half of the way home, and then put on some CAKE to sing along to to cheer me up a little bit. I got home to be lectured about how much weight I have lost (roughly 8 pounds within a month...and if you knew me, you would know that I should not be losing weight), and that I need to start eating again. Unfortunately, I think I have a problem again with the whole eating thing, and I know that I should go to a doctor about it, but I am too stubborn to do it. However, I do eat at least once a day to make everyone happy, so that has to count for at least something. Anyway, I have been keeping myself busy to keep my mind off of the depression of missing college life. I have kept myself busy unpacking my things (which was rough, but I kept from crying) and by rearranging my room. I figured that I had changed since college, so my room should change as well. I ended up hauling out 4 bags of thingd that I was going through and thought to myself, "Why the hell did I keep this?" (and such). I like the way my room looks now. I got rid of a lot of things, so I have more room now. I had an interview for a job on Monday, which went well. It was an interview for a camp counselor at the summer camp that I went to as a child. The interview went well, and the camp director basically said that I had the job as long as my background check cleared. That means that I am looking forward to 6 weeks of living at camp (minus weekends) and playing with kids. However, the job starts on June 20, which leaves me a month and a half to find something to do. I am getting a membership to a gym tomorrow, so that will take up some of my time during the free time, and I am thinking about seeing if the local diner is looking for some part time help during the morning for a month or so, like working from 5 in the morning to 2 in the afternoon, and then sleeping after work. It wouldn't be that bad of a deal as I see it...I mean, I am up until 2 or 3 in the morning anyway, so if I slept during the afternoon and was up at night, then it would all work out well. Anywho, I think I am going to go do something else for right now. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is missing those that mean the most to her...aluve'




Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a form of
ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter
it every six months" by Oscar Wilde.
You are a very sarcastic person with a sharp
tongue. You may not be the one always talking,
but your mind is nevertheless critizing. You
tend to have a cynical view on life itself and
be somewhat withdrawn with who you really are.
Society now is in your eyes corrupted and you
wonder how the world will survive. And people
are in your mind very ignorant and blind to the
reality.


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