Saturday, October 29, 2005

   RUR Shows
Tonight (Friday) marked the second showing of R.U.R. It definitely went better than Thursday night, and my director actually told me that he loved my pissed off energy that I brought to the stage. I loved the comment -- too bad that I had to have an awful day to get that energy up to par. Actually, it's been a few little things that have been getting to me lately, but today just set me off. I had a Statistics exam this afternoon, and I am pretty sure that I completely bombed it. That's not good at all, because I was leaning on my exams to keep me passing in the class, because my homeworks sure as hell aren't keeping me passing. So, I might have to drop the class, which pisses me off, because grades are so important to me...I would really be kicking myself for that and being harsh as well. My Mum says that I am too hard on myself...that may be, but I have always been like that, and I am resistant to change. As for the little things, it's mostly bullshit with people in theatre. Mostly, a couple of people that have no personality of their own. There are a couple of girls in theatre that seem to adopt the mannerisms and personality of whomever they are hanging with. In this example, this is not a good thing in the least. One girl is obsessed with Jolt Cola, and talks about drinking that and alcohol all the time, the other girl talks about getting drunk and dressing slutty most of the time. Both of them have a problem with me as well because Mitch is my best friend. It's petty high school bullshit that college-age students should not be going through. But it seems to happen anyway. I hate it. It just bithers me to see these girls with absolutely no developed personality of their own, looking and acting lost as hell when their friends are not around for them to copy. You would think that a girl of 20 years would have developed at least some shred of a personality; an identity of her own. Instead, she aims to make my life hell, by leading other people in theatre to believe that I am nothing but bad news, and blaming her ruined friendship with Mitch on me. I stole him from her, so she has people believing. After our last show tomorrow (Saturday), we have our Halloween cast party. I am dressing up as Mammimi (FLCL) and Mitch is going as Takkun, so that ought to cause some problems. I doubt that I will stay at the cast party for long because I don't want any problems to be started. So, yeah, fun times.
On a completely unrelated topic, take note of the quiz below. How true it is. I was planning on going on a whole shpeel on love and such, but since my rant was long enough, I'll refrain for now. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, is off to bed...aluve'

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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