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Thursday, August 5, 2004
Fear
I lay here, unable to sleep, unable to relax enough to rest. I am scared to death, and yet I am avoiding everyone, for fear of making them worry. But, I am too afraid to sleep, fearful that I will wake with him in my room again. I am tempted to sneak over to a friend's house, and sleep there tonight. He lives less than a mile from me, an easy walk, and he and I are very close. He knows of everything that goes on in this house, and has threatened several times to go to the police. But, I can't let him do that. I will be murdered long before the police obtain their warrant. I can't risk it. I will find my own way out in time. Until then, I live with the fear and the pain. What frightens me most is how it might end up hurting my son someday, to know what his mother endured; to know how weak she is. I sometimes hate so much what I have become, but I can't change. I've tried too many times to count. I'm tired of trying, and tired of hurting. For now, I'm going to gather some things and sneak off to Nathaniel's house. I will post again when I can.
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