Monday, September 18, 2006

   It's Only Monday...
Today has seemed surreal. I do not feel like myself at all...I don't feel whole, I don't feel real...I feel insignifigant. I seem to be walking around all today in a daze. I cannot concentrate, but I know that it is imperative that I do as much because I had a quiz this morning, another on Friday, and an exam on Wednesday. It's only Monday, but I feel that this is going to be a long and drawn out week. It didn't start out well at all. Last night was a bad night...to make a long story short, three of the Alpha Phi Omega brothers left for Massachusetts last night around midnight. It's about a 6 or 7 hour drive from here, and it was all to help out a brother in need. We are good like that...it's why we wear the letters. It's still hard though, because I wanted to be there for support and all, but it was not logically feasable with the exams and such that I have this week. >.< I have felt irritated with life today...the most futile things are getting to me. I feel inconsiderate for thinking such things, but it's just the mood that I am in. Take, for example, coming into/going out of the building that I have classes in. There are two doors per entrance, yet people still choose to both go into and out of one door, creating a jam at some points, and then they proceed to make comments about it. You know what? Open the other effing door and go through that one, dipshit! Then there's the girls that like to dress in tight and revealing clothing, and, well, should not be exposing so much skin. Not only does it look trashy, but, seriously, do you really think you look good? Ever heard of a mirror? Accept the fact that you are far from horizontally challenged, and get clothes that fit. You can still look good...just don't go and buy the skintight/too small clothing. Hell, most of my clothing is too big because I don't like to always show off how tiny I actually am. Oh, what else? How about the fact that if you pass by someone you know, and you know they saw you, and then immediately avert their eyes so they don't have to say a "hello" while passing by...gain some effing common courtesy. It's not too much trouble to say a monosyllabilic "hi," is it? *growls* See what I mean? Needless anger. It's queer, because I feel lonely, but I want to be alone right now. I am exhausted, but my worrying mind kept me up last night. I am starting to get back into the "in over my head and freaking out about it" mode, but I really don't have that much pn my plate as of yet. I don't know how to explain it, rather than just saying that internally, I am a wreck. Plain and simple. It's to the point where I want more coffee, but I already had a cup today...so that is never a good thing. Ugh. Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt, just needs a hug...aluve'

You Are a Hunter Soul

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motiviated to succeed Actively working to acheive what you want, you are skillful in many areas. You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding. You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force. An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people. You tend to have an explosive personality, but also a good sense of humor. People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all. You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone. Souls you are most compatible with: Seeker Soul and Peacemaker Soul

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