Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Things just suck..they really do. Today was probably the worst days of the month. The day started off alright, woke up late and got ready but with the yelling my mom was doing, it didn't help me much. Just after that while in the car, traffic caught us and I was almost thirty minutes late..this pissed me off alot and It's not my moms fault or anyones..probably some accident that was making me late. I've already been late to school more than three times and what happens if you're late again? You loose credit.

I got to school and didn't make it..and I'm not sure if what to say. But anyway first period was alright, it's lonely there cause my friend is across the room. Then comes around this guy whom I really don't like and pisses me off most of the damn time I'm in that classroom. He will hit a girl, and here..if you don't know it's..very rude. So with that he comes around and just smacks me in the head with his binder. I mean what the bloodly hell? Why is he going to do some lame crap like that..and the hit was hard. I got up and told him to step down because I really ..didn't want to deal with all that.. And the teacher?! She told him to go sit down, knowing that he had hit me and that really pissed me off. Already cursing beneath my breath, it sucked so bad.

Then during second period a friend of mine got rejected by the boy of her dreams, she's even more than me with these love things. But it gets you thinking..why won't a guy like this girl because..she's awesome and caring..and it was sad to see her. I've been there before, more than three times. After that she cried and well I'm a big pussy when I get stuck at these things. I don't know what to tell her, how to comfort her. The teacher whom I love so much because HE DOES care, send us to the nurse. She wasn't feeling to well after that and headed home. Then lunch..I almost didn't eat anything and just when I thought things were getting lighten up my friend Karen was talking to me about evolution, we both agree on that. I'm not really..into the Adam and Eve thing so with that, this Deanna (who still wanders around whom I hate) buts in and starts lecturing us.

She's another religion than me and Karen so ..it was kinda unwelcomed. Telling us that we believe in something thats not even true, but that wasn't hurtful, the way she told us and she was mostly eyeing me. "You're all mindless people who believe in something that isn't there" that really pushed the last button. I got up to tell her something and I did which was telling her to fuck off and leave us alone and heres comes the part telling her I don't like her and crap but she shot back "You're a useless bitch, thats why Aldo rejected you". That really brought me down..we were aruging over religion and then this (she knows because I told her..big mistak) I hate that but it wasn't worth it right? I just got up and left the lunch room. With in the hallways, bitting my lip so hard that I started bleeding, I ran to the bathroom to wash over.

I'm a big sensitive when it comes to this and more about religion..I'm nuteral..don't know what to believe it. Its probably true, I got my report card and I did horrible in math, I can't even keep up with what the teacer is telling me. The sibilings are telling me to do something else other than the computer, but I don't always chat and stuff. I do my work but they don't believe it. Saying I'm one selfish person..probably I am and thats why I'm useless. Then at fourth period it was annoying and I was just slient but for those who don't know, its where Aldo and his chick are also in. Smiling and all that happy things, made me feel extremely small.

Yeah probably those other people deserve to be happy and I don't because I've done something bad, nothing agaisnt anyone. Yeslie came to me for with comfort but I really didn't want it..and I think I hurt her for it, I'm just one wack person. How can I not hurt other people when I'm myself hurt.. I'll live and will hide it all inside so I won't attract attention. Home is another problem because I get welcomed with the news of racism with immigrants..half my family here are illegal.. Thats right. My sisters can't even go to college because they don't have their papers and my dad can give it to them but he doesn't want to. He will to his other wife though.. I'm just blah right now..and really needed to rant.. Anyway I need to get off and do something.

What a perfect day today was..really.


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