Tuesday, January 23, 2007

   me update
well the one that i had mentioned that i had possibley found was this girl that i met at church but come to find out shes a hoar that will go out with a guy then break up with him 2 days later so no chance on that one i told one of our group that i like her and she dosen't seem to take it as a big deal just freinds like always i swear to god i must have one of the worst cases of the BEST FREIND SYNDROM that has ever to come to be every singel girl that has ever broke up woth me or turned me down it was just freinds only friends for now it's horrible i can never seem to get a decent date that loves me for me the most basic defintion of the syndrom is no girl wants to go out with their best freind .
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Thursday, January 18, 2007

   me
hello people i'm updating from my psp yay for those of you who dont know im doing better and thanks for the concern i may have found sombody i dont know yet and it sucks typing on the psp so im not going to type much that explains the choppynes
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

   the break up
well for those of you that don't know me and excel broke up last week she broke up with me on our aniversery the 29.i would have updated and told all yall but i've been super depressed eversince then.today is a good day so i'm able to update.i've been getting the feeling that every one is giving up on me first excel then my mom told us that she is leaving for good and i went with one of my old girlfriends to try and keep me from killing myself and she left me a few days ago i've went to sleep thinking of the diffrent ways i can kill myself for the past week on bad days on *good days*i cry myself to sleep thinking of her this is quite possible the worst i have ever been or at least as bad as when my dad went to jail and i had to live with my mom.i feel pathetic because i flirt with just about every girl i meat i am praticly craving attention plain and simple life sucks but i think that i may be able to pull myself through this i have dun it before i hope that i can do it agin
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

   stuff
well hiya folks since i'vent updated in a while i guese i'll do that now.well for starts my bestfriend from forrestcity is coming over to my house we've known each other since the first grade.that and i almost very nearly pissed excel's parents off because there very relious and antigothic and then theres well me.so any ways i've been watching what i waer and say so so far her parents like me but saturday i ran out the door with a wrist band still on and her mom saw it but she didn't say anything untill sunday she chewed excel out and kept interigating her about me asking if i was into that stuff she covered for me and so everything's fine now and i love her for it¢¾.but it still pisses me off to think about some of the things she said some of witch i will not disclose over the internet or anywhere for that matter and so yay well that and i almost got into a fight over the weekend with one of excel's friends he keeps messing with her to simply piss me off and quite frankly it's working when we went to the bowlingally after church he started messing with her acting like he was going to hit her and such also by reading the before mentiond i wasn't having very good day so he was just messing with me at all the wrong times i was so pissed i couldn't see striaght for those of you who know me really well i have a anger problem and i can get so mad i black out and lose all self control well i was just about to that point.if it wasn't for the counsling i took and the fact that she chose to drag me off at that piticular moment i was going to attempt to rip his lower jaw off and as for samatha don't even try to defend him you know he was wrong and there is nothing you can say about it.well thats some of the gigles and excerpts from my life thuse far well have a good one
#i laugh when i'm away because i'm holding in the thousand tears thats inside i cry when i'n with you because of the bursting joy that fills me#
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

   new computers yey
well i'm in keyboarding in 8th period and we all got new computers and thats awsome kick..well you know the rest.excel was in a bad mood today because she nearlly hit this stupid old person who just stoped in the middle of the fing road.and she was in her classical i hate the idiots of the world mood.any way last night we was doing a concert for band to let our parents see our marching show.our band director let us go get a drink of water and while we was out in the hall i snuck up behind her and went to pick excel up and she friken clawed me and drew blood it really sucked she felt all bad but i thought it was funny
thats my life up to this point and tilll next time
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Sunday, December 3, 2006

   the trip
well as for the trip to junction city it was ok i guese....oh and i owe jyushin a swift KICK in the groin area he gave excell coffie with a ton of sugar in it and i got to be traped in a jeep for 5HOURS if any of you know how she is on sugar ya'll should fell soryy for me 5HOURS people.¢¾i love her though it was alright after we got to junction city because they had a little playground and she got to expend some energy.then we went through the gate to the game in between excel's grandparents and her mom they had anough blankets and quilts to put under a homeless shelter and i got to carry most of them but i'm not complaing cause i grabed most of the blankets.we got there 3houres early and me and her bundeld up we looked like a two headed blob but we needed all thouse lankets it was like 17degrees at the game.like i said we got there 3houres early so by the time the game started my but was numb and i was frozen.it sucked cause we drive all the way out there and lost by 1point.at the end the guy caught it and to just about every one still thinks it was in but the reff said no so we lost it.the ride home was a lot better by the end of the game she was spent she fell asleep on my sholder and stayed like that for most of the ride home.she's beautiful when she's sleeping i sat there and watched her sleeping but i eventually fell asleep leened agenst her head on my sholder.we stayed like that for the rest of the trip by the time we got around forrestcity i wasn't so shure we was going to make it home her mom started swerving and stuff like that it scared me.then they took me home and the night ended
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Thursday, November 30, 2006

   bus ride
well as it ended up me and excel get no bus ride to junction city that kinda made me angry but i got over it.we are still going one way or another but i'd prefer the way with less parents.all the deatels shall be worked out later when dad gets back home from jackson mississippi he's been there for 4 days now working on a big job.
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

   me and excel
today was me and excel's 1month anniversary i made her a little keychain with t-birds on it she really liked 1cause it was from me and 2it had sparkels.she drew me a nbc themed picture of me and her and zero. i liked because it was from her but she didn't think it was very good.
.i can't protect you without holding a sword
i can't embrace you will holding a sword.
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

   today
have you ever had one of those days when you thought you should have rolled over and went back to sleep.well that was today i had to wake up at6:00 in the morning becaue my mom wasn't there and my dad had to go too work then i set up and looked out the window and it was porring down rain and i get to walk to school throught that and i had a spliiting headache and i was slightly disoriented.then i get up and when i go to get my coffe cup all of them was dirty and i had to drink my coffe out of a flinstones cup, and dark cause we was out of creamer. then i went to school and get run over by a chick in a wheel chair.
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

poem
here's a poem that i had to do for english thought i'd share it with you

Two roads lie before one less taken, one all stamped down and bare.There lie two roads ahead of me and a choice in front of me that I must make.I will try to chose the one that is best for me by looking on down the way.The one less taken appears more in sync with the one that is inevitibly me, but this path seems more diffucult to traverse than the beaten down path .this stamped bare path may be easier to travel but if i simply conform and travel down this path i loose a small part of me each time i travel on
the beaten path.I ponder the the choice that lies before me and then simply stop thinking and turn to begin to hack my own path through the overgrowth that is life
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