Sunday, June 18, 2006

Father's Day...
Father's day gets to be a weird time for me because my father passed away many years ago.

My mother and i went to visit him today and put out new flowers. My mom still takes it pretty rough, so i am there by her side (being as comforting as my dad would have been).

Strange, it rained today, pretty bad. It rained that day too...
Comments (1) | Permalink

Saturday, June 17, 2006

time to vent
I have had some weird experiences recently and am left dazed.

here is the breakdown:
Known this girl for awhile, talked to her alot about her ex.....cheered her up a did all the customary "Nice Guy" stuff.
She visits at one point and we hang out, she meets a friend of mine.
I later learn she thought he was cute and she had been talkin to him for a few days since they met.

Apparently he forgot to tell her that he had a girlfriend (i can understand, they've only been together for 2 years).....i accidentally told her and she almost cried.

Worse of all, i now know she still likes him and they are hangin out and such....

He is closer to her than i am and he has talked to her for a grand total of 4 days.

I am glad she is happy and all, but he has done this before and dropped them like it was nothing (his gf has even found out bout the previous girls and forgiven him.....yet he does it again)
I don't want her hurt again like her ex did.

Sometimes i feel like i'm shouting the truths of the world to deaf ears
Comments (2) | Permalink

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

early time for me
i figured i would get an entry in since this is the first time i have been online before 9 at night.

then again there hasn't been anythin to write about.
I wake up at noon and go to work at 2. then i usually come home. i should throw another party (which is really just code for "my friends getting wasted at my house")

this is all possible because my mom has been outta town for two weeks, she came back friday and left again yesterday.
so its back to fast food and ramen noodles. (preview of college i guess)

speaking of i get to actually see my college next week sometime. i go for orientation like the 20-21 or somethin like that.
It should be pretty kewl (it better be cuz i am goin there alone for like 4 years)
Comments (2) | Permalink

Monday, June 5, 2006

under construction
i felt like changeing out my background the otherday. but i forgot all about the URL address system for posting a background pic.
Basically i have the wallpaper on my desktop with no way to get it on here. I saw it while searchin google. the site it was on was down but then i found a version here.

now i gotta put it up for the peoples. cuz this black and white is dull.
Comments (2) | Permalink

Friday, June 2, 2006

money money money
what up all, i am coherent again....if i ever was.
The teeth thing wasn't that bad, haven't even taken any of the pain pills they gave me (hadn't hurt that much)

I got that nice XM Inno i was lookin at and it will be the only thing i can get for a long long time...but worth it. 170 music channels to a portable device that can record up to 50 hours for later playback whenever and it looks something like a cell phone fused with an iPod.....(full on techie happy shudder)

Today i got my paycheck, which is still fairly unimpressive. I tried to kill some time in town so i could meet up with someone but none of that played through. I ended up with the 2 most recent volumes of Bleach,
the new Buckcherry album (which i've been waiting for since i heard "Crazy Bitch")
and best of all i finally found Evil Dead, a classic cult movie

My wallet needs to be confiscated, but hey......long live the Capitalist system!!
Comments (1) | Permalink

Monday, May 29, 2006

Last coherent entry for a while
Well, i'm just waiting out the night cuz tomorrow morning i get to get my wisdom teeth taken out and i am pretty sure i'm gonna be out of it for the rest of the week.

Not that it will be any different than what i have been up to. I am pretty much secluded from ost of society and kinda far from any of my friends....which means i'm loosing it.

I did get to go and see the new X Men movie when it came out friday. it was really good and i kinda expected some of what happened (mainly cuz i am a comic book nerd)
Friday was the first time i'd gone and done anythin with my friends since i graduated, that's a bit disturbing to me.........

i'm starting to wander what the symptoms of cabin fever are
Comments (3) | Permalink

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

....
So far this summer has really sucked, i am secluded from most of society due to my distance from town, everyone i know is too busy to do anything and as a result i have hardly left my house for anything other than comic books and work.
(which i believe is damageing my mental state)

Yesterday i did go and help a friend (if i was even of a lot of help in the first place) which was pretty kewl.
but this morning i succeded in making an ass out of myself with a stupid joke (which is kinda my specialty it seems). and as a result i may have lost a valued friend.

why post this u wonder...well it is simply on the off chance that it may be seen by those involved and is my only remaining method of communication.

I am sorry, i have stupid humor and i often forget that your above that. i will disappear should u so wish, i just don't want there to be bad blood......i'm never one for the harshness.

Hindsight is 20:20
Comments (4) | Permalink

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Glad to be a Grad
Well, its official.....monday night i graduated from highschool.
We did the whole big and pointless ceremony. i say pointless cuz it is composed of traditions which seem to have no meaning anymore (turning the tassle, the gown and hats themsselves is weird too)
but it is done and well worth the rehearseing (3 hours to get it right)

spent the time between rehearsal and event hanging out with my friends, reveling in the events to come (plus i got some interesting pictures of them and an inflatible monkey that puts drunken party antics to shame....)

AFter the ceremony i found the gathered memebers of my family, posed for 40 picture oppurtunities and collected some sweet grad money.
I was also able to FINALLY get my watch back from Evilon who has had it for like 2-3 weeks.
now that its back i can eagerly admit i missed it and that it is the source of my power (not all of my power, but it plays a role)
She looked quite formal and professional for the whole event, and by that i mean cleavage (yay!).
I only say this cuz i know she'll probably never read it.
Reads it or not i hope that we can at least hang out once or twice over the span of the summer since we will be at 2 seperate schools in different states. (plus she still has my FF VII: Advent Children)

long post over
in short: I graduated, got money and uh.....yay!
Comments (8) | Permalink

Friday, May 5, 2006

The Next Step
as u may be able to tell from the bad quote outta American Pie. I'm moving on to the next step.
High School is over, all gone....it went bye bye.

Now its time for the real world. well, sorta....
the real world of college.

I just have this summer to hang out with all my friends before i probably never see most of them again.
This may seem a little dramatized, but it is sadly more true than it should be. I am the only person in my entire school to be going to a college in Louisiana.
Everyone else is stayin in state. Lots of people i know are goin to Henderson and UCA and ASU (most people reading this have no idea what i'm talking bout but i don't care)

And a couple of my friends are goin into the military.
We are scattering to the winds, to spread across the planet and leave our mark in the world. probably to never come together again, except for the awkward reunion thing where people are pulled together and forced to interact with people they hardly remember.

Thats why we gotta hold on to the remains of our past. rage into the dieing of the light.

vent session over....no more drinking for me on Cinco De Mayo
Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, May 3, 2006

Its All Over Now
Well, yesterday was the final presentation for the seniors. And everyone did just fine, the teachers claim that the big important people who came here to judge us were all surprised at how professional we all were and stuff like that.
I just think that they didn't expect these public school kids to put up such a presentation. Cuz i have done more important presentations for less important things.
But all in all the judges hated being there as much as we did.
I finished mine pretty early then stuck around to see my friends before and after their presentations.
After it was all over i ended up sitting around bored outta my mind until i convinced "evilon" (her SN on here, figured it was better than using her name) to go and hang out.
We ended up wanderin around our towns pathetic mall for awhile then went bowling before i had to take her home and rush to work
(side note: work was incredibly boring and i probably didn't even need to be there)

It was a pretty kewl day and it was fun hangin with her, but the closest thing i got to a complaint is that Evilon still has my WATCH!!! (i'm gonna need that back sooner or later)
Comments (3) | Permalink