Monday, September 12, 2005

   Sunday...w(h)oot
Well, the weekend is just about over now. It's currently 11:50 on Sunday night. The weekend wasn't too bad...on Friday I did the working thing, and then I went to Alpha Pi Omega's (APO) movie night to watch The Incredibles. APO is the service fraternity that I am pledging to this year. That's right, I said Fraternity. It's a Co-Ed fraternity. Anyway, that went well, and then I went to the Townhouses afterward to ang out with some of my upper-classmen friends. I got bored evenutally, so I headed back to the dorms, getting hit on by some drunken fools on the way back. >.< I ended up watching the last half of the Shawshank Redemption and Animal House with Chris when I got back. Around 3:30 a.m., I went back to my room so Chris could go to sleep. I was wide awake, so I decided to pull an all-nighter. I stayed up all night, talking with Mitch's roommate, Rich. I watched the sunrise that morning, and watched some squirrels play in the courtyard. It was a good morning. What made it better was the fact that I thought my roommate was gone for the weekend due to the fact that she wasn't in the room when I got back. Unfortunately, when 9:00 rolled around, she showed up, and told me to turn off the music that I was playing because she was "very fucking tired" and didn't want to "deal with my bullshit." I just stared at her blankly. It seems like the only time that we talk is when she has something to bitch at me about. I don't know how much longer I can deal with it. Luckily, I hat to leave for Worksession soon after she came back. Worksession went well...I cleaned and organized the costume/props closet. After that, I went over to State and walked around with Gretchen for a while. We complained about our roommates, and she came over and met mine, and completely agreed with me. ^_^ Friends are great like that. That evening, I went to Mitch's place and baked two batches of chocolate chip cookies for roughly 2 hours due to the fact that they only had one cookie sheet, and I make almost 10 dozen cookies. We then watched Team America. I got back to my room around midnight after having been up for 40 hours straight, only to find that my roommate was watching crap TV, turned up full blast. "It's my TV, and I am going to watch it whenever I want to." There was no way that I was going to be able to sleep. I went down to Chris's room to watch Escaflowne on Adult Swim, and ended up passing out on his futon. I am so lucky to have friends like that. I woke up today around 11:30, which was about two nights' worth of sleep for me, so it all equalled out. I had a long conversation with my Mumsie today, and I told her that I wouldn't be able to tolerate living with my roommate for another week. It's too late to switch rooms...it sucks.
Sometimes, I hate my life. Not the entire thing, just parts of it. This is an example. Sometimes I want to escape to my own little world. This wouldn't be a perfect fantasy world...it would be my life with a couple of things changed. There would still be pain and suffering, because what is life without that? One thing I would change would be to still have my roommate from last year. Another thing I would change would be the ay I think about some things. One major thing would be the way I thought about myself. I would not have the image in my head that I was fat, or imperfect in some way. I would love and respect my body instead of killing it slowly by not eating much. I know that a few people are worried about me. I try not to let them worry by going to eat dinner with them or whatnot, but it's not the same, I suppose. I hate when people worry about me. The fact that I have been stressed lately is not helping either. Things will get better though. I am not being optimistic, I am just saying that it's inevitable. Either I move out of my room and stay with Mitch and his roommates at their place, or I sleep on Chris's futon for a while, or I suck it up until the end of the semester. Either way, something is going to happen. *shrugs* That's life for you.
On a completely different topic, I ran out of dental floos a week ago, and things just haven't been the same without it. =P
Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is off to enjoy her Christmas pajamas...aluve'



You were betrayed. You were betrayed by someone
very close to you in a past life and you have
still never forgotten it. Either you were
killed by a best friend or ratted out by one,
but it still hurt you very deeply and you don't
trust hardly anyone anymore.


How did you die in your past life? (for everyone)
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