Sunday, October 29, 2006

Just some stuff that you probably won't want to read, but I'm writing anyway 'cause if I don't I'll scream at someone...
Okay, first off I'd just like to say that at the moment, I am in a REALLY bad mood, so unless you want to read a rant, just ignore this. And, I apologize if you do read this and you're offended by anything I say - be it language (*coughIcussalot*cough*) or anything else.

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Sooo... This weekend seemed like it was gonna be really, REALLY good. After all, Friday-Saturday was a Halloween party at Arah's house, and Saturday-Sunday was Tohru's birthday party. Both were really fun, only it would've been funner for me if I wasn't feeling like crap the entire time due to the fact that my brother gave me his cold. >.< ANYWAY.

Like I said, both of the parties were good, and I was able to get through the Arah's party without being too much of a bitch due to feeling sick. At Tohru's, she gave me some medicine, which made me feel kind of better - but it didn't help as much as it had helped before, and I fell asleep to try to block out the way I felt. Which worked, until I woke up.

I don't even KNOW why I acted the way I did - but the things that I would usually think were funny, just weren't funny anymore, and I just couldn't smile. For like two hours, and I was able to kind-of smile and laugh... But it was kinda-sorta forced. By this I mean that I would've laughed and smiled if I was feeling normal, and I knew that, so I forced myself to. -.-;; And that's not it - I don't even remember part of what I did when I was feeling completely and utterly zombie-ish, although I do remember barely talking, sitting off by myself and trying to block out all the sounds, and trying to attack Travis when he did stupid stuff. But only flashes of it. -.-;;

Eventually, I started to feel a little better (around 1 AM I took another dose of medicine and it seemed to work a LOT better than before), and I THINK I was in a better mood - but I don't remember a lot of it... I think I fell asleep.

Fastforward to this morning. It was pretty good, although I'm pretty sure I was still acting kind of bitchy (I really want to STOP acting bitchy, but I just can't, and it pisses me off because I'm starting to act a lot like my mom -.-;;). And 'kind of' is probably an understatement... *sigh*

Anyway, when my mom called to tell me to come wait outside for her to pick me up, she sounded like she was in a really bad mood - which is NOT good at all. And, as it turns out, she WAS in a bad mood, and immediately started ranting about how my hair was a mess and my choice of clothes was, and I quote, "fucking ridiculous," and how I couldn't go out with her and my brother today because I was an embarrassment, so she dumped me off at my grandma's house until she and my brother came back and took me home.

And now I'm all pissed off again and I feel like I wanna kill something or someone, and my mom keeps telling me to stop coughing because it's getting on her nerves.

OH, and while I was at Tohru's party, my brother coughed once and my mom ran out and bought cough medicine and cough drops for him. -.-;; And she says I'm not allowed to have any.

Looking back on it, it seems pretty damn stupid now, but it's just put me in a really really really BAD mood, and if I have to talk to anyone today, I'll probably yell at them or act like a bitch or something. -.-;;

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Okay, rant over... You can all go home now... *sigh*
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